Hall of Fame

I lay wrapped in my blanket on the couch, totally intent are taking full advantage of the Stars off day with some much needed alone time. I did a pretty good job with avoiding the unwanted questions yesterday, but I wasn’t in the mood to deal with them today. Today I just wanted to be alone.
So I couldn’t help the grown that escaped my lips at the heavy knocks that could be heard at my door. I took a deep breath, hoping that if I just ignored whoever it was that they’d just go away, but after about a minute of on and off knocking I figured I wasn’t going to get that lucky.
I threw the blankets off of me with a sigh as I made my way to the door.
I took a deep breath as I slowly opened the door to see a very enthused Tyler, but the smile slowly faded as he looked at me, “are we not going running today?”
I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth as I slowly look up at him with a shake of my head, “I’m not really in the mood to go running today.”
“Okay,” he looked a little shocked at my confession and I couldn’t blame him, this was the first time I’ve ever cancelled are run. “Can I at least come in?” He shifted from one foot to the other, awkwardly.
I nodded as I stepped aside, and pulled the door wider.
“So are you okay Brittany?” He asked as I closed the door and he took a step closer to me.
“Yea,” I brushed it off with a wave of my hand. “I’m fine. You want something to drink?’ I asked as I made my way to the kitchen, a distraction from the questioning look he gave me.
“Sure,” there was a questioning tone to his answer as he slowly followed me. “Do you still have some of that sparkling water,” that time it was an actual question.
“Yea,” I rolled my eyes as I opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle for him and the carton of orange juice for me. I turned around, nudging the fridge closed with my hip as I handed him his water. He thanked me as I turned back around to retrieve a cup from the cabinet next to the fridge. I sighed, as I realized I need to do my dishes (a bad habit of mine) and stood on my tippy toes to retrieve the glass on the second shelf. My breath hitched in my throat as I felt a pair of arms wrap around my midriff.
“Let me help you with that,” he whispered in my ear sending a chill down my spine. I only nodded, and sank back onto my heels as his one arm reached up to grab a glass.
He set the glass on the counter before he pointed to the tiny bottle that I must have left out earlier. “What’s that?”
I shook my head taking my time as I slowly twisted the cap off the orange juice, poured some into the glass, and slowly twisted the cap back on before I turned around to face him.
I took a deep breath as I debated if I was really going to do this or not. It wasn’t the first time I debated rather or not I should tell him, but I still wasn’t sure if I could trust him with this, but I guess there was only one way to find out. So I sucked it up, followed the lump in my throat and spilled, “those are my happy pills Tyler,” I bite my lip as I waited for Tyler to say something, anything. I could feel the water collecting in my eyes as the silence dragged on and he just stared at the bottle on the counter.
His eyes slowly shifted to mine as he spoke, “Why didn’t you say something before?”
“It’s not really something I go around telling people.”
He nodded, “well you know you can talk to me, right, you can talk to my about anything.”
“Can I?” I spoke around the lump in my throat as a couple tears spilled over. I hated crying in front of people, but right now I didn’t really care.
“You can,” he confirmed as his hands came up and his thumbs wiped away the tears. “So is this why you were avoiding me yesterday?”
“I wasn’t avoiding you yesterday,” I laughed as he dropped his hands.
“Okay,” he sighed with a roll of his eyes, “then explain to me why every time I even got close to you, you made up some excuse and left.”
I inhaled, and slowly exhaled as I bite my lip, “because I knew you’d want to talk yesterday, and well I didn’t want to talk, so the only thing I could think to do was run.”
He nodded as he engulfed me in a hug and rested his hand on top of mine as I wrapped my arms around his waist. “Talk about what Brit?”
“Talk about what happened on Wednesday.”
“You mean about that James guys?” Tyler’s voice turned sour as he said his name, “I was more concerned about you, looked pretty pissed. I could care less about some guy you were friends with, unless you slept with him or something…”
“No,” I laughed with a shake of my head as I pulled away, “I wish,” I joked, but immediately defined myself when I saw the look on Tyler’s face. “I mean I might have liked him as a little more than a friend, but no Tyler, nothing ever happened.”
“Nothing,” Tyler raised a questioning eyebrow at me with a devilish smirk.
“Nothing but a broken heart,” I felt the tears well in my eyes once again, “after you find out the girl you considered one of your best friends was sleeping with him. The one person besides your family that you thought you could trust.”
Tyler pulled me back into his arms. “I sorry Brittany,” he sighed as he ran his hand up and down my back as I cried into his chest. “I know that really doesn’t help, but I want you to know that I will always be here for you, if you need to talk please Brittany, don’t hesitate to call, even if it’s 2 in the morning and we have a game the next day or if we’re on a road trip.”
“Thank you Tyler,” I swallowed as I pulled away from him and wiped the tears away with the back of my hand, “but sometimes I don’t need to talk, sometimes I just need you to cuddle with me, I just need to know your there. Like right now.”
“Well I guess we can arrange something,” a devilish smile covered his face as he slid his arm around my shoulders pulling into his side and he led me towards my couch.

Notes

Sorry for the delay. School started back up so I'm trying to adjust to my new schedule.