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"Whats it say?!" Patrick yelled from outside the bathroom door.I opened the door, holding a white stick in my hand, I smiled and nodded, "Positive"

He picked me up and swung me around, "We're gonna have a baby," he said looking into my eyes before pulling me into a long, kiss.

We took a picture of the both of us, holding up the test and sent it to Patrick's family, teammates, and our other friends.

Finally, after months of trying, Patrick and I would have a baby.
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"We'll see you next Tuesday for your appointment Mrs.Kane." I hung up the phone with the doctor, and ran my hands over my stomach. There's a person in there, I thought to myself.

Patrick soon later came in the door from practice followed by some of his bumbling teammates. "Kyls congrats!" Bicks said giving me a hug.

The rest of the team and their families would be over soon to celebrate."Kaner shootin one past the goalie." Shawzie said fist bumping him, while the group rummaged through the fridge.

"Is it a boy or girl?" Seabs asked, biting a piece of chicken.

"Yea what are you gonna name them?" Saader asked.

"It's only been a week" Patrick said, "We haven't really worked out the details."

A few hours later girlfriend, wives, and kids began arriving.

"To the Kane's" Sharpy said raising his glass, "God help you both." we all laughed, and drank and talked about the future. Little did Patrick and I know how short lived our bliss would be.
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Tuesday morning, I woke up early and went downstairs to make coffee. Today, Patrick and I would find out the sex of the baby, and get our first ultrasound. I was so excited, my whole life had been leading up to this.

Patrick and I arrived at the doctors office and were immediately whisked away into a room.

"This might be just a little cold." The nurse said as she spread a jelly, blue liquid over my stomach.

"Thats odd." she said as she moved the the gray apparatus over my stomach. After a few minutes of searching around over my stomach, her face seemed to be getting more and confused and concerned.

"Let me just get the doctor." she said leaving the room.

The doctor came in a few minutes later, he was a tall man, a bit older, with glasses, "Good morning Mr. and Mrs. Kane" he said shaking both are hands, "I'm Doctor Nugent, let's take a look here" he said pressing the device over my stomach again. After a few minutes of searching around he said "please excuse me for a moment." he slipped out of the room again. I pulled my shirt down and sat up, Patrick and I exchanged a confused glance. A few minutes later he returned.

"Mr and Mrs. Kane," he started sitting down, "I'm afraid that we cannot find a heartbeat."

I felt my insides collapse, why? why Patrick and I? Finally, after months, we were pregnant, and so excited, why us? why now?

"The fetus was not able to fully develop, I'm terribly sorry." he stood up and left the room.

I kept my eyes straight forward, a single tear rolled down my cheek.

"Kylie," Patrick said standing up and pulling me into a hug, "I'm so sorry babe." his voice quivered and eyes filled with tears. We left the doctors office and got in the car, I hugged my knees to my chest.

Neither of us could believe it, it was like it hadn't set in yet.

Charlie cuddled into me as I sat on the couch and let the tears stream down. Patrick went into the kitchen to make tea, and I heard him on the phone with his parents a few minutes later.

"Yeah, okay, yeah" I heard him responding on the phone.

Patrick's POV:
I couldn't believe it, it hadn't even set in that we lost our baby. our baby. My mom wanted to fly in, I wasn't in any mood to argue with her, I hung up the phone and picked up the cup of tea and then I saw something that would shatter my heart into a million, tiny, pieces.

I came around the kitchen corner to see Kylie, cuddled together with Charlie on the couch. Her head leaning nestled into his, his body strewn across the couch. Kylie had tears rolling down her blushed cheeks. I didn't know what to do, I had never seen her this way.

Of all the things we had been through together, this was clearly the toughest on her. It took me a minute to realize, that as hard as this was on both of us, this baby was living inside Kylie, they were growing inside her, attached to her. And this was something I couldn't give back to her.The baby was gone.

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