Week In Wasaga
Not How I Wanted To Spend My Night
I couln't walk fast enough to my room that I share with Tyler fast enough. I couldn't be more upset about what he said. Tyler really did just say that. I couldn't believe it. But at the same time he's right.When will I see him after? Probably never. He has tons of girls to hook up with and keep him satisfied. When I got in the room I closed the door softly and sat on my side of the bed with my knees to my chest crying.
There was a knock at the door, I figured who it was. "Kylie do you wanna talk?" Jamie said softly. "Come in." I said. She came into the room, shut the door and gave me a huge hug. If anyone, Jamie knew me the best and could read me like a book. "What he said was absolute bullshit and you did not deserve to hear that. He is such a dick and he doesn't deserve you. You shouldn't cry about it." "I can't help it though. What he said really hurts."
We both made ourselves comfy on the bed and I hugged a pillow. "You know what kind of luck I have had with guys and what he said was no different. I actually really started to like him and it's not fair. He totally lead me on. He knew exactly what he was doing and played me," "Aw sweetie. Boys know how to do that." "I always fall for it. I always fall for the right things said by the wrong person. I am so tired of getting used all the time and falling for the same lies."
"I know girl, I see it all the time." "I am too good of a person to constantly get treated this way and I don't wanna get hurt. It's absolute bullshit. Do people think I am that bad of a person that they just wanna lie to me all the time? I would kill for someone to say that they like me and actually mean it. I would kill for someone to do nice and romantic things with me and for me like I would do to him. I am not a drum. You can't just play me, bang me and throw away the sticks you used and walk off stage. I hate it."
"But Kylie, you know exactly how I feel about it when guys do that to you, they don't deserve you. You deserve someone who is gonna treat you right and make you cry for the right reasons, not the wrong." "I really did fall for Tyler. Fast and hard," "I don't blame you, look at him for Pete's sake. Don't worry about him though. Live your life the way you want to live it. And don't go looking for something, let it come to you. That's when love happens best." "Thanks girl." "Anytime. Do you wanna come out and see us? I don't blame you if you don't." "I think I'm good for the night." "That's fine. I'll get douchebags shit and make him sleep on the couch." "Thanks," I chuckled.
One Jamie left I crawled off of the bed and got myself ready to sleep. This huge room made me feel so lonely and small. I don't know why but at the back of my head I still wanted things to work between me and Tyler. I was remembering the good memories and thought he could change. But guys don't change unless they realize they messed up. Its something about myself that I hate, I always remember the good things and memories, which is good, but always with the wrong person. If it's meant to be it'll happen. But this is not how I wanted to spend my night. Alone in bed and crying my eyes out.
There was a knock at the door, I figured who it was. "Kylie do you wanna talk?" Jamie said softly. "Come in." I said. She came into the room, shut the door and gave me a huge hug. If anyone, Jamie knew me the best and could read me like a book. "What he said was absolute bullshit and you did not deserve to hear that. He is such a dick and he doesn't deserve you. You shouldn't cry about it." "I can't help it though. What he said really hurts."
We both made ourselves comfy on the bed and I hugged a pillow. "You know what kind of luck I have had with guys and what he said was no different. I actually really started to like him and it's not fair. He totally lead me on. He knew exactly what he was doing and played me," "Aw sweetie. Boys know how to do that." "I always fall for it. I always fall for the right things said by the wrong person. I am so tired of getting used all the time and falling for the same lies."
"I know girl, I see it all the time." "I am too good of a person to constantly get treated this way and I don't wanna get hurt. It's absolute bullshit. Do people think I am that bad of a person that they just wanna lie to me all the time? I would kill for someone to say that they like me and actually mean it. I would kill for someone to do nice and romantic things with me and for me like I would do to him. I am not a drum. You can't just play me, bang me and throw away the sticks you used and walk off stage. I hate it."
"But Kylie, you know exactly how I feel about it when guys do that to you, they don't deserve you. You deserve someone who is gonna treat you right and make you cry for the right reasons, not the wrong." "I really did fall for Tyler. Fast and hard," "I don't blame you, look at him for Pete's sake. Don't worry about him though. Live your life the way you want to live it. And don't go looking for something, let it come to you. That's when love happens best." "Thanks girl." "Anytime. Do you wanna come out and see us? I don't blame you if you don't." "I think I'm good for the night." "That's fine. I'll get douchebags shit and make him sleep on the couch." "Thanks," I chuckled.
One Jamie left I crawled off of the bed and got myself ready to sleep. This huge room made me feel so lonely and small. I don't know why but at the back of my head I still wanted things to work between me and Tyler. I was remembering the good memories and thought he could change. But guys don't change unless they realize they messed up. Its something about myself that I hate, I always remember the good things and memories, which is good, but always with the wrong person. If it's meant to be it'll happen. But this is not how I wanted to spend my night. Alone in bed and crying my eyes out.
2/21/13