I was a junior in college. I hadnt seen Jordan since that night. I thought about him alot, and I wondered if he thought about me.I still loved him. Eric and Carly were still together, so were Marc and Abigail. I hated college. I couldnt wait for it to be over. I often thought back to that night I laid in the pickup truck with Jordan. I should have said yes, I shoulve gone with him. I was sitting in my dorm room one night when my phone rang. It was my sister Carly, she and Eric had gotten engaged and they were having a party this Friday night for them. I was so thrilled for Carly, she and Eric were going to be so happy. "This Friday night at seven, at the old barnhouse, its going to be so much fun! Just like old times," Carly squealed through the phone. It didnt occur to me that Jordan would be there until I had already hung up. I sat there on my bed for a good twenty minutes hugging the teddy bear Jordan gave me when we were about six. I had fallen off my bike and scraped my knee, he gave me the bear to make me feel better and I had never gotten around to giving it back. He's probably still mad at me, I thought. I packed a small bag and put it in the back of my car. It was about a three hour ride from my school to Thunder Bay. I arrived around three o clock on Friday afternoon. Of course my mother acted as if I hadnt seen her in years when in reality it had only been a few months. "Congratulations!" I shouted to Carly as she came downstairs. I had missed all my sisters so much. They were my three best girlfriends our entire lives, and we had always been close. Kara and Abigail were the next ones down the stairs and they practically mawled me with a group hug. Abigail was living with Marc while he played minor league hockey, and Kara was still in high school. Abigail and Carly went out to get a few things for the party. Kara and I sat in my old room and talked while they were out. Kara and I had always been particularly close, probably since we were only a few years apart. "So hows school?" I asked.
"Ehhh, its school" Kara said sarcastically. I laughed and asked, "Who cares about school, hows Jared?" she laughed at my response. "He's incredible." she smirked "he's so sweet and caring." "Did you guys...." for most people this would be a weird conversation to have with a sibling but we had always talked about stuff like that together. "Maybe," she joked. "Did you?" I asked more aggresively. She nodded. I jaw dropped, she was a senior in high school. I had lost my virginity to Jordan around the same time, but she seemed so young being my little sister. "When?, Where?, How was it?" I questioned. She giggled at my barrade of questions. "Well, it was a only a few weeks ago, we were in his basement watching old movies and it just kind of, happened." She blushed a bit."Awwww" I whined. "Shutup," she joked playfully. "Sooo," she said, "how do you feel about seeing Jordan tonight." my somewhat cheerful mood declined quickly. "I-I dont know." I said. Kara knew all about what happened between Jordan and I before I left for college. I had confided in her about our relationship and how poorly it ended. "He probably hates me, so it will be pretty awkward." I hadnt been home often since I left for school. I had been home for the major holidays, but Jordan hadnt been able to make it home for that. I still hadnt seen him since that night. Kara however had seen him on the rare trips he had been able to leave hockey for a few days. She said he seemed generally happy and he looked good. "I doubt he hates you, I would hope he has forgiven you in the two years you two have been apart." Kara said. "I hope so" I said. "You still love him dont you?" Kara asked. I looked over at the teddy bear sticking out of my duffle bag, and let out a sigh, "I do."