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Days went by, it became more real that Patrick and I would not be having a baby right now. The knife cut deeper every time I thought of how close we were, we could see ourselves holding the baby, we had thought about names, we were excited, and in one instant it was all snatched away.

I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat alls I could think about was the baby that died inside of me.

"Kylie," Patrick sat down next to me on the bed, "Come on its been days, please eat something."

I shook my head, lightly and collapsed into his chest in tears. I felt his tears running down, "I know Kyls" he said, "It hurts me too, but we're gonna be okay"

He rocked me back and forth, we sat this way for a while, until their was a knock at the door, Patrick ignored it at first, but we pulled apart so he could go answer it. Patrick went downstairs and as much as it sucked I picked myself up and forced myself into the bathroom. I groaned as I looked in the mirror, I looked as if I had been hit by a train. My eyes were barely open, my cheeks were red, and puffy, and I had no makeup on. My long, blonde hair was stringy and hung dead around my shoulder. I forced myself into the shower.

After I showered I dried my straight hair and brushed it back into a loose french braid, I pulled on a pair of black leggings, and a loose, grey sweater. I began to apply my light makeup when their was a knock at the bathroom door.

"Kyls?" Patrick said, he came in and hugged me, "We can try again soon you know?"

"I know," I said breathing out heavy, "I'm sorry I went crazy these last few days."

"Kylie are you serious?"he said "I'm pretty sure that was a normal reaction." he smiled.

"Lets just move past this and try again soon?" I said.

"Absolutely, sounds like a plan." he said kissing my forehead,

There was a loud bang at the bedroom door.

"My sisters might be here." he said nervously.

"Really?" I said smiling.

Just then there was a pounding on the bedroom door.

"Patrick?!" someone yelled. "If you don't let us in, we're breaking down the door!" It sounded like Jessica.

He opened the door and the three girls came flooding in to hug me.

"Kylie, we missed you!" Erica said.

"How are you feeling?" Jacqueline said touching my arm.

I paused, "Alot better now," I said looking at Patrick, he smiled, "I guess it will just happen when it happens."

"I might have something that will make you feel better," Jessica said pulling a bottle of wine out of her purse.

In all the commotion I had almost forgotten that Patrick had a game in Nashville, and the plane would be leaving in about an hour.

He met me at the front door, "I don't want to leave you like this," he said his head resting on top of mine.

"Patrick i'm fine, it's just a sucky situation." I said looking up at him, "are you okay?"

"I'm fine, I just want to make sure you're okay." He kissed my forehead.

"Im okay, really." I hugged him tighter.

"Ill see you Tuesday?" he said.

"You better." I said.

"I love you Kyls" he kissed me hard,

"I love you too."

and he had to fly away.
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Erica, Jessica, Jacqueline and I spent a long time sitting in the living room, sipping red wine, and just talking. It felt good to be around them again.

"Soooooo, how's the newlywed life?" Erica said.

"Its been really good so far." I said pulling my braid over my shoulder "Whats going on with you guys?"

"Well," Jessica said "Erica has a new boyfriend,"

Erica blushed, "Oooooo, whats his name, whats he look like?" I asked

"Oh, I have a picture" Jacqueline said.

"Jacqueline!" Erica yelled. "Why do you have a picture of him?" she asked confused.

"Oh relax" she said "You're in it to!"

we all laughed, "He's this one." Jacqueline said pointing at the iphone screen.

"Erica!" I yelled, "He's cute!"

He was a tall, muscley, guy with short, brown hair, and blue eyes.

Erica pulled a couch pillow over her face.

"Does Patrick know?" I asked.

They all went blank, "Weeeelll," Erica started, "You know how protective Pat is, and"

"You want me to tell him for you" I cut in.

"I mean if you could, when we're gone, so he doesn't freak out so bad." Erica said.

"Okay." I said smiling, "But you know he'll call you once I tell him about oh- whats his name ?"

"Ryan" Erica said sinking back into the chair,

"awwww the girls in love." Jessica said.

"Jonathan's newly single if either of you are looking," I said taking a sip of my wine.

"What?!" Jacqueline said shocked

"What happened to Lindsey?" Jessica asked, wide eyed.

I went on to tell them the full story, leaving all three girls in shock.

"Oh my god, thats awful" Erica said.

We spent the next few days, relaxing, shopping, and just hanging out together. It was beginning to feel like the baby had been left in the past, Patrick and I would try again soon.

Jessica and Jacqueline were upstairs getting ready to go out to dinner, and Erica and I found ourselves sitting together at the dining room table.

"So," she said, "How are you two doing after all this?"

"I think it actually brought us closer," I said,

"Do you think you'll try again soon?" she asked.

"Thats the plan, I mean, the both of us have been wanting kids for so long, and I guess, I don't know maybe right now just wasn't the right time."

Jacqueline and Jessica came down the stairs, this was the last night of it just being us girls and we were going to make it count.

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