Behind the Glass

Waking up early has never been my favorite thing, but when you're constantly traveling with a professional hockey team it becomes something you have to get used to. The alarm next to the bed goes off annoyingly, causing both me and Tyler to groan. I move to get up from the bed, but Tyler's arms around my waist squeeze tighter, restricting me from moving.

"Ty, baby, I've gotta get ready to go." I whisper to him. He grumbles and hesitantly loosens his grip on my waist. I gently kiss his forehead and move his arms from my waist. I get up from the bed and grab some clothes for after I take my shower.

I quickly strip out of my clothes and step into the warm water, letting it run down my back and soothe my muscles. This whole trip has been a wave of emotions for me, and I definitely needed to relax a little. Thank god we don't have another string of away games for a week and half, I don't think I'd be able to survive.

After fully relaxing and cleaning up, I finally get out of the shower and put on a pair of yoga pants with one of Tyler's hockey shirts I stole. It was huge on me, hitting my leg just above my knee, but I still loved wearing his shirts. It was one of his grey "Property of the Dallas Stars" shirts with a small 91 just above the heart.

I walked back into the bedroom to see Tyler sitting on the edge of the bed staring at his phone. I quietly walk up to him and place my hands gently on the sides of his face, causing him to look up at me. I could tell just by the look in his eyes he was sad.

"Hey, Ty Bear," I whispered quietly, pulling him into my chest,"Don't be sad baby. Before you know it, you'll be playing the Hawks again, and then the season will end and you'll have me for the entire offseason."

He simply nodded and pulled away from my hug. Without speaking, he pulled my face to his and passionately kissed me.

"I love you Rae." He said.

"I love you too Ty." I said back with a smile gracing my lips.

"Now let's get you to the airport." Ty says. We both pull on our shoes and he helps me with my bag. I'm definitely going to miss being able to spend time with him.

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When it was time for me to go through security, I pulled Tyler in for one last hug and kiss. The kiss ended up getting a little heated, to which I heard someone clear their throat behind me. We immediately pulled apart, and my face didn't waste time heating up.

"Come on Rae, we've gotta go." I heard Kaner say behind me. I sigh and give Ty one last quick hug.

"I love you! I promise I'll call when I land." I say while Kaner is pulling me away.

"I love you too!" I hear Ty yell to me. I couldn't help but smile.

After we pass through security, Pat puts arm around my shoulders, protectively holding me close to his side as we make our way towards the team. Leaning into Pat's side, I feel him kiss the top of my head.

"Are you ready to go home?" Pat asks me. I simply shrug, still feeling the effects of leaving some of my favorite people behind. No matter how close I got to my boys in Chicago, I always knew my boys in Dallas would have a special place in my heart. I guess that's just how it is with your first team.

When we meet up with the team, I spot Jonny and move to walk towards him, but Saad pulls me into a hug before I can get away.

"I've missed my favorite trainer!" Brandon exclaims, squeezing me tightly. A lot of the guys laugh at him.

"I've missed you too Bran!" I say, pretty much out of breath because Brandon squeezed it out of me.

When Brandon finally let me go, I look over at Jonny again, and he's got a mischievous look on his face. I know he's ready to start something, but what it is I have no idea.

"Boys! I think little miss Rae has something to tell us!" Jonny said while walking towards me. I give him a confused look, and he just slings his arm around my shoulders. "Rae, why don't you tell us about your boyfriend?" He says. A lot of the guys look surprised, except Pat obviously because he saw me with him earlier.

"Jon what are you talking about? Rae would've told us, or at least me, if she had a boyfriend." Andrew Shaw said. Andrew looks at me and gives me a look as if to say "You would tell me, right?"

I accept defeat, and shrug Jonathan's arm off my shoulders. "Guys, I do have a boyfriend, and his name is Tyler Seguin." I say his name quietly because I know some of the guys are immediately gonna jump on me. They all give me this look before collectively smiling and hugging me. I was definitely confused, but I wasn't gonna question it.

"As long as Rae is happy I don't care who she's dating." said Patrick Sharp happily. Since I moved down here a lot of the guys have assumed the role of becoming a big brother to me and that was one thing I loved about being a trainer for a sports team. Once you join them, they pretty much all become a part of your family.

"Thanks guys, it means a lot to me that you support me." I said smiling. I also plant a quick kiss on Jonny's cheek, thanking him for telling the guys because I don't think I'd ever be able to do it myself. Soon after that, we board the plane, and I fall asleep almost instantly after sitting down.

After hours of being trapped with a whole team of idiots on a plane, I decided to quickly get myself home. I definitely needed some peace and quiet after all of that. The guys were some of my favorite people to be around, but sometimes it was just too much. Especially when you're the only girl on the plane. Too much testosterone in the air.

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{ The Next Day - After the Game }

I was extremely tired after the game today. It was only the second game of the season, and we won 6-2, but for some reason these boys have me worn out. Thank god we have 4 days till our next game, a home game at that, because game days stress me out more than they should.

I was cuddled up on my couch, a couple hours into a Criminal Minds marathon on Netflix, when my phone started ringing. I was slightly confused as to why someone would be calling me so late, but I shrug it off and look at the caller ID. The screen read, "Jonny Boy." The only time he ever called me anymore was about work or health questions in general.

"Hello?" I answered the phone.

"Raegan Grace Matthews. I miss you so much, you know that? So, so much." He slurred. I sigh and get up to put shoes on. I wasn't just going to let him stay out all night and possibly do something stupid.

"Jonny where are you?" I ask him, slightly annoyed.

"Aren't you gonna say you miss me too?" He asks. This broke my heart slightly, hearing the hurt in his voice.

"Jonathan please tell me where you are. I'm worried about you." I say.

"I'm at the bar by Kaner's house. You know the one we take you to all the time." He said, giggling slightly at the end.

"I'll be there in 10 minutes okay?" I tell him. He replies with a simple, "Mhmmm," and I hang up.

I quickly put on my shoes, grab my keys, and run down to my car. Kane didn't live but a couple minutes away from me, so I was able to get over there quickly. The whole time while I was driving, I couldn't help but worry about Jonny. I understand that it was the first home game win of the season, but Jonny was never one to just go out and get absolutely wasted after a win. Yeah sure he would go out and have a couple of drinks, but never full on wasted.

I quickly parked, and walked into the bar. He wasn't hard to find because he was the one with multiple girls surrounding him. I walked towards him, and quickly grabbed his attention.

"Rae!" He slurred. "There you are baby girl."

"Jonny I'm here to take you home." I say. He gave me a pouty face, but quickly nodded. I reached out my hand, which he gladly took, and pulled him out of the bar. I decided to take him back to my apartment because it was closer than going all the way to his. The entire car ride was silent, which was surprising because Jonny was a loud drunk.

"Why are we at your place Rae? I thought we were going home?" He questioned as we walked into the building.

"Because my place was closer and I'm getting tired." I say matter-of-factly. Jonny simply nods and follows me.

We walk into my apartment, and Jonny immediately walks to my room. I don't protest, and simply follow him back there to make sure he doesn't die. When I walk in the room, he was in the middle of pulling his shirt off. I instantly stop, and can't help but stare at his perfectly sculpted body. I hear him clear his throat, and I break out of my trance to see Jonny smiling at me.

"Like what you see Rae?" He says jokingly. I instantly feel the heat rising to my cheeks.

Jonny drops his shirt to the ground, and saunters towards me. I slowly back up, until I feel my back hit the wall and Jonny is right in front of me. I feel his hot breath fan my skin as one of his hands moves up to cup the side of my face. He presses his body flush against mine, and pulls me into a kiss that I've been waiting for years to have. The kiss was filled with so much passion and the pent up sexual frustration between the two of us. I could feel the same sparks and passion I felt 8 years ago. It felt so right.

But it's wrong. It's all wrong.

I push Jonny off of me, and step away from him. The look on his face was filled with hurt.

"I can't." It was the only thing that I could make come out. My eyes were threatening to let the tears break free.

"You can't tell me that you didn't feel it Raegan. You can't tell me that you haven't waited for this moment for 8 years!" Jonny said, his voice gradually getting louder.

"Jonathan, I have a boyfriend! I can't do this with you!" I yell, the tears spilling down my cheeks. Once he saw the tears, Jonny pulled me into his chest and held me.

"I'm so sorry Rae. I never want to be the reason why you cry." He mumbled into my hair.

"Lets just go to bed okay?" I say. He nods and I pull away from his embrace. I was already dressed to go to bed, so I make my way out of the room.

"Rae." Jonny says sheepishly. I turn back to face him, and he says, "Lay with me. Please." I knew I shouldn't, but with all that happened tonight, I knew he wouldn't remember it and he needed someone to be here with him when he wakes up. I nod, and climb into my usual side of the bed. He quickly wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close to him.

We lay there for awhile, and when Jonny finally thinks I'm asleep, he whispers, "I'll always love you Raegan. Even though you might not love me, I'll always love you."

And I love you too Jonathan.

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