Maybe Someday

James and I had been dating for about a month and a half and so far things were going really well. The NHL just confirmed a lockout, and while I was sad for James, it also gave us more time to spend together. He was training most of the day but coming over later for a movie night. I decided on a Batman movie marathon.

I had just set up the movie and food when James knocked at the door. I bounded over and flung open the door. I puffed out my chest and hung my arms to my side like I was built and said in my best batman voice, “Are you ready?”

James busted out laughing. I relaxed my pose and leaned up on my tip-toes to kiss him.

“Hi Jay.” I said sweetly. “Did you bring the kettle corn?” I asked hopefully.

He held up the bag in response and I bounced on my toes. “Yay! Come on in.”

I situated on the couch as he took off his shoes and jacket. I got out my phone and took a picture of the goodies and the TV screen now showing the picture of Batman Begins. I uploaded it to twitter and tweeted: Batman Movie Marathon tonight!! #soexcited #goodies #megacuddlesesh

James looked over my shoulder as he sat down, “You have a twitter?”

I looked at him and smiled, “Yeah, who doesn’t?”

“What’s your handle?” He asked getting out his phone. I rattled it off to him and soon my phone buzzed in my hand.

@jneal_18 is now following you!

“You followed me?” I asked incredulously.

“Yeah, what you don’t want me to?”

“No, I just...god I can’t believe you, James Neal, followed me.” I waved my hand in my face like I was about to faint. “I just need to let this moment set in.” I joked teasingly as he rolled his eyes.

“Yeah, yeah. Just start the movie.” He said tickling my side. “According to twitter we have a mega cuddle sesh to start.” I smiled at him as he opened his arm and held out the blanket. I snuggled into his side and he covered us with it as the movie started to play.

Bruce Wayne is getting lectured by Rachel in her car down in the dumps of the city when my phone vibrates in my lap. I pick it up and dim the lighting before going onto my twitter.

@rebeccaneal: @Annie_Aldridge What an amazing guy you must have ;) #Itoldyouso

@pete_neal40: @Annie_Aldridge Good thing @jneal_18 has you there for when he gets scared #littlespoon

I rolled my eyes at Beck’s and replied

@Annie_Aldridge: @rebeccaneal yeah, he’s pretty great:) What can I say Beck? You’re right #asalways

I laughed at Petes tweet and showed it to James.

“What the hell? That kid thinks he so great doesn’t he?” I chuckled at him and retweeted Petes tweet.

“He is pretty funny though.” I said and James pouted at me.

“I am not the little spoon!” He protested.

I chuckled at him and turned him back to focus on the movies.

After the last one James turned off the Tv and turned on some lights. I wiped a stray tear from my cheek as he returned. Batman’s ‘death’ in the end always gets me. Even though I know how it ends.

“Are you crying?” James asks me clearly amused.

“It’s so sad, James! He really thinks Bruce is dead!” I tried to justify but he laughed away. “You’re mean!” I pouted.

“I’m sorry! I’m not laughing.” He made a horrible attempt at covering his giggles.

“Yeah, right!” I begin picking up the mess we made and told James to wait for me upstairs.

After doing the dishes and folding all the blankets I was about to walk upstairs when my phone buzzed.

@jneal_18: Even though she’s seen it a thousand times @Annie_Aldridge stills cries after the last Batman movie... who’s the little spoon now eh @pete_neal40 ?

@pete_neal40: @Annie_Aldridge @jneal_18 Still you bro

“James!” I playfully scolded jogging up the stairs. I found him in the bathroom brushing his teeth. I lost my train of thought staring at his sculpted back. He bent down to rinse his mouth and my gaze dropped even lower.

He turned around leaning back against the sink on his hands and smirked as my eyes slowly trailed up his body. No matter how many times James sleeps over I don’t think I’ll ever get used to his amazing body.

I ran a hand through my hair before shooing him out of the bathroom to get ready for bed. Everything in our relationship was moving fast. I would never let a guy into my life, and bed as easily as I did James. Even though we haven’t slept together I always felt like just sleeping together was an even bigger step in any relationship. One I never felt comfortable reaching with any other guy. But with James it just sort of happened.

I wasn’t sure what our next step was. We had never put a label on ourselves mostly because we hadn’t gone public. There was no one to introduce each other to. I’m content with were we are, but nights like these make me wish he would just ravish me. We had never had the discussion yet I guess it was just assumed that we would wait. And as much as I want that perfect, cliche night with him, I really just want him.

And now I was even more scared because now we were taking things public. James is pretty popular around here and I know sooner or later I’m going to be bombarded with messages on twitter from fans wanting to know every little detail about us. I always wanted the relationship where I could post cute pics of me and my boyfriend and the things we do together, but I’m not so sure this is the right relationship for that. Would he be okay with me posting pictures of him? Will I be okay having the whole city know about my personal life? I really needed to settle all of this with him before I fall even more for him. The last thing I want is for him to one day decide he really isn’t the type of guy to be in a serious, committed relationship. Going in I was nervous about this, I knew James never had a long-term relationship. I just need him to be sure this is what he wants.

I brushed my teeth quickly and ran a brush through my hair before walking out and climbing into bed. I sat cross legged facing James who was laying down with his upper half propped up on pillows, looking through his twitter feeds.

“I can’t believe I didn’t know you had a twitter, I could have been tweeting you this whole time!” I laughed lightly at that.

“Are you okay with putting our relationship online?” I asked him straight forward.

“Yeah, why not?”

“I just want you to be okay with it. I mean, you are pretty popular and I’m sure people are going to start asking questions. And once we put it out there we can’t take it back. You’ve never really been in a serious relationship, and you’ve never been in one publicly. I just don’t want you to rush into this and then regret it in the end. I like you James, a lot, but before I go any farther with you I need to know: are you really ready for a relationship?”

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