Dear Patrick
Letter Twenty-Four
Thursday, November 25, 2013
Dear Patrick,
My doctor's appointment didn't go too well. To be completely honest, and I'm only saying this because this letter will go unsent, but I'm scared. Scared is an understatement- I'm terrified. I've been wanting to call you or text you or email you or anything but I can't bring myself to it. I don't want to put you through what I'm going through. It'd hurt you and I can't have that. You need to get yourself another Stanley Cup, Pat. Go back to back, break some records, win some trophies. I don't want to burden you with silly health problems. Adam's been the sweetest thing ever. He's done everything- helped me out anytime I've asked. Honestly, I don't know where or what I'd be right now if it weren't for him. He saved me when you couldn't. If you're ever angry about me not talking to you, Pat, the best thing would be for you to thank him.
With this new "thing" I have going on with my body and the doctors, I've become a lot more interested in figuring out who people really are- reading face expressions, analyzing body movements to get into your head, you know? I swear it's not as creepy as it sounds. I've learned so much about myself. You know that quote, "Never forget what people say when they're angry, that's when the truth slips out"? It's so untrue with me. When I'm mad I say something, anything, just as long as I can find a way to get my anger out. Like when I said I regret losing my virginity to you, I was angry.
I was also lying.
I didn't lose my virginity to you.
I'm sorry I didn't save it for you like you asked me to. I know how badly you wanted me to and I'm sorry I couldn't do that for you. But at least I didn't get pregnant, eh? Not an appropriate time for joking but I really am cheeky, I guess. Anyway, Pats, I really hope I see you around because I do miss you. I think Adam's at the door: he said he'd go walking with me. We used to do that, remember?
Love,
Lana
Monday, January 6, 2013
Dear Lana,
Patrick
Dear Patrick,
My doctor's appointment didn't go too well. To be completely honest, and I'm only saying this because this letter will go unsent, but I'm scared. Scared is an understatement- I'm terrified. I've been wanting to call you or text you or email you or anything but I can't bring myself to it. I don't want to put you through what I'm going through. It'd hurt you and I can't have that. You need to get yourself another Stanley Cup, Pat. Go back to back, break some records, win some trophies. I don't want to burden you with silly health problems. Adam's been the sweetest thing ever. He's done everything- helped me out anytime I've asked. Honestly, I don't know where or what I'd be right now if it weren't for him. He saved me when you couldn't. If you're ever angry about me not talking to you, Pat, the best thing would be for you to thank him.
With this new "thing" I have going on with my body and the doctors, I've become a lot more interested in figuring out who people really are- reading face expressions, analyzing body movements to get into your head, you know? I swear it's not as creepy as it sounds. I've learned so much about myself. You know that quote, "Never forget what people say when they're angry, that's when the truth slips out"? It's so untrue with me. When I'm mad I say something, anything, just as long as I can find a way to get my anger out. Like when I said I regret losing my virginity to you, I was angry.
I was also lying.
I didn't lose my virginity to you.
I'm sorry I didn't save it for you like you asked me to. I know how badly you wanted me to and I'm sorry I couldn't do that for you. But at least I didn't get pregnant, eh? Not an appropriate time for joking but I really am cheeky, I guess. Anyway, Pats, I really hope I see you around because I do miss you. I think Adam's at the door: he said he'd go walking with me. We used to do that, remember?
Love,
Lana
Monday, January 6, 2013
Dear Lana,
Patrick
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