I Want Crazy
Like Nobody Loves You
I gripped the phone tight. Hearing his voice was like a gift to me, especially since he was always busy. "Kendall, you know I wish I could come visit you," His voice said sweetly through the cellphone. I closed my eyes to see the picture of his face, here, with me.
"Paul, you say that every single time we talk. I know you say you want to, but it's just not going to happen. Your priorities are just elsewhere," I explained to him.
He was silent for a little while, before answering me. "You can't say that. I care about you so much and you know that."
I let out a sigh in frustration. "Yeah, that's why you're always partying."
"Well the clubs aren't a thousand miles away! I need to always get my mind off things. I like to get a little loose every now and then."
"You like to go out every single night. You don't have to lie to me," I argued.
"Holy shit, Kendall. Why are you being so difficult?" He asked, angrily. I looked at my dog who was resting his head on my lap. I pet him, smoothly.
"Paul, this isn't going to work anymore." I finally broke the news to him. I knew that this hurt him more than it hurt me. Doing this to him would always be on my mind.
"W-What are you saying?"
I took a deep breath. "Paul, I can't be your girlfriend anymore. I want things that you don't want. You still enjoy partying, and that's alright with me, but you're way too consistent with the pass time. I need someone who is trustworthy and will be there for me. I want to settle down and start a family some day. I want to get married and grow old with someone and Paul, you don't give me any of that."
"We can get married and have kids one day, I promise. Kendall, please don't do this to me." Paul's voice made tears fall from my cheeks. "There's another guy, isn't there?"
"Wai—No! Paul, there is no one else. You can't give me what I want in life. I'm so sorry, Paul. It's my fault it's ending this way. I will own up to that, but this wasn't a one person deal."
"You said you loved me and now you're going to throw it all away?" He asked, sternly. I could tell his voice was a little shaky.
"We can't kid ourselves anymore. You're in Phoenix while I'm in Toronto. We only see each other once every few months. I try to call you, text you and Skype with you all the time, but you're always busy. You're either too busy with hockey, parties or girls. I mean, Paul, it's obvious you're not loyal to me. You've admitted to it twice already! I wouldn't doubt that you've done it plenty of other times," I said rather loudly, waking up my dog.
"Fine, if this is what you want because I told you I would give you everything you want in life. Here, you're getting your wish," He simply said.
"I'm sorry, Paul. Just know I lov—" And just like that, the line went dead.
"Paul, you say that every single time we talk. I know you say you want to, but it's just not going to happen. Your priorities are just elsewhere," I explained to him.
He was silent for a little while, before answering me. "You can't say that. I care about you so much and you know that."
I let out a sigh in frustration. "Yeah, that's why you're always partying."
"Well the clubs aren't a thousand miles away! I need to always get my mind off things. I like to get a little loose every now and then."
"You like to go out every single night. You don't have to lie to me," I argued.
"Holy shit, Kendall. Why are you being so difficult?" He asked, angrily. I looked at my dog who was resting his head on my lap. I pet him, smoothly.
"Paul, this isn't going to work anymore." I finally broke the news to him. I knew that this hurt him more than it hurt me. Doing this to him would always be on my mind.
"W-What are you saying?"
I took a deep breath. "Paul, I can't be your girlfriend anymore. I want things that you don't want. You still enjoy partying, and that's alright with me, but you're way too consistent with the pass time. I need someone who is trustworthy and will be there for me. I want to settle down and start a family some day. I want to get married and grow old with someone and Paul, you don't give me any of that."
"We can get married and have kids one day, I promise. Kendall, please don't do this to me." Paul's voice made tears fall from my cheeks. "There's another guy, isn't there?"
"Wai—No! Paul, there is no one else. You can't give me what I want in life. I'm so sorry, Paul. It's my fault it's ending this way. I will own up to that, but this wasn't a one person deal."
"You said you loved me and now you're going to throw it all away?" He asked, sternly. I could tell his voice was a little shaky.
"We can't kid ourselves anymore. You're in Phoenix while I'm in Toronto. We only see each other once every few months. I try to call you, text you and Skype with you all the time, but you're always busy. You're either too busy with hockey, parties or girls. I mean, Paul, it's obvious you're not loyal to me. You've admitted to it twice already! I wouldn't doubt that you've done it plenty of other times," I said rather loudly, waking up my dog.
"Fine, if this is what you want because I told you I would give you everything you want in life. Here, you're getting your wish," He simply said.
"I'm sorry, Paul. Just know I lov—" And just like that, the line went dead.
Notes
a/n: ok so i actually have a huge crush on biz, not gonna lie so i decided to write this as a spur of the momento type of thangggg. im currently writing 5 stories with one that is ending and holy shit that's so many. ok ok ok ok im not continuing anymore now.titles come from country song lyrics or titles: making memories of us - keith urban (i have the biggest crush on him! ahhh i loved him since i was a little girl. just publicizing that!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ-15YIvH5Y
When will you update again?
5/23/14