All She Ever Wanted

She sat there, shaking, tears falling from her large green eyes. The whole day had been filled with visits from well-wishers, and police statements, team mates and hiding from the press. They were all gone now, leaving just them in the large house she had once called a home. Sitting there, she wasn’t so sure now.

Everything was different now, everything was strange.

He sat there, unsure of what to say, staring at her. What could he say? What could they do? How could he make this better? There was nothing. All he could do now was hold onto the remnants of their relationship, and try to salvage what they could.

“Are you… are you ok?” he sighed, knowing that this was a stupid question. It would never be ok. She nodded. All she wanted was his strong arms around her, making it all go away. Right now, right now she couldn’t have him near her. She was angry. She was hurt. She nodded, her dark brown curls falling in front of her face. “Can I get you anything?” he said, his voice unusually lacking confidence. “A drink, some food…?” he trailed off.

She turned to stare at him. His hazel eyes had once driven her mad with desire and lust, but now they were worried and scared. “I’m not hungry, I ate in the hospital” her voice was barely a whisper. “Holly, I don’t know what to say baby, I don’t know how to make this better, please tell me how.” He pleaded with her, moving to be beside her on the large leather couch. “You can’t…. there’s nothing that can help.” She replied, moving away from him.

Holly closed her eyes, trying hard not to remember the crash. All she could see when she closed her eyes was the lights, all she could hear were the screams and the sirens. “Holly, maybe you should try to get some sleep or something, I don’t know…” he lowered his head, feeling ashamed. He hadn’t been there to protect her, he should have been there.
“Sleep?!” Holly snapped at him “fucking sleep? How can I sleep Sid? How can I ever sleep again?! Lucy is dead and you weren’t here. I needed you and you weren’t here!” she put her head in her hands and started to sob.

Sidney felt sick. She was right. He hadn’t been there. He was away on a three game trip. Tears fell from his eyes. “I know” he said whispering. “I was playing; I didn’t know this would happen, how could I? I came as soon as I could, baby.” He moved towards her again, placing his arms around her. “Im so sorry, I never thought this would happen.”
Holly tried to fight the will to collapse into his arms but it was too much. She wrapped her arms around his strong shoulders and started to sob into his chest. Sidney rocked her back and forth gently, as he kissed her forehead and tried to calm her. “I love you, and we’ll find out who did this, I promise you” he said as Holly cried.

“I swear we’ll find out who did this” he repeated.

Notes

This is just the prologue to the whole story. It sort of sets the scene. Hope you like it.

C.