A Second Chance at Love

Lavy is lecturing us on elevating the puck when shooting near the crease. I can barely focus on him. She is sitting in the stands looking beautiful as ever. She will be five months pregnant this week. Her long brown hair is pulled up and she has jeans and a light blue sweater on. She is sitting with Cam, Carson and Ryan. Caelan is at a friend's house.

She catches me staring and smiles. I suddenly feel a lot better. It is the first smile she has given me in three weeks. I try to focus on practice, but I can't stop looking up. She is currently trying to get Cam to sit down and stop arguing with Ryan. She looks adorable frustrated. I try to keep myself in check and not expect too much. Its hard not knowing whether she will ever forgive me.

She has been staying at my house still. I have been sleeping in the den and she has been sleeping in my room. We haven't talked too much. She says she isn't ready too. She told me she didn't want to disrupt the boy's lives so until she made a decision she would stick around and be there.

She spends most of her free time with Mike. I don't worry about that. He reassures me constantly to just give her time. I'm hoping this weekend will bring us closer. We are going to Ottawa for the All Star Game. Mike, Claude, Megan, Jeff and Pam are also going. My mom and Danielle are going to meet us there. I look up and notice practice is ending. I shower quickly not wanting to make her wait.

She greets me with a hug, which is surprising. I pull her tighter. "You look amazing sweetheart" I whisper in her ear. Claude throws me a surprised look and I just smile back at him. Maybe this is a step in the right direction.

Claude offers to take the boys to lunch so we can go out alone. She agrees and my heart melts. Maybe she is on the path to forgiveness. I mouth thank you to him and lace my fingers with hers. We head towards my car and she throws the keys to hers to Claude. We go to a small Italian restaurant and head towards the back.

"I'm glad we got to come here." she says quietly. "Listen these last few weeks have been awkward. I never have felt so uncomfortable in my life. I have thought so much about the situation. I don't want to be in a relationship just for the kids' sake. That is why it took me so long to have anything to say to you. I had a lot of soul searching to do. I wanted to make sure I knew both my head and heart were telling me before I made a decision."

She looked up at me and her eyes were filled with tears. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat. I started to get nervous, believing she was going to leave me.

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