You've Set My Heart Ablaze
Chapter 16-
Allison’s POV:
James didn’t say anything. He just stood there, staring at me. “James…” I started, my voice shaking.
He looked up at me, tears slowly forming in his eyes, “How could you…”
“James…I was drunk…I don’t even remember…”
“That’s not good enough! You had sex…with my best friend…” he was obviously hurt and I didn’t blame him.
“James…I…”
“You’re what, Allison? You’re sorry? You’re sorry that you got mad at me for no fucking reason and then you went out and got drunk and fucked my best friend? Is that what you wanted to say? Or how about it’s all my fault because I have been spending more time with Jennifer than with you and you just wanted to get back at me…is that it?!” James yelled.
“It wasn’t like that!” I yelled back
“Oh yeah? Than what was it, Allison? Tell me. I am dying to know what the fuck it was if it wasn’t either of those two things. You know that I already do know something, though, right? I mean I know I’ve fucked up before, but I never did it with anyone’s best friend. I don’t know if I’m more angry with you or with him!”
“Don’t bring Geno into this!”
“Why the fuck do you even care what I do with him? Do you like him or something?!” he was still, yelling. By then, neighbors where looking outside at us…more than likely calling the police.
“James, keep your voice down!”
“You know what? Fuck you.” with that, he got into his car and drove off.
James’ POV:
I was extremely furious. I was more angry at Geno than Allison. Geno should have known better, drunk or not. Allison…well…even though I was angry at her too, I had gone back on my promise to her.
I got to the arena and headed inside going straight to the locker room. The guys were all their doing their pre-game rituals and I just marched straight towards Geno. He saw me coming and he stood up, “You fucking bastard!” I yelled, taking a swing at him but he ducked out of the way.
“Nealy…I’m sorry.” he started
“Sorry doesn’t fucking cut it!” I yelled even louder, swinging again and missing. By then the others came and started pulling us apart. “Let me go!” I yelled at Engo.
“Not until you calm down!” Engo yelled back
“Maybe if you treat her better I won’t have to do it!” Geno yelled from behind Cookie and Craig Adams.
I swung at him again, knocking his gear off of his cubby. “I’ll fucking kill you!”
“Guys, stop!” Sidney yelled
“Cut it out!” Flower chimed in
“He had sex with my girlfriend!” I yelled
They all looked at him in shock, “You what?!” Engo yelled at Geno
“He treat her like shit. She wanted it.” Geno argued
I pulled away from Engo, “Fuck you.” I yelled at Geno, snapping one of my own sticks in half and storming off. I was probably being immature, but I was furious and upset.
As I was leaving the building, Ray Shero called me into his office. Ray informed me that I’d be a healthy scratch for tonight’s game and at that point, I didn’t even care…
My best friend betrayed me. My girlfriend apparently didn’t care that she tore my heart into millions of pieces and then incinerated them. My other friends where more confused than anything and I…I just wanted to go home and be with the only friend I felt I had at the moment…Jack Daniels.
Allison’s POV:
I looked down at the ice, James was nowhere to be found. I sighed and looked around for Vero. She hadn’t got there yet and I needed to ask her if she knew where he was. I saw her heading towards me and I smiled and waved. “Hello.” Vero said sitting down beside me.
“Hey…do you know where James is?” I asked
“Healthy scratch. I was going to ask you why…” Vero started
Honestly, I didn’t know ‘why’, but I had an idea. “I don’t really know ‘why’, but I’m sure it has to do with me…” I replied
“What do you mean?” Vero asked
“I cheated on him…we got into a big fight…” I started
Vero’s eyes widened, “Oh.”
I nodded, “I’m going to go, then. I’m going to see if he is at home…”
“Okay, good luck.” she smiled
I grabbed my purse and headed to my car, driving to James’ house. I knocked on the door and heard slight movement behind it. After a few minutes, he unlocked the door and opened it. His eyes were bloodshot and I could smell the whiskey on him.
“What are you doing here?” he slurred
“I was checking up on you…” I started
“Why? So you can fuck some more of my friends?”
“James…” I started. He was being unfair. James wasn’t perfect either. “You’re drunk.”
“So what?! You know…I know that I’ve been an asshole, but again I never fucked anyone’s best friends and cause friends to fight.”
“You got some girl pregnant!” I argued
“She isn’t just ‘some girl’, Allison!”
“Oh yeah? She should be. You’re with me, James, not her!” I yelled
“I might as well be with her because she isn’t a bitch!” he yelled back, slamming the door.
James’ POV:
I knew that I shouldn’t have called Allison a bitch, but I was upset. I slouched onto the couch and laid down, burying my face in my pillow. I wanted to crawl into a deep, dark hole and never come back out. I was a douche bag and I knew it.
I got off the couch and emptied the last drop of my Jack into the sink and I splashed some water on my face. I had to go talk to Allison. I had to go apologize. I knew in my heart that she never meant to hurt me. She didn’t intentionally go to the bar to get drunk and fuck someone.
I put my sweatshirt on and I drove to her apartment, letting myself up with the key I still had and went to her door. I knocked on it slowly and she opened the door, tears in her eyes. “What do you want, James? To tell me how much of a bitch I am?”
I shook my head “I’m sorry, Allison. I’m sorry for being a dick to you…I’m sorry for yelling at you…I’m sorry for going back on my promise. I’m just sorry.”
She looked at me, “James…I’m sorry too…for cheating on you for being a bitch about Jen…I just…when I saw you with her the other day, when she dropped you off…I just felt so jealous…you just seemed so happy…”
“And you don’t think I’m that happy with you?” I asked
“Sometimes, no, I don’t think you are…I just…I was being a child about the whole situation…” she replied
I looked at her, “Allison…”
“James, I think we should take a break. Not fully end things, but I think we both need some time to sort out some issues before we get too committed in this relationship.” she said
I swallowed the lump that had risen in my throat. I didn’t want to go on a break, but Allison was right. We did have our issues and they needed to be fixed. “’Okay.”
She hugged me, “I love you, James Neal. I really really do.”
“I love you too, Allison Dawning.” I replied and I honestly meant it.
James didn’t say anything. He just stood there, staring at me. “James…” I started, my voice shaking.
He looked up at me, tears slowly forming in his eyes, “How could you…”
“James…I was drunk…I don’t even remember…”
“That’s not good enough! You had sex…with my best friend…” he was obviously hurt and I didn’t blame him.
“James…I…”
“You’re what, Allison? You’re sorry? You’re sorry that you got mad at me for no fucking reason and then you went out and got drunk and fucked my best friend? Is that what you wanted to say? Or how about it’s all my fault because I have been spending more time with Jennifer than with you and you just wanted to get back at me…is that it?!” James yelled.
“It wasn’t like that!” I yelled back
“Oh yeah? Than what was it, Allison? Tell me. I am dying to know what the fuck it was if it wasn’t either of those two things. You know that I already do know something, though, right? I mean I know I’ve fucked up before, but I never did it with anyone’s best friend. I don’t know if I’m more angry with you or with him!”
“Don’t bring Geno into this!”
“Why the fuck do you even care what I do with him? Do you like him or something?!” he was still, yelling. By then, neighbors where looking outside at us…more than likely calling the police.
“James, keep your voice down!”
“You know what? Fuck you.” with that, he got into his car and drove off.
James’ POV:
I was extremely furious. I was more angry at Geno than Allison. Geno should have known better, drunk or not. Allison…well…even though I was angry at her too, I had gone back on my promise to her.
I got to the arena and headed inside going straight to the locker room. The guys were all their doing their pre-game rituals and I just marched straight towards Geno. He saw me coming and he stood up, “You fucking bastard!” I yelled, taking a swing at him but he ducked out of the way.
“Nealy…I’m sorry.” he started
“Sorry doesn’t fucking cut it!” I yelled even louder, swinging again and missing. By then the others came and started pulling us apart. “Let me go!” I yelled at Engo.
“Not until you calm down!” Engo yelled back
“Maybe if you treat her better I won’t have to do it!” Geno yelled from behind Cookie and Craig Adams.
I swung at him again, knocking his gear off of his cubby. “I’ll fucking kill you!”
“Guys, stop!” Sidney yelled
“Cut it out!” Flower chimed in
“He had sex with my girlfriend!” I yelled
They all looked at him in shock, “You what?!” Engo yelled at Geno
“He treat her like shit. She wanted it.” Geno argued
I pulled away from Engo, “Fuck you.” I yelled at Geno, snapping one of my own sticks in half and storming off. I was probably being immature, but I was furious and upset.
As I was leaving the building, Ray Shero called me into his office. Ray informed me that I’d be a healthy scratch for tonight’s game and at that point, I didn’t even care…
My best friend betrayed me. My girlfriend apparently didn’t care that she tore my heart into millions of pieces and then incinerated them. My other friends where more confused than anything and I…I just wanted to go home and be with the only friend I felt I had at the moment…Jack Daniels.
Allison’s POV:
I looked down at the ice, James was nowhere to be found. I sighed and looked around for Vero. She hadn’t got there yet and I needed to ask her if she knew where he was. I saw her heading towards me and I smiled and waved. “Hello.” Vero said sitting down beside me.
“Hey…do you know where James is?” I asked
“Healthy scratch. I was going to ask you why…” Vero started
Honestly, I didn’t know ‘why’, but I had an idea. “I don’t really know ‘why’, but I’m sure it has to do with me…” I replied
“What do you mean?” Vero asked
“I cheated on him…we got into a big fight…” I started
Vero’s eyes widened, “Oh.”
I nodded, “I’m going to go, then. I’m going to see if he is at home…”
“Okay, good luck.” she smiled
I grabbed my purse and headed to my car, driving to James’ house. I knocked on the door and heard slight movement behind it. After a few minutes, he unlocked the door and opened it. His eyes were bloodshot and I could smell the whiskey on him.
“What are you doing here?” he slurred
“I was checking up on you…” I started
“Why? So you can fuck some more of my friends?”
“James…” I started. He was being unfair. James wasn’t perfect either. “You’re drunk.”
“So what?! You know…I know that I’ve been an asshole, but again I never fucked anyone’s best friends and cause friends to fight.”
“You got some girl pregnant!” I argued
“She isn’t just ‘some girl’, Allison!”
“Oh yeah? She should be. You’re with me, James, not her!” I yelled
“I might as well be with her because she isn’t a bitch!” he yelled back, slamming the door.
James’ POV:
I knew that I shouldn’t have called Allison a bitch, but I was upset. I slouched onto the couch and laid down, burying my face in my pillow. I wanted to crawl into a deep, dark hole and never come back out. I was a douche bag and I knew it.
I got off the couch and emptied the last drop of my Jack into the sink and I splashed some water on my face. I had to go talk to Allison. I had to go apologize. I knew in my heart that she never meant to hurt me. She didn’t intentionally go to the bar to get drunk and fuck someone.
I put my sweatshirt on and I drove to her apartment, letting myself up with the key I still had and went to her door. I knocked on it slowly and she opened the door, tears in her eyes. “What do you want, James? To tell me how much of a bitch I am?”
I shook my head “I’m sorry, Allison. I’m sorry for being a dick to you…I’m sorry for yelling at you…I’m sorry for going back on my promise. I’m just sorry.”
She looked at me, “James…I’m sorry too…for cheating on you for being a bitch about Jen…I just…when I saw you with her the other day, when she dropped you off…I just felt so jealous…you just seemed so happy…”
“And you don’t think I’m that happy with you?” I asked
“Sometimes, no, I don’t think you are…I just…I was being a child about the whole situation…” she replied
I looked at her, “Allison…”
“James, I think we should take a break. Not fully end things, but I think we both need some time to sort out some issues before we get too committed in this relationship.” she said
I swallowed the lump that had risen in my throat. I didn’t want to go on a break, but Allison was right. We did have our issues and they needed to be fixed. “’Okay.”
She hugged me, “I love you, James Neal. I really really do.”
“I love you too, Allison Dawning.” I replied and I honestly meant it.
6/3/13