It's Not That Hard

You ever have those moments in life, where you see someone who had hurt you in the past and you thought you would never see that person again? Yeah, I am having that moment right now.

“Jeremy?” Jeremy was my ex-boyfriend who got me into drugs and was the reason I was in the hospital.... He just one day up and left and never told me where he was going and never got back in contact. He was the reason I was sent to Carrie's in the first place.

“Yeah babe it's me in the flesh!”

“Where did you go! You left me on day said you where going to your mom's place and then I waited up for you and you never came back! I thought you were dead!” I was close to crying. Hey! You would be too if you saw your first love after two years of thinking he was dead.

“I know. I went to my mom's place to get the weed I needed and Big Gary and had been there and my mom told him he didn't know where it was and he shot her. I went after him and he tried to shoot me but I pulled out my gun and shot him. I was arrested for double murder!” He was pissed at me.

“Well it's not my fault! I told you not to get your mother involved! Look what happened. Two people dead and you are 'responsible' for their deaths? No, and I know you killed because of what happened in freshmen year.” Hey! He may have been like three and half years older than me, but I know what happened freshmen year.

He had sold Big G, about two bundles of weed (I don't know anything about drugs BTW). Big G wasn't happy with what he got. So he went to Jeremy's place and took his mom. He raped his mom, and then it wasn't considered rape because after she got out they started dating. It pissed Jeremy off. Because he didn't want his mom dating Big G. So he had multiple plans to kill either Big G or his mother. And then all of a sudden both of them are dead. I know Jeremy did it. Jeremy knows he did it. Everyone Jeremy and Big G hung around with know Jeremy did it. But he was already in for it. And he deserves more time then two years.

“YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TALK TO ME LIKE THAT! DO YOU WANT A REPEAT OF CHRISTMAS?!?!?!?!” He yelled at me. I was scared ever since I dated him I thought he was amazing and at first he was. But he was a druggie and nothing good ever comes from a druggie. So one Christmas I didn't get him exactly what he wanted. And since he lived in the woods he tied me to a tree, no food or water in the freezing cold for 3 ½ hours. I had frost bite but I lived. But my luck got worst and worst. My parents were alive for the first year of me and Jeremy's relationship and my father and mother didn't like him. So I told them I was spending a week for Christmas with Tyler, and my aunt and uncle. But I really spent it with Jeremy. And when they found out I was told I would never see sunlight again. Because they called Tyler and asked him to drive me home when they came down to visit my mom and dad. Tyler told them I never went and visited them. And then they called me and Jeremy answered. My parents were driving to Jeremy's house to get me, and they hit an ice patch and then hit a tree and died on impact. I blamed myself until Jeremy told me he would kill me if I didn't stop.

So my relationship wasn't the greatest. Actually it the shittiest.

“Jeremy, please just let my go to my aunt and uncles and I can get together with you later in the week. My number is still the same as it was two years ago.” No it's not... “So call me later in the week and me and Britt will meet up with you.”

“OK. But I will hold you to it. If not I know where your grandmother lives and your aunt and I can find where you are staying with Tyler.” I was scared. How did he know I wasn't with Carrie or my grandmother anymore, and I was with Tyler? I was scared so all I did was nod and walk away with Britt at my side.

“Are you really going to meet up with him?” Britt asked shocked that I would do that.

“Hell no! And if he shows up we will most likely be with Joffrey and anyone else that decides to stay and hangout with us.” She nodded and looked slightly releived.

“OK. Let's just find your aunt and get the hell out of here. “I agreed and we started walking towards the exit.

“Ladies look who made it just in time!” We turned around to see the Bruins...... FML!

“WELL WHY THE HELL ARE YOU HANING OUT WITH JOFFREY AND THE FUCKING MAPLE LEAFS!?! THAT'S ALMOST WORST THEN HANIGN OUT WIHT THE FUCKING MONTREAL CANADEINS!” Our screams could probably be heard all the way in Boston.

“BECAUSE THEY TREAT ME RIHGT! THEY TREAT ME LIKE A HUMAN! I DATED DOUGIE AND WHEN SOMETHING WENT WRONG EVERYONE WAS TELLING ME TO FIX IT BECAUSE IT WOULD RUIN DOUGIE'S GAME! I HANG OUT WITH JOFF AND NO ONE TELLS ME IF HE GETS MAD OR I GET MAD TO GO FIX IT BECAUSE HE WOULD LOSE TO YOU GUYS OR LOSE TO SOMEONE ELSE! I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT ANYONE ELSE HAS TO SAY! THEY ARE MORE OF MY FRIENDS THEN YOU GUYS WILL EVER BE! AND TYLER! I. HATE. YOU!” I screamed the last three words with so much emotion. He looked so hurt but he needed to know how I feel about this whole thing and now he does.

The next thing I know is Tammy is standing in front of me before I am slapped.

“Tyler. I think you and your Bruins should go.” I hear someone say from the doorway. I don't have to look to know it is Joffrey from the scoffing coming from the retreating team.

A note fell in my lap but I didn't look up in time to see who it was because the team was gone and so was Joffrey.

Dougie's POV

“Bailey,

I am looking at this piece of paper and wondering what am I going to say to you? After reading your note I knew you were done with the Bruins and that is fine. But if you date Joffrey let him know he is a lucky man and not to let you go. When I had you I knew I had something special but I didn't take advantage of what I had. I let the guys say stuff about you no boyfriend should ever do. I let what they said about our relationship get the best of me and then I took it out on you. It was never your fault for anything I did. I was stupid and I know that now. But before you left I was never going to realize it until you leaving pointed it out for me. Since you pointed things out about me I never knew I did. I'll do the sam for you.

Every night before you go to sleep you would lay your head on my chest and just before I would fall asleep, you would have me tell you about my day. The reason you told me you did that was because the vibrations when someone talks makes you tired and helps you fall asleep. And when you stretch in the morning you don't think I notice but you have a little bird tattoo on your hip. And I fall in love with you even more when you smile and or laugh. Because you do this cute crinkle in your nose. And you drive me crazy when you sing in the shower because you only sing one song, 'As Long As You Love Me' by Backstreet boys. And your favorite part in the chorus. You always forget to grab a towel before going into the shower because you know I love doing things for you. And you know how to drive me crazy when I get home from road trips and or just regular games that you didn't want to go to because you are sick.

I know I was a terrible boyfriend and I hope you can forgive me. And we never have to talk again if you don't want to. Just tell Joffrey he is one lucky son of a bitch.

Yours Truly,

Dougie

As I finished writing the letter we were already in Toronto.

Tyler and Bailey had finished fighting and I was the last Bruin to leave the room. I dropped the note in her lap and saw her look up but I was already gone. Out the door and on my way to a new life. Maybe she will be in it. Maybe, not. But all I know is I love her and she no longer loves me. She loves Joffrey and no one will compare.

Bailey's POV

I finished read the letter tears were following down my face. But I didn't care. I dropped the note and ran. We were in the Bruins hotel and I needed to know where Dougie was. I just needed to.

“Zdeno!! Z! Where is Dougie? Please I need him!” I was sobbing barley could breath but what Zdeno told me next broke me.

“He left already. He wants to move on. He wrote you the letter and gave it you and left.... He's gone for good.”