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Breaking the Ice

Cinq

Melissa could feel her pulse thumping in here chest. For a moment she was speechless. She was shocked and far past appalled. Her captain. One of her best friends, just called her a whore.




After Sid and I left Primanti’s I felt terrible. I felt like I hadn’t given him a good enough answer so I called him when I got home. After more rings than usual he answered.

“Sid?” I asked nervously after hearing him pick up, but refusing to talk.

“What?” He snapped clearly upset.

“I-I’m sorry. The reason I don’t want-“

“Don’t bother Mel. You don’t owe me anything.” I walked inside, locked my door and sat Indian-style on my couch with MTV in the background on mute. My dog Lucky came running up to me happily and I gently patted him. It made me feel a little bit better.

“Sid I’m just not emotionally attached to sex. It makes me sound like a slut, but- it’s the truth. “

“You don’t have to go into-“

“I was raped, my first time. It was my first day of college. I was always the goody-goody. I never went to parties, drank, or did drugs in high school. I had friends but we were all pretty much bookworms. For fun, I studied. I graduated with a 4.0 and 12 college credits. I wasn’t always like this. I didn’t even have my first kiss until I was 18. I wanted to let loose. I went to this party and I wasn’t even drinking. I was hanging out with some friends when this guy came up to me. He told me I was beautiful and took me into the bedroom. We were making out and it was getting too intense so I told him to stop, but he didn’t. After it was over, he even told me “You’ll probably hate yourself for a few weeks, then you’ll get over it.” I didn’t get over it though. I just didn’t want to be that girl that was so hung up on her virginity so I just had sex with a lot of random people. I tried to fuck the pain away. I never felt whole and I still don’t. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to find someone, because…I’m just fucked up okay. I’m damaged goods.” I cried.

“Mel……I’m so sorry.”

“It’s okay. I even went to a therapist. She told me that sleeping around is something a lot of raped women do to feel whole again or to try and force themselves out of being depressed. You’d think I’d never want to have sex again, but that’s not how it is. I love sex, but to me it’s nothing. It’s just for fun.”

“Did-did you ever tell anyone?” he stuttered.

“No. I was too ashamed. I didn’t want anyone to know. I didn’t want them to think I was a-”

“You’re not. I’m sorry Mel. I didn’t know. I just. I love you.”

“Sid, I’m not sure I can even love anyone. I’m sorry.”

“Look, I can’t help the way I feel.”

“I know, but I just- I barely have feelings. Ask Sunshine. They guys in Wilkes-Barre always gave me crap for being so unemotional. Just ask him. Beau knows.”

“Alright, well, I’ll see you tomorrow.” He still sounded bitter.

“Okay, bye Sid.” I took a deep breath and a nice hot shower. The hot steam rolled out of the glass shower and I stepped in after shedding my red dress on the floor. The hot water tricked down my skin and I let it all go for the first time. I sat with my knees to my chest and cried. Sid was only the third person to know about what happened to me, behind my best friends Bryan and Anita. I hated feeling like I hurt someone. I’m always the one getting hurt.



“What happened to you sucked, but that doesn’t mean you have to sleep with 50+ guys. I mean, are you sure you don’t have anything?” Melissa’s eyes dilated. It was as if the super sweet, yet tough on the ice 20-something year old blacked out. She lunged across the room throwing fists in Sidney’s general direction. She only landed two: one on his jaw and the other on the side of his face before Dupuis and Orpik pulled her back. She was screaming and unbeknownst to her tears were flowing freely from her eyes.

“You fucking kidding me Crosby? How fucking dare you? You’re a piece of shit! I tell you things only my best friends know and this is what you do to me? You call me a whore? “she said, fighting both Brooks and Pascal.

“Put me down!” She screamed at the pair. “Put me down!” she screamed again, exasperated. Pascal looked her in the eye and tried to read her.

“It’s okay.” She whispered to him. The pair let her down, but Pascal still partially blocked her from Sidney. She looked around the room slowly, at all the eyes staring at her. Sidney’s words finally registered and hit her like a Mack truck. She nearly collapsed in a ball of emotion.

Pascal grabbed her before she hit the floor and gave her a big bear hug. He carried her out of the room and into a secluded hallway. He set her down gently and she slid into a heap against the wall. He kneeled in front of her and put her hands in his.

“Mon ange, what happened?”

Melissa couldn’t even talk. She could feel the mucus building up in her throat from crying and she let out a small squeak when she attempted speaking.

“L-last night, Sid k-kissed me.” She said shaking. Pascal moved his hands to steady her shoulders.

“I’ve n-never t-thought of him l-like that. I told him he was too good for me.” She said staring at the floor.

“I don’t know how many guys I’ve been with because after I was raped, I slept around a lot.”

“Wait-you were raped?” he asked. His tone even and forcefully steady. Her chocolate eyes darted up to his.

“When I was in college.” She nodded.

“I guess he’s just mad at me for not being interested in him.” She concluded taking a composed breath.

Dupuis tried not to show extreme anger at his captain, but instead support for a teammate.

“Je suis desole, ma cherie. Are you okay?”

“I’m not even crying because I’m sad, Duper. I’m crying because I’m so angry.”

“I know-“ he began, but she cut him off with a huge hug.

“Thank you Duper.” He gave her a soft, small smile and watched her walk back into the locker room.

All eyes were on her again. Sidney sat silently at his stall after changing into his gear for the short practice. She walked directly to her stall and began collecting her things.

Geno rushed in late, having not seen what happened, but could tell something was wrong by the look on Mel’s face.

“Melly what wrong?” he asked plopping down in his stall.

“I’m done here.” She said giving up.

“What mean?” he looked up at her confuse.

“I’m not playing here anymore.” Mel whispered then leaned down to kiss Geno on the cheek. She really wanted to say goodbye to everyone, but she was still too angry.



I was livid to say the least. I hated Sidney and there’s nothing he could ever say or do to change that. I slid my phone unlocked and immediately called my agent.

“Hey Mel! How’s it going?”

“I want a trade.” I said sternly, pushing the double doors of Southpoint Icoplex open.

“What? But you just-“

“I want a trade.”

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great job
Great story please update
Hawksgirl88 Hawksgirl88
7/14/13
Amazing story
Chicago Canada Chicago Canada
6/22/13
Freaking love this! Mel is badass.
AnthemGlass AnthemGlass
4/25/13
AHHH I LOVE IT! :D
SWEET BEAU SWEET BEAU
4/19/13