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Captive

There's something I need you to know

“I’m not sure my height will make up for your wide build,” Jamie said, handing Crosby sweatpants and a t-shirt.

We were chatting quietly outside of my bedroom after everyone have retreated to their assigned rooms for the night.

Crosby was leaning against the wall facing me. His thick arms were crossed, his bulging biceps the cherry on top. He smirked at Jamie before taking the clothes, “I guess your brother is sending a message.”

“You leave when I please,” I said and quirked my eyebrows.

“No need, sister. Sidney can stay with you,” Jamie announced. “If he stays in my room, I will not hear the end of it tomorrow, trust me.” A subtle smirk painted his young face.

“So, Tom did not appreciate the last picture you sent him, eh?” I asked amused.

My brother shook his head and winked at us before walking away.

“Just keep it quiet, mom and dad are only a floor up,” he said over his shoulders, without looking at us.

“Your brother is my favourite Shaw so far. After you of course,” Crosby smiled.

“I think you should go to Jamie’s room as agreed,” I whispered as I inspected both sides of the hall. “I’m not sure it’s the best idea. It’s weird with my family here.”

Still smiling, he leaned down and brought his lips to my ear, sending a shiver down my spine.

“We’ll be quiet then.”

He left a soft kiss below my ear. Then his wet lips grazed my neck, leaving goose bumps in their wake.

“Hey, let’s um... go inside at least. Sid… Sidney.” When he wouldn’t stop, I added, “the security camera!”

He stopped at once and took a step back. He was panting. His eyes went from half-shut with desire to widely awake in a split of a second.

“What! Where?” he asked as we stepped into my room.

With my back to him, I covered my mouth and attempted to lock the door.

“Why are you laughing? Wait were you...Seriously!”

“You thought we have security cameras inside the house, you fool!”

“Now is not the time for jokes,” he said dryly.

My eyes moved from his stern expression to the bulge in his pants. “Clearly not,” I smirked.

I bit my lips when his dark eyes drilled into mine, daring me to keep smiling. My mouth went dry and my heartbeat could probably be heard from a floor up. I was certainly not smiling anymore.

“C’mere,” he said and swallowed.

I blindly locked the door behind me and walked slowly towards him. He did not move, but his eyes were on me; his fierce gaze was that of a predator sizing up his prey. When our toes were almost touching, his hand travelled to the side of my neck. He watched me while his fingers were busy playing with my hair. He curled a strand around his finger and brought it to his nose. He inhaled then exhaled appreciatively.

“Your room smells just like you,” he breathed an inch away from me. He cupped my face with both hands and leaned in to kiss me. My hands curled around his wrists, with every intention of stopping this before it escalated. He took it as an encouragement and deepened our kiss for a few moments. I was delusional thinking I could ever stop him. With his warm hands still holding me close, he slowly pulled away.

“We should probably stop,” I said. It sounded too unconvincing for my own ears.

Ignoring me completely, he brought our lips together again in a searing kiss. I was a lost cause, too weak to resist him. Will I ever be able to say no to him?

That troubling thought had to wait for later. I missed him terribly and he was here now, in my room, with me. The door is locked. We can be quiet. We’ve been quiet before. Fuck it. I was all in.

All my defences crumbled into dust. I tilted my head back, giving him better access. I heard his muffled moan, or was it mine? I was too lost in him. I slid my hand in his hair that was too short now to get a good grip on. He paused. His heavy eyes bore into me. His lips were puffier if that was even possible.

“I should have called,” he said, his voice deep and sensual. “I missed this.”

His mouth was back on mine. My hands travelled across his expansive chest, over his shoulders and rested at his waist. He blindly walked us to the bed. I tumbled on my back with his heavy body covering mine. My heart was racing. Despite our history, everything about this felt new and exciting. With his hands on each side of my face, he looked down from my lips, to my neck, then to my chest. His eyes lingered on the exposed skin of my stomach where my shirt was tied in a knot. His head dipped down and he blew softly over my navel where his lips soon left a few wet kisses.

“You look so sexy in this, I can’t make myself take it off,” he said, his eyes raking my body with an almost scary intensity.

“Then don’t,” I said, biting my lip.

With a devious smile, he undid all the buttons but stopped at the tie. He moved my shirt to each side and licked his lips. Then his tongue traced the corner of his mouth in such an erotic fashion. He ran his warm paws over my ribcage to my back. Reaching his target, he undid my bra with some troubling ease. Stay in the moment, Mia.

With my bra loose over my chest, he started nibbling at my skin. “Take it off,” he mumbled.

I went to untie my shirt, but he stopped me. “Shirt stays,” he said sternly. I furrowed my brows, unsure of what he wanted.

“From your sleeves,” he said impatiently. “You know, that things all girls do.”

I smirked and sat on my elbows. He observed with a satisfied look on his face. He was surely uncomfortable in his jeans by now. I moved my hands to his belt and got to work as his mouth was getting busier and busier with my now-exposed nipples. His hands were everywhere his mouth couldn’t be. I was utterly and completely at his mercy, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

He paused for a moment to remove his pants and shirt. When I was about to unzip my pants, he batted my hands away and took it upon himself to expose every last concealed part of me – leaving the shirt. He sat on his heels in his briefs and ran his hands over my legs, from my ankles to the apex of my thighs. His briefs fit him perfectly. Well, he was testing their limits now. He was taking his time observing me shiver with every stroke of his hands.

“Stop teasing,” I said breathlessly. He touched me everywhere except where I wanted him the most.

I pushed my hips up and pulled down my panties. He gave me a boyish grin that tugged at the strings of my heart. His breathing hitched when the most intimate part of me was on display for his hungry eyes.

“Fuck,” he said as his fingertips made an almost shy contact with my bare skin. He dragged his index finger over my skin, getting closer to where I wanted him, close enough for me to jerk my hips in response. My fingers ached to touch his bugle but he was too far out of reach.

Then, and without any warning, his head dove between my legs. His tongue, flat and wet, greeted my burning skin. Over and again he lapped at me until I was a panting mess.

Then the feeling was all too soon gone. My cheeks were blistering hot, my head was dizzy and my body tingling all over. I opened my eyes to see him stepping off the bed.

“Why did you stop?” I said, trying to catch my breath.

He was crouching when he turned and looked at me over his shoulder. His flushed face was grinning widely. He lifted his right hand and in it was a square foil wrapper. It doesn’t take an experienced woman to know what he was holding so joyfully.

He straightened up, his grin unwavering. My gaze followed his hand that was still in the air while he flipped the condom between his fingers. I must have not looked as excited as he had hoped because his face fell by the time he reached the bed. He cleared his throat and placed the condom on the nightstand.

“Do you, um... want to?” he asked, trying to taper his excitement.

“Don’t ask stupid questions,” I said and he smiled back. He hovered over me and kissed me hard. His hands were on my breasts and his dick poking my thigh.

God, I wanted him, all of him – all the way. But I knew deep down that I should tell him before we went any further. It was the right thing to do.

“Sid.” It came out as a long moan as his tongue circled my nipple. “Sid,” I tried again and he hummed. “There's something I need you to know,” I managed to say.

That got his attention. “Can it wait?” he asked, furrowing his eyebrows.

I shook my head. He sighed and pressed his chin between my breasts, waiting for me to talk. I was nervous all of a sudden. I squeezed my eyes shut, not wanting to see his face when I spilled out my little secret.

“Mia, what is it?”

He sounded a little annoyed now. I couldn’t blame him. I was likely killing the mood but he needed to know nonetheless. He will forgive me once I told him. It was better to tell him now rather than at a later stage.

With my eyes still shut, I took a deep breath and spoke. “I’m a virgin.”

He didn’t move for a few moments. I opened one eye slowly. He was frowning. Great. I didn’t know what else to say. My revelation was quite self-explanatory. His reaction or the lack thereof was alarming.

“Say something,” I said.

He sat up to my side, his gaze not meeting mine. He looked confused.

“Jake? Ryan?” He asked with a low voice.

“No,” I said weakly. I was dreading this conversation. But it must be had.

“Why? I mean… how?”

“What do you mean how?” I asked getting irritated by his shock.

“You dated them but did not sleep with them,” he mumbled. “But you told me Jake was a casual thing?”

“It was. We um... did things but... we did not... um, you know,” I stuttered.

He nodded, still not meeting my eyes. “Why?”

What kind of stupid question was that? I pulled the sheet to cover myself and took a deep breath.

“I wanted to wait,” I said with a low voice. “It doesn’t sound like me; I know that. I just wanted my first time to be special, with someone special, Jake and Ryan simply weren’t.”

“Why not?”

“Oh my God, Sidney. I Just… I didn’t see a future with them, I don’t know how else to explain it. It didn’t feel right!”

Mood killed. And he has yet to look at me. He rubbed his hands over his bare thighs and shook his head.

“And you wanted to have sex with me, like now?” He asked.

I hugged my knees to my chest. “Um... yeah, I do,” I said and cast my eyes away from him. It was the biggest thing I have ever confessed to a man and I was hoping he understands how big of a deal it was to me. I was technically telling him that I chose him to be the special person I wanted to lose my virginity to.

I fiddled with the sheets, too scared to see his reaction. Was he repelled by my confession? Did he think it was weird? Did he just realize how special he was to me or did he think I made out with every man I met? Didn’t guys feel special about being a girl’s first? And if so, why did his reaction ooze of disappointment?

He was off the bed, with his back to me. This was not what I was hoping for. I expected him to be surprised and to ask questions. I was also half-expecting him to start chirping me and poking fun at my sex-less past, rather being this shocked.

“I should have said something before, but it wasn’t really necessary. Sidney, say something.”

“You want me to be your first,” he simply stated.

Which part of this did he not understand? “For the last time, yes, I do,” I answered. “It’s not too big of a deal, okay?” I tried; maybe this will calm him down.

“Not a big deal?” He asked, turning to finally look at me. His hands were at his naked waist. “It is a big deal, Mia! You’ve waited for long, and I...”

He turned his back to me again; his hands were over his face. He exhaled loudly. “I can’t...”

“Can’t what?” I asked, my heart drumming in ears.

“I can’t be the one who takes it away. You’ve waited too long for the perfect person. I’m not him, Mia.”

Notes

Do you guys prefer I put a warning when there's a "mature content"? or would you rather be surprised? :D Let me know your preference!

Cheers!

Comments

I’m obsessed. It’s so ducking good. Please tell me there is more to come! I literally beg of you.

Canadice Canadice
2/5/21

@Gigipens
You’re welcome :)

CharlotteWhite CharlotteWhite
1/29/21

2 updates in one week. I love it and thanks so much!!!

Gigipens Gigipens
1/29/21

Thanks so much for the update!!!

Gigipens Gigipens
1/26/21

Hmm I don't know what the filter problem is, but I don't really use it that much! Looking forward to chapter 39!

Court31 Court31
8/5/20