Come Closer

*Flashback*

Moving Day – James moving to Dallas

I carried the last of the boxes from James’ front door to the moving van which was on its way to the airport to fly all of James’ belongings to his new apartment in Dallas later this evening.

It’s been a hard day for me, packing up almost everything that James owns and putting it in cardboard boxes.

Deborah and I worked on James’ room, packing up clothes and any other necessary things that James might need.

“How are you feeling about all this?” Deborah said taping up the last box of clothes for me to take downstairs.

“Mixed emotions, I don’t want James to go, we have been inseparable since we were 12 years old and now he is moving so far away, I’ll be lucky is I see him once during the season, but on the other hand I’m happy that he made the NHL, it has been his dream for so long and I’m so happy for him. I will miss him so much Deborah.” I sat down on James’ bed and started to cry. “I don’t know if I will be able to do a long distance relationship.”

“Meghan honey, it is going to take a lot of work, but you and my son are the definition of young love. Don’t tell James this but I am hoping that you and James will get married one day and give me some grand babies, but I know that you two will decide what is best for the both of you.” She sat beside me rubbing my back.

James came into the room just as I was drying my eyes.

“I’ll leave you two alone.” Deborah said walking out of the room and closing his bedroom door.

Right away James pulled me in for a hug, and of course, I started crying again, a little harder this time. James put his head on top of mine and closed his eyes trying to hide back his own tears.

“I want to give you something.” James let me go to dig through one of the boxes. He pulled out his gold medal from the World Junior Championships and handing it to me.

“James I can’t take this.” Putting the medal in my hand. “This is one of your prized positions.”

“I want you to have it, it is very important to me and so are you, whenever you look at it I want you to think of me.” He took it out of my hand and placed it around my neck.

“Jesus, this thing is heavy.” I dried the tears from my eyes and laughed. I took it off and put it in my bag.

“What time is your flight tomorrow again?” I stood and walked back over to him.

“6:15 in the evening, I told my parents that I want you to take me to the airport.”

“Are you sure that you want to do that, I will be a crying mumbling hot mess.”

“Well, I want you to be the last person I see before I leave, I want you to be there with me.”

“Fine, if you insist.” I smiled at him and gave him a long kiss.
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James and I didn’t say much to each other on the way to the airport, every time I would think about it my eyes would tear up.

I decided to get a parking ticket instead of going to the drop off point because I knew it would take longer than 5 minutes to say goodbye and I knew people would stair because I will be crying so much.

“Well…here we are.” I said to James putting my car my car into park. “I love you James.” Yup here come the water works. James grabbed my hand and kissed it, I could see tears coming from his eyes. We just sat there and cried for about 5 minutes before James and I got out and grabbed his suitcase out of the back seat of the car.

James pulled me in for a hug after putting his luggage on the cement, he said something to me that I will never forget.

“I love you so much Meghan, I will always come back to you, and I know one thing for sure…I will marry you.” We broke the hug and he grabbed my hands, I looked up at him my eyes are puffy and red.

James looked at his watch and saw that his plane leaves in just under an hour.

“Well, I have to go…as much as I want to miss my flight, I can’t.” He pulled me in kissed me and whispered I love you into my ear, turned around, let go of my hand, grabbed his suitcase and looked at me and smiled for one last time and walked toward the terminal.

I got back into my car after he walked through the sliding doors I watched them close behind James as he walked into the airport. I decided that sitting in my car at the airport wasn’t going to make him come back, so I paid my parking pass and was back on my way home. I drove in silence, no radio just sat in complete silence.

As I was driving home I decided that I would go to see the one person that I knew would make me feel better. My Grandmother.
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I finished showering after practice and decided to call my Grandma. She has always been there for me, so I decided I needed her advice. I grabbed my phone and went onto our room balcony and phoned her.

“Hey, Grandma!” I said when she picked up her phone.

“Meghan, it’s so nice to hear from you! How is your time in Pittsburgh?” she was so excited to hear from me. “Honey you sound upset.”

“I need your advise on something.” I asked her starting to tear up. Jesus Christ Meghan stop crying.

“What’s wrong?” I could hear the concern in her voice. “Have you seen James?”
“When I got here last week something between us happened, and we decided to try to make a relationship work.”

“Ok.”

“I have been spending most of my time with him, I have been late for almost every volleyball meetings and practices.”

“Mhmm.”

“James proposed last night. “a smiled “I’m getting married.”

“Oh my, congrats Meghan, I’m so happy for you. But why do you seem so upset about it?” Grandma asked.

“I was late for practice again this morning because I was at his house and I forgot about practice, when I got to the hotel i pulled Khloe into the bathroom and told her, Sara one of my girls was listening through the door and came in telling me that I don’t care about this team and I’m getting all wrapped up in my personal life. We started arguing a little and she slapped me across the face.”

“That bitch!” Grandma said.

“GRANDMA!”

“Well it’s true” she laughed. “Anyway, go on.”

“Grandma, maybe she is right. I haven’t been with the team much; I have been with James almost every day since I have gotten here, I feel like I have to choose between Volleyball and James I can’t have both without someone being mad at me, I’m only here for one more week training until I have to come back home and have a full season in Canada, how am I going to do this.”

“Meghan, I think you need to choose between what is right and what is easy, Volleyball is your passion, James is your fiancé. Do you really want to lose James again? Follow your heart Meghan, not your mind.” I started to cry. “I think you have already made up your mind honey.”

“I think I have too, I love you Grandma, where would I be without you?” drying my tears.

“I love you too Meghan, do what’s right honey.”

I phoned James after I talked to my Grandma.

“Hey babe.”

“You busy?”

“No I’m just in my hotel room, you seem upset, is everything ok?”

“We need to talk.” I said sitting down, this will change everything.

Notes

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