Don't Tell Me

I was at work, hoping I could get out of here without wanting to shoot anyone. That was rare, even if the whole town was nice to each other. For the most part, at lease. Then the one person I didn't want to see walked into my department. Why the hell does she need to buy feed? Doesn't her dad to that for her?
"Joe, go ask that girl if she wants help." I whispered to the guy helping me restock.
"Do it yourself."
"No. I don't like her."
"Why? She can't be that bad."
"She slept with my boyfriend."
"Suck it up buttercup."
"Fine," I huffed and walked towards the blonde who had caked on a little too much makeup today, "If you need anything, let me know."
"Oh right. I need lamb feed." She snarled as she looked me up and down. I could feel her judging me, but I didn't really care. Most of the time I looked horrible at work, but it's not exactly a beauty contest here. Especially when you work in the feed department with two other guys.
"Okay. Starter, grower, or finisher?" She looked at me with large eyes. She had no idea. "Okay, how old are the lambs?"
"They're my little brother's 4-H lambs." She stated, a little annoyed with me. Shouldn't I be the one who's annoyed? She slept with my boyfriend and while I know she's not completely to blame, Aaron has pictures of us all over his room. She has no excuse.
"Alright, follow me." I told her, walking a few aisles down. "Okay so the lambs are probably around three months. You're gonna want grower. This is the brand that me and my brother used. I know a lot of kids that do and they said they liked it better than the others. Uh how many bags?"
"I don't know." She snapped.
"Okay." I took a deep breath, looking at my watch. Only ten more minutes and I can go home. "Start with two bags since he probably has two lambs. We're pretty good at keeping this in stock during the summer just for the local 4-Hers.
"Kay." She said, walking away without thanking me. Apparently she detested me as much as I did her.
I went to help Joe for a few minutes before clocking out. I traded my vans for flip flops and made my way to the vet clinic.
"Murphy is all ready to go. You just need to sign this and we will send you the bill."
"Oh good, maybe my father will pay for it." I joked.
One of the vet techs came out and handed me the sleepy puppy, "Not all the anesthesia has worn off yet, so just make sure he doesn't run into anything."
"Okay, thanks."
I set Murphy in the passenger seat and drove home. Halfway there, Angie called me to confirm our plans for the night.
"Are you driving?" She asked.
"I'd prefer not to but I can."
"No I can. If we need to, we can always sober up in the car after the concert."
I placed my puppy in his bed in the mud room and went to find my brother. I swear it's like he never leaves the kitchen.
"Hey Jared.." I looked up to see three tall, attractive hockey players, "Oh Lord. Who invited you guys over here?"
"Aww Margaret, you love us!" Nate engulfed me in a hug and I groaned, not one for physical contact with most people.
"Your brother did." Ryan told me.
"Oh great." I mumbled and drank whatever was in my brother's cup. "What the hell, Jared. How much shit did you put in that? Dude. It's three."
"Day drinking. Little Big Town gave me the idea." I rolled my eyes, I was obviously the smarter twin.
"You're an idiot." I looked around the room, realizing that my hockey player wasn't here. I tried not to look disappointed as I poured myself some water.
"Sorry, it's my cousins birthday." Matt walked in from our patio and I tried to act as if I didn't care.
"They need something to do and frankly I do too." My brother turned to me.
"I'm going to Brad Paisley with Angie. It's general admission so I'm sure you can still get tickets."
"Who's opening?"
"Cole Swindell."
"Of course he is." I love Cole's music, but I mainly bought the tickets for Brad Paisley because let's be honest, he's a fine drink of water.
Or is it tall drink of water? Either way, he's attractive.
But going to a concert with four guys, my best friend, and my twin, would be interesting to say the least.
I grabbed some leftovers from the fridge and heated them up while the five guys in my kitchen bought their concert tickets. I sent Angie a text telling her there was a change in plans.
<< I'm driving. Brother and the hockey players are coming too. Hope you don't mind.
"So how was work?" My brother asked, knowing I would have at least one stupid customer story.
"You'd never guess who I had to help today."
"Crazy ex boyfriend?"
"No he moved to Michigan or Minnesota or some place with an M. That dumb blonde bimbo needed lamb feed and all she knew was that they were for her brother's 4-H lambs. Joe wouldn't help her so I had to. He really should have and then asked for her number. Then maybe she would stop fucking my boyfriend." Everyone in the room stared at me with wide eyes, as if they were worried I'd stab them with my fork or something.
"He's still your boyfriend?" Gabe asked. I glanced at Matt, who was acting like something interesting was on his phone at the time. I just nodded, feeling bad Matt had to be a part of this. "Why?"
"Cause I'm an idiot." I mumbled. "Call Angela and tell her you're going to pick her up, I want pizza."
"Aren't you coming?"
"Yeah. I'll get ready and meet you there."
I walked up to my room and decided to lay on my bed for a few minutes before curling my hair and deciding on my outfit.
>> you better show up in a dress or I will kill you.
Fifteen minutes later I was wearing a dress and had those 'girl next door' curls. I took one last look in the mirror and went to find my boots.
"Matt, I thought you left with everyone else."
"Yeah, I was going to, but I wanted to be alone with you for a few minutes."
I knelt down, trying not to show Matt the color of my panties while I searched for my other boot.
"You'll have around 20," I smiled, "Let's go."
If there wasn't a lot on my mind, The silence between us would be awkward. I know I'm stupid for staying with Aaron. I know that he does not deserve another chance and I should really try something with Matt, but I can't get myself to leave. I'm comfortable with Aaron. He knows everything about me and having to let my guard down again scared me.
Matt grabbed my hand in his, intertwining our fingers and resting it on my thigh. He noticed my breath hitch and smiled to himself. This was so wrong, but so, so right.
When we got to the pizza place, everyone was already sat down, leaving me and Matt in the edge of the booth, next to each other.
"We ordered like three pizzas, pepperoni included so you're in luck." Angie winked from across the table. She wanted me and Matt to have to sit next to each other. She planned this. I know she did.
Everyone was having a conversation but I was still stuck in my thoughts. I wasn't sure that anyone noticed me staring at my fork like it was the most fascinating thing in the room, but I didn't really care. I could hear Matt laughing beside me, his arm brushing mine.
"You look great," Matt whispered to me. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as his hand found the bare skin above my knee.
"I uh- I. Thanks."
After we finished all the pizza and were slowly making our way to the vehicles, "I'm riding with Nate and them." That meant I would be alone with Matt. Again.
Everyone loaded up into the SUV and I waited for them to drive off before unlocking the jeep.
"Maggie, we need to talk." We got into the jeep and before he could say anything more, I leaned over to kiss him. He let it go on for a few seconds, before pulling back, "You have a boyfriend Maggie."
"A boyfriend that cheats on me." I mumbled and ran my hand through my hair, not exactly sure how to feel about what I just did. Matt gently grabbed my chin and placed his lips on mine. "We should probably get going."
I tried to think about something other than what had just happened. My breathing was still uneven, minutes after everything went down. It made my head spin, my heart started beating faster.
Wow. I am that girl.
But on a real note, there was something there. As much as I didn't want to admit it, those kisses were better than any I had with Aaron.
We got to the tailgating area and found the rest of our group. They were all at least two drinks in before the time we got there. Apparently we stayed at the pizza place a lot longer than we thought. I jumped out and grabbed the bottle of rum I had stashed under my seat.
I took off the cap and drank a little then held it up, "You want some?"
"That's not what I want." He mumbled and walked away. Something in his mood changed as soon as we got here and I wasn't sure I liked it.
"Alrighty then." Angie handed me a cup full of coke and I started pouring in the Captain. Apparently I was going to need a lot of it tonight.
"What's up with Matt?"
"I may or may not have kissed him." I finished my drink, "He may or may not have kissed me after."
"MARGARET!" She yelled, causing everyone to stare at us, "Er, stop drinking my alcohol. Dude, aren't you still with Aaron?"
"Yeah, but it felt so right." I poured myself another drink or two before heading into the venue area thing.
Cole Swindell came on and I was half past wasted. Good thing the guys would be sober by the time we needed to leave. Ryan and Matt were talking while everyone else had found someone to dance with. Except for me. I was just swaying along with the music.
"I want you to need me like I'm something you can't lose." I turned my head and caught eyes with Matt and kept singing. "I want you to save me, I want you to crave me. Even when I can't find my way to you."
Honestly, most of the concert was a blur until the end. All I could remember was Matt helping me into my jeep and him climbing into the passenger's seat, Jared was driving. I guess that meant Angela was the body next to me. Wait. Why was Matt coming home with us?
I woke up and ran to the bathroom, or tried to at least. I tripped over a body on my way there.
"What the hell," I mumbled, scrambling back to my feet. I ran to the bathroom, barely making it in time.
"How much did you actually drink?" Matt pulled my hair back as I lost all that pizza I had eaten before the concert.
"Why are you in my house?"
"Wanted to make sure you'll be okay."
"Matt."
"Maggie."
"I'm sorry. I want to leave Aaron, I really do. I just-"
"Maggie, let's get you back to bed." He filled up my glass of water and helped me back to my room. I thought about telling him that he could join me in my bed, but I thought that might be a bad idea.
The actual morning after was rough. I drug myself down to the kitchen and poured myself a glass of orange juice, "Oh God." I took one sip and was back in the bathroom. After brushing my teeth, I went back to the kitchen and put the juice away. My father, my twin, and Matt were sitting at the table, drinking coffee.
"Rough night?" My father asked. He had a line of comments he wanted to say I could tell.
"Morning. Rough morning." I mumbled and grabbed the doritos before bringing them back to my room. I didn't expect Matt to follow me but apparently he wanted to talk.
"We didn't do anything last night when I was drunk, did we?"
"No," He closed the door and sat down next to me, "We didn't."
My eyes started to water, I guess I was going to be emotional and hungover this morning. "Matt, I'm falling for you and that scares me."

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