A Second Chance at Love

We hung out around his house all day Sunday, getting the boys stuff ready. He was leaving for two road games that night and the boys were going to their mom’s house. I couldn’t complain. They were the only two road games during their preseason.

He dropped the boys off around two o'clock and headed towards the airport. Ryan and I went to the store and bought all the fixings for ice cream. I promised him after dinner we would play Wii and eat ice cream.

We were watching a movie and he crawled up next to me on the couch. “Mommy, its too quiet here.” I gave him a kiss on the forehead.

I thought so too. “Lets go buy some new games for the Wii and some board games. Once Danny comes home we can invite them over to play them ok.“ We went out and occupied ourselves by shopping. I rarely spent a lot of money so it was much deserved.

I let Ryan get anything he wanted. I think we were feeling a little lonely. While we were at Friendly’s for dinner, Cam called me. “Hi Rainy, just wanted to see what you and Ry were doing. We are playing outside. Mom said I should give you a break but I wanted to say hi.”

“We are having a little bored. Ryan and I are shopping for games, stuff to do when your Dad gets home.“

“Ok, have fun Rainy, but no too much without me.” I laughed and hung up.

We headed towards home. Ryan was getting tired while I was driving back. He nearly broke my heart in two when he asked me if Danny could be his Dad. I was glad he was sleepy because I had no idea how to respond to him. It was the first time I’ve cried since I met Danny. I hated my son growing up without a Dad.

I put Ryan in bed and cuddled up on the couch. It was only nine o'clock but I was exhausted. Max called me a little after ten that night. "Hey sunshine, skype with me." He wrote, with a picture of him blowing me a kiss.

I texted back quickly, "no way, will call u, look like crap.”

His reply came quickly. “What’s wrong mon ami, you will always video chat with me?”

“I don’t know Max, Danny left today and won’t be back until probably Thursday morning. Ryan is on the no dad issue again and Jordan sent me flowers, which Danny saw and freaked out. It’s just been a really bad week. Plus I am so freaking tired. I feel like I could sleep for the next year. But I can’t stop thinking about things.” I sighed and pulled to covers up to my neck.

“Wow, ok, I’m gonna kick Jordan’s behind for you. Gotta give the kid credit though. He doesn’t give up easily.“ he said to me chuckling.

“I know Max, but he is killing me. So what happens when I up and say I’m going to Pittsburgh to visit. I’m sure he will love that idea. “

“Raina Lee, you are an adult. Don’t let him pull that on you. “ Max started to get mad. “And tell Ryan he can have me as a daddy.” I laughed. No matter how far we were apart Maxime could always make me laugh. I said goodnight and went up to bed.

I was up at five o'clock the next morning, wide awake. That’s the price I pay for going to sleep so early. I got Ryan up and made him breakfast, then dropped him off at school. I seen Sylvie walking with Carson towards the school. I held my breath hoping nothing would go wrong.

Carson took off running to meet up with Ryan and we walked towards each other awkwardly. “Hi Raina. How are you?” she asked.

“Good” I answered and smiled at her.

“Listen, I just wanted to say I am sorry for how I acted the last few weeks. Dan was right, I needed to give you a chance. The boys are always talking about you and they are working hard in school. Its hard being divorced and your children’s attention not being focused on you. I went from having the boys around constantly to not having them much at all. They are boys so obviously they want their father. I hope we can work together to make things easier all around since it seems like we are all gonna be around each other quite often."

I was really surprised. “No problem, Sylvie. I’m glad we can come to an understanding.” I said to her and left.

I had a whole day and nothing to do. I was pretty caught up with the work I needed to get done for Max and Eric still hadn’t given me any direction to go in. I hit the gym for any hour then stopped by Danny’s to take Lola out. It was pretty cold for the first week of October so I grabbed Claude’s hoodie from the chair. I ended up taking Lola with me across the street. I didn’t want to leave her in an empty house all day long. I shot Danny a text to let him know. I knew he would be on his way home from morning skate. I got a response fairly quickly. “Thanks. Miss u too much already. Will call after game, love you.”

We ended up talking on the phone for two hours after the game. I told him about Sylvie and he said he wasn’t surprised that she changed her mind. We talked about the kids and how things would work during the season. He laughed when I told him I was bored all day. “You are getting time to relax finally and you are complaining. You are silly.” He was truly amused.

“Hey now, I was all by myself. I even got went and got Lola for company.” It was a nice conversation. Pittsburgh wasn’t mentioned and I didn’t want to bring it up. I figured we would cross that road when we got to it.

The rest of the week came and went. He was landing Thursday around one o'clock in the morning. I couldn’t wait. I took a nap in the afternoon. He was coming right to my house and I swore I was gonna hold him hostage for at least twenty-four hours. I couldn’t believe how much I missed him and the boys. It was so strange and quiet without them. He showed up at the house with flowers, where he got them at, I’ll never know. They were beautiful. I put them aside rather quickly though. I wanted him so bad. I missed the feeling of his lips on mine and his body against me. I wanted him to show me how much he loved me. I wanted the loneliness to go away now that he was back.

Notes

Happy Friday !