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Redemption of a Puck Slut: Part II

August 22, 2015

June 12, 2015

Dear Diary,

Things are completely out of control. When Geno said he was calling his lawyer, he wasn’t joking. A week later, I received an envelope from his lawyers that pretty much said I’d been served. Geno was fighting for not only partial, but full custody of Ted.

“What?!?! He’s trying to take my baby!!!” I screamed and ran to find Sid. He was in his office, reading something, and when he saw the papers from Geno’s lawyer, his face fell. He pulled me into a hug and let me cry for a few minutes before trying to calm me down. He sat me down on the couch and wrapped his arm around me.

“We’ll call Smith, he can take care of this,” he said calmly, trying to help me, but it only made I worse.

“But Smith knows! He knows everything, and he has all the evidence needed to not only take Teddy away from me, but have me locked in a psych ward for life!” I was exaggerating, but at that point I didn’t care. It seemed like my life was falling apart, and it kind of was.

“I’ve talked to Smith, actually we’ve been meeting a lot lately over the past few months,” Sid explained calmly.

“What?” I looked up at him and tried my tear stained face.

“Geno said that if he married Caeleigh, he would try to get custody of Teddy. So, I obviously talked to my lawyers, and even hired a new lawyer who specializes in child custody cases,” he explained, and I leaned closer to him. “She’s very good, although she said Geno’s lawyer is one of the best in this type of case. It’s going to be tough.”

That didn’t make me feel better, and I spent the next day in therapy with Elaine. I had been seeing her once a week, but the last few weeks I have been going three, sometimes for times a week. She put me on anti-depressants, mostly to calm me down, but I don’t feel any better. I don’t really feel anything, actually.

Caeleigh and I have pretty much stopped talking. I don’t know how she feels about this, or if she even wants Teddy. She’s always been so helpful with the twins, but she never said anything about wanting to keep Ted.

One person who has been surprisingly helpful is Brandon. He assured me that he would never try to take Annie away from me, or even fight to be her legal father, unless I wanted him to.

“What do you mean by that?” I asked. He’d come over (since the Flyers had been out of the playoffs since the first round) to see Annie soon after I heard from Geno’s lawyers.

“I mean, as long as you’re with Sid, I won’t try to be her legal father. I’ll just be ‘Uncle Brandon’ or something.”

“As long as I’m with Sid? Do you think he’s going to leave me?” I asked, getting scared that this was worse than I thought.

“No, nothing like that,” he replied with not much confidence. “Sorry, I didn’t meant to scare you, I just meant that if, for whatever reason, you and Sid were no longer together, then maybe I would want a more active role in Annie’s life. Like, if we were, you know, dating, or something.” I couldn’t help but smile at his cute awkwardness. Yet at the same time, it only reminded me that he was willing to give up all of that, the chance to be a real father to his daughter, for me. I sighed and leaned on his shoulder.

“I try not to think about what that would be like, if I was with you, not him. It doesn’t help, and it won’t change anything,” I said, more to myself than him, and he didn’t reply. I knew what he was probably thinking, that everything would have been easier if I hadn’t married Sid. And now, more than ever, I was wondering if I could just run away from it all, start over.

And if I wasn’t pregnant with Sid’s baby, I probably would.

-Emme


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July 17, 2015

Dear Diary,

Things have only gotten worse, and I thought maybe writing about it would make it better?

We’ll see.

This new custody lawyer Sid found, Chelsee, is very….attractive. She’s probably thirty, shockingly unnatural blond hair, and dull mossy green/brown eyes. The first time I met with her and Sid it became obvious they had been meeting for months, talking about the case, me, Annie, Teddy, Geno, and all sorts of things. She couldn’t hide the fact that she was doubtful that Geno would be denied partial custody, and even hinted that he might win full custody.

The next time we met, I insisted Smith be there, because I was more comfortable with him and his weird little assistant. Even Smith could tell there was something weird going on in between Sid and Chelsee, and slipped me the card of a divorce lawyer before he left. Then again, Smith never did like me.

Ugh, ‘Chelsee’ what kind of a name is that anyway? And why does she spell it with two ‘e’s?

My meetings with Elaine have increased to ever afternoon at 2, and I sometimes even call her on the weekends. I think she’s worried I might go back into whatever state I was in last fall when I kind of went crazy. However, whatever medicine she has me on now has left feeling kind of…like I don’t care anymore. As much as I would like to fight for Teddy, would it really be so bad if Geno and Caeleigh had him? He would probably be better off with them instead of me. I’m not saying I don’t want him, of course I do, but can I really be the best parent to him? Or Annie, or the new baby? I have no idea what I’m doing with them; I’m probably going to be a terrible mom when they get older.

The twins first birthday was quite depressing, if that’s the word for it. Sid’s parents and Taylor came down, as well as my mom. They were all very happy, but I think they could tell something was up. I had the fakest smile ever, and that soon disappeared. Geno and Caeleigh showed up, not entirely uninvited, but Sid made it clear that they shouldn’t come. We don’t want our family knowing what’s going on with Geno and Teddy.

It was like a cloud was hung over the party, if I can even call it a party. They exchanged awkward glances a few times, and I tried to avoid eye contact. Although no one asked, they could tell something was up. His mother wondered when we were coming up to Nova Scotia, and Sid said he didn’t know. He had ‘some business to finish up here.’

No one asked what that meant.

Geno had visited his family in Russia for two weeks, but he was back for a while. He wanted to get through this custody battle before the end of the summer, so it wouldn’t interrupt the next season.

Sid, however, seemed like he wanted to draw out the case as long as possible. I guess he thought that as long as we weren’t losing, we were winning.

However, that’s not how I saw it. Even if we did win full custody, we’ve still lost a lot. Things will never go back to normal for any of us. Caeleigh and I won’t be friends any more, Sid thinks Geno’s going to leave the Penguins as soon as possible, and Sid? I’m not sure he’s 100% in this marriage, or if he ever has been.

I think he’s just staying with me because I’m pregnant with his child.

-Emme

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August 22, 2015

Dear Diary,

Sid and I celebrated our first anniversary by listening to our lawyer battle with Geno’s lawyer about Teddy. They want to settle this outside of the court, to avoid the press, but it’s going to get out anyway. At this point I don’t care what people think of me, I’m just worried about Sid’s reputation and the children. I feel so horrible for having pulled him into all of this. Why did I marry him knowing that he wasn’t the father of my children?

Because I loved him, I guess, that’s what peopled do, right?

I can tell he regrets marrying me so soon, or maybe even at all. Especially now that he knows that I knew the twins weren’t his before I married him. There was some doubt about who Teddy’s father was, but three tests proved it wasn’t Sid’s. Somehow that’s how I justified it to myself.

And then there’s Brandon. I don’t know how he got dragged into this, but Geno’s lawyer wanted his testimony. I felt so bad, making him say all of that, admitting that we’d been having an affair. And when the lawyer looked at me for my comment, I just nodded sadly. I couldn’t look at him, or Sid. Piece by piece my life was torn apart, layer after layer. I’m so used to it that it doesn’t even hurt any more.

They’ve gone through my diary, the one I had given Smith because I thought he should have it ‘for evidence.’ And unfortunately, this is exactly what I thought he would need it for. I thought I could fix everything, make it okay for Sid and I and the twins (and now this other one, whomever she or he is). And it might have been if Geno hadn’t decided he needed full custody of his son

That card Smith gave me? Sid decided to call him, ‘just to chat.’ I know what that means.

I have a feeling that as soon as this baby is born, that divorce lawyer will come knocking at my door. Heck, he might even be in the delivery room with us.

I’ve had a couple of months to come to terms with this now, and I really shouldn’t be upset. It’s my fault, I caused all of this by a few mistakes. A few mistakes? Haha ha ha no, it was a lot more than a few mistakes. If I weren’t pregnant I would probably be drunk right now. Instead I’m writing in my diary.

-Emme




Notes

The beginning of the end? We'll see how many more chapters I can drag this out....

Comments

Awww !!!! Yayyyyyy <3333

kristinnx kristinnx
6/8/14

Can't wait to see what will happen next

kristinnx kristinnx
6/1/14

Can this story please end up with her and Brandon getting together..hahaha I know you have your other story like that but this would could get really good and interesting to the point where Sid doesn't love her anymore or doesn't want the drama and Brandon is around more than usual. ((:

kristinnx kristinnx
5/22/14

Feel free to message me if you want or need ideas (((:

happy to see an update(:

kristinnx kristinnx
5/7/14

Feel free to message me if you want or need ideas (((:

happy to see an update(:

kristinnx kristinnx
5/7/14