I slowly rolled off Sid not exactly knowing what to say.

I mean, he just told me he loved me. We'd barely been seeing each other for 3 weeks. It was a little crazy for him to be saying that. It was something I thought I'd never hear from him, especially this soon. What was I supposed to say? I didn't love him. I liked him, dont get me wrong. But in no universe did I love him.

I loved James. No matter how much I wanted to deny it, tell myself it wasn't true, it was. Always had been. I loved the was he ran his fingers through his hair, shaking the short pieces out of his eyes. I loves the way he rubbed his eyes, tired and cranky. I loved the way his laugh sounded whenever he talked to Jake. It was the one sound I could listen to over and over.

"Sid, I.." I paused, not really sure to tell him that even though he confessed his love for me, I didnt love him, I loved James.

"I get it" he said sadly leaning up from the floor to sit up, hands behind him.

"No, no" I said thinking, "I love you too"

Why the hell, did that come out of my mouth?

"Really?" Sid said raising an eyebrow at me, not really believing me.

I didnt know what to say, Ii just nodded. I couldn't take it back now, but believe me, I wanted to.

I am a complete bitch.

Sid smiled down at me before leaning down and kissing me, not as much passion this time, more happiness, as if he was thrilled I actually had a response to that. He seemed so happy, I didnt know what to do. Would I have to go on lying and pretending? Maybe it was for the better anyway. James was James.

Never Changing.

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Sidney left early that night, not wanting to push any boundaries as he said. I woke up the next morning feeling good.

Until I remembered what happened last night.

The knock on the door scared me out of my thoughts as I got up to answer it.

James was on the other side smiling politely.

"Hey" He said nicely, "Hey" I responded easily, wanting to throw my arms around his neck and hug him. "Can I come in?" He asked. I nodded, noticing he was in his usual workout clothes.
Shorts, a penguins t-shirt, a new pair of black sneakers, and of course a backwards baseball hat.

"So you and Sid?" He sighed sitting down on my bed. "James.." I trailed off.

"I thought it was going good," He said looking down at the ground, "Until I saw him leaving here last night.He looked beat up" James laughed before continuing, "His hair was messed up, shirt all wrinkled, he looked frazzled for the first time since I met him. Then it hit me," He paused again, now looking up at me, "The lipstick, was the same color I was wiping off my cheek, your lipstick"

"James.." I said again not really knowing what else to say.

"Does he know about Jake?" He asked cutting me off.

"No" I said looking down.

"That's kind of a big deal Savannah, he's a big part of your life"

"I know" I sighed not really wanting to have this conversation with James.

"Well I hope you don't mind, I invited Sid to bring you on a double date with me and Lucy" He said standing up, "And he liked the idea"

"Lucy?" I said not really registering anything else he said.

"Or should I bring Jake?" He said coldly, "That sure would be a great way for captain clutch to figure out, huh?"

With that and the slam of the door, he was gone. Leaving me to my thoughts. I glanced over at my phone on the bedside table and dialed the first number I could think of.

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