Falling Fast and Breathing Hard

He kissed me. Kristopher Letang just kissed me. I didn't know what to think. I was speechless.

What was I to do?

Of course, I should kiss him.

Right?

Oh, I don't know.

I had never been so confused in my entire life.

"Athena?"

I closed my eyes and shook my head.

"Athena, just talk to me."

"No."

"Why not?"

"Why not? Why not?! I'm so fucking confused about this."

"What exactly are you confused about?"

"That kiss. My feelings."

Then, I decided to run out of my room and into the bathroom, locking the door behind me.
Kris pounded on the door as I sat against it. Silent black tears just ran down my face; I didn't bother to wipe them away.

"Athena, please let me in, so we can talk."

I simply unlocked the door and moved away from the door and sat on the commode.
He stood in front of me and touched my arm.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Well, I'm thinking about the last time that I was in a relationship. It ended terribly."

"How did it end?"

"We were together for two years and by this time, we were both eighteen and we loved each other. Anyway, he left me without saying goodbye, the morning after he took my virginity."

"That's ridiculous! Who would do that to anyone? I could kick his ass right now if I wanted."

I let out a light laugh.

"I appreciate that, but it wouldn't do any good. He's in Maine right now."

"So, is your past relationship, the reason why you ran away from me?"

"Yeah. Not to mention, things seemed to move so fast already. I don't know if I want to take a chance."

"Do you want to know what I think?"

"Sure."

"If you don't take a chance, you won't have any idea what would've happened if you did take that chance."

I wiped my bloodshot eyes and moved hair out of my face.

"You do have a point."

He smiled.

"So, what do you say?" he said with that crooked smile.

It made me giggle.

"Well, let me clean up my face. It's a mess right now."

Once I did, I went ahead and kissed him.

"You have no idea how good that feels to kiss those lips of yours." I said, smiling.

He laughed.

"I could say the same about your lips. They're irresistible."

I blushed.

"Oh, stop."

"No, it's true."

I just giggled for the millionth time and we made our way out of the bathroom. I felt like a new person, but I was still me, right? I only opened a new part of me or maybe it was an old part of me? Who knows. I turned to him once we were sitting on my bed.

"This means we're a couple now?" I asked with a hint of a smile.

"Yes."

"Yay!"

He kissed me and I couldn't help but push him down onto my bed and kiss him back. He wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me closer to him, while making the kiss go deeper; I could get used to this.

"I love this side of you. It's... it's..."

"Sexy?"

"Yeah and amazing."

"What do you wanna do now?"

"i don't know. What were we planning on doing before 'us' happened?"

"Watching a movie, celebrating, maybe have a drink. Oh, do you want me to get you a drink?"

"You're so random and I love it. Sure, but I'll help."

"No. You're my guest."

"No. I'm your boyfriend and you've had a long and tiring day. I'm helping."

"Ok, smartass. Let's go into the kitchen and get a couple of drinks."

"Alright."

"Hey, could you do something for me?"

"Sure. Anything."

"Could you go out and buy me tequila and other stuff to make margaritas? You know, since I'm not 21 yet." I said with an innocent look on my face.

"Of course. How could I say no to that face?"

"I knew that look would come in handy."

"I'll be right back. Don't start celebrating without me."

"Don't worry. I can't celebrate without you."

"Ok. I'll be back soon."

"Bye."

While he went out to buy stuff for margaritas, I decided to sit down on my couch and watch tv until he came back. As much as I tried not to think about Kris, I just could not get him off of my mind.

"Damnit! Why can't I get him out of my head?"

That's when I decided to text him.

I can't get you out of my head.

A couple of seconds later, he texted me.

I can't get you out of my head either.*wink*

I squealed.

When he got back, I was hiding under my bed. I didn't know how I fit under there, but I did.

"Athena? Athena, where are you?" I heard as he came inside.

Once he walked down the hall and into my room, I remained as quiet as can be while he called my name, getting more and more worried. The moment he stepped in front of my bed, which was where I was, I grabbed his leg then pulled my hands back quickly.

"What the hell was that?"

That was when he looked under the bed and found me.

"There you are. I was worried because I couldn't find you."

"Sorry."

"It's okay."

I started to crawl, but I needed help.

"Kris, a little help please?"

"Of course."

I gave him a hand and he pulled me out.

"Thanks. I have no idea how I got under there in the first place."

"You're welcome."

I fixed my clothes and we walked out towards the kitchen to make drinks. When I saw the margarita mix and the tequila, a huge smile spread across my face.

"Yes! Thanks." I exclaimed hugging him tightly.

"No problem. I'd do anything for you, anytime, anywhere." he whispered into my ear while holding me tight against his chest.

A happy tear ran down my face and I realized that my life was just going to get better, much, much better and this was the happiest moment of my life... so far.

Notes

Chapter title courtesy of I'm Lost Without You by Blink 182.