Russian Roulette

I decided to drive Audrina’s the next evening to catch up. I was so caught up in my own world I had almost forgot about my best friend.
“Quinn!” she exclaims when opens the door.

“Hi,” I say smiling. I walk in and she pours me some wine.

“So tell me what’s new in your life.”

“Well I’m engaged.”

“Shut up! Oh my god! How? When?” she asks loudly.

“It just happened the other night. Me and Geno were making out and then I asked him to marry me,” I say grinning.

“This is amazing. I’m so happy for you!” she says while hugging me.

“Yeah but then the engagement was almost off because I almost slept with Matt.” Her jaw drops and I tell her about the night in the on-call room.

“Oh my god Quinn.”

“Yeah so now he doesn’t want me talking to Matt or Elias so I told them at work that I wasn’t their friend anymore.”

“I’m surprised he’s even letting you work in the same hospital,” she says before sipping her wine.

“It’s hard to avoid them. Matt and I had to do a surgery together yesterday and it was so awkward. I have to sit and eat my lunch alone in a deserted hallway like its high school all over again but it’s my entire fault. If I wasn’t a slut I would still have my friends.”

“You made a mistake, it happens. Who knows, maybe Geno will get over it.”

“I doubt it,” I say seriously. We spent the rest of the evening gossiping about her coworkers and I was happy I had at least one friend left.

Over the next couple weeks things seemed to be getting better. I didn’t talk to the guys unless I had too but I didn’t realize how much my day revolved around them before. I was lonely all day with no one to talk to. I would see them laughing in the cafeteria and I would feel a wave of sadness. I was sitting in Reid’s office when I hear a knock on the door. I look up and see Matt standing there.

“We paged but didn’t get an answer. We need an ortho consult in the E.R,” he says awkwardly. I look down at my pager and notice it’s dead. I walk silently with Matt to the E.R.
He hands me the patient file and I head to the bed where Elias is standing. I roll my eyes at the fact that this case involves all three of us. I open the file and read the chart. I look up and there’s a patient sitting on a bed with a broken cheekbone.

“Why am I here?” I ask them.

“I thought you might want to scrub in?” Elias asks.

“This is a plastics case. Not ortho,” I say annoyed. I hand Elias the file and leave the E.R.

I’m at the nurse’s station when I hear two people behind me. I turn around and find Matt and Elias standing there.

“Are you guy’s here to waste my time again?” I ask.

“Matt told me about what happened between you two,” Elias says carefully. I roll my eyes and slam my file down.

“Did I not make myself clear?”

“We’ve all been best friends for five years and we’ve been through stuff. We can work past this,” Elias says gently.

“Okay I’m going to be honest with you guys. Geno found out my sexual encounters with both of you and he doesn’t want me hanging out with you anymore,” I say simply.

“So you just cut us out?” Matt says hurt.

“It’s was either you guys or him. I picked him. Sorry.” I pick up my files and head to another desk to work at.

I get home that night and Geno is on his laptop in bed. I strip and put on one of his t-shirts on and flop on to the bed.

“So who invited on your side?” he asks me.

“Audrina.” I reply.

“Who else?”

“That’s it.”

“No friends?”

“Matt and Elias were my friends but not anymore. The only people I have in my life now are you and Audrina.” He looks sad when I tell him this but I shrug it off. It hurt to lose Elias and Matt but it would hurt to lose Geno more.

“You miss them?” he asks.

“What do you want me to say? Do you want me to lie to make you feel better?”

“No.”

“Yes I miss them. They were my best friends. When something exciting between you and me would happen they’re the ones I would tell. When we would fight they’re the ones who would give me advice on how to fix it. Yes I was physically intimate with both of them but I was never emotionally intimate with either of them. I’ve never loved them in that way, I’ve never liked them in that way. They were like brothers to me but I messed that up by getting physical with them and I’ll always regret that. I’ve been with a lot of guy’s physically but you’re the only one that’s had my heart,” I say honestly. He looks down and I wait for him to say something.

“Okay.”

“Okay what?” I ask.

“If really want friends. Is fine. I not want you to be sad.”

“Are you sure?” I ask incredulously.

“Da. I trust you.” There it was. Those three words. I couldn’t believe he trusted me enough to be friends with them again. This was huge.

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