Second Best
Five
Two days later
The time James and I would have to spend together were winding down and I hated every moment of it. I really regretted sleeping with Brandon even if it was our last 'hurrah'. We promised we'd keep in touch, but I just felt like shit. when James and I were together I tried to push it to the back of my mind. I don't think he noticed. Over the past couple days you could say we were joined at the hip. We went to the movies, had dinner, had a few of the boys over and our blowup following the trip to the grocery store ended with some amazing makeup sex. But it was time for them to go on a 5 day road trip and I wasn't very excited about that. They'd play Florida, Tampa Bay, and The Devils. I wasn't too worried that they'd lose, but it was always hard when he was away.
I had been texting my best friend Anita about the situation. We're so close we may as well be sisters. She just told me to tell James the truth and not worry. I said it would be much harder than that, but she reassured me that everything would be okay.
I was sitting on the couch googling some info on vacations in Hawaii when James snuck up on me. He was not very stealthy and I heard him "tip-toeing" in my direction. I jumped up and screamed before he got to me, making him jump back and scream.
"I heard you coming, mammoth" I said hugging him. He was in his suit...my second favorite. It was midnight blue and he wore it with the striped grey tie I bought him.
"Whatever. Ugh. I have to leave now" he said wrapping his arms around me. I looked up and kissed him softly.
"I love you." I whispered against his neck.
"I love you too." He said with his lips pressed against the side of my head. I looked down to the bag beside him and took a deep breath. Now was the time.
"Before you go I have to tell you something." I said sitting on the back of the couch facing him.
"Hmm?" He asked picking up his bag and throwing it over his shoulder.
"I had sex with Brandon." I said staring at my trembling hands.
"Okay....when?"
"When I was in Montreal last week."
For a moment he was silent.
"How could you- I can't believe you-"
"Before you get mad technically I cheated on him with you-"
"Don't give me that shit Reese. Just don't."
"Look, I know what I did was wrong. I'm sorry, but it's not like your innocent either" I blurted out, opening a giant can of worms. I instantly regretted it. He had no clue I knew.
"What are you talking about?" He asked angrily dropping his bags. I knew this time would come, I just wished it was much much later.
"I know you cheated on me. You can't exactly be mad at me for-"
"What makes you think that?" He asked. Then I just lost it. He really wanted to pretend he didn't do it.
"I SAW YOU FUCKING HER! In our bed! Last march!" I screamed.
"You have no clue what you're talking about" he scoffed.
"Yeah? Is that why I found out who she was and just asked her about it? Is that why she told me it was going on for months? I thought I could just get over it, but I couldn't. That's why I just made up a stupid lie about us "getting too serious" so I could end it."
"You lied to me?"
"You cheated on me, you piece of shit!"
"I don't have time for this"
"Yeah, you never had time for anything. Except Sarah the fucking bartender."
"Don't start with me"
"Yeah? At least I'm a fucking honest person that owns up to something right after it happens. You were fucking her for 3 months and never said a God damned word about it. And you still tried to play it off today. So you don't start with me."
Without another word, James picked up his bags and left. I got all my shit out of his house and slammed the door on my way out. I loaded my car and headed home.
The walk down the hill sucked. I fucking hated this, I didn't hate her. I knew she was right. I just didn't know when she found out about us. I can't belive that bitch didn't just keep her mouth shut. I was just so mad I wanted to scream. I walked into the arena and shoved past Geno.
"What wrong?" he asked.
"Fucking Reese!"
"What happen?" he looked genuinely concerned.
"I cheated on her and she found out"
"Why you mad? not her?"
"I don't fucking know. I'm just mad at myself I guess"
"Cause you cheat?"
"Yeah."
"Well don't cheat. No problems"
"Fuck off, Geno." I said walking towards the locker room. I knew he was trying to help, but I was absolutely not in the mood.
The time James and I would have to spend together were winding down and I hated every moment of it. I really regretted sleeping with Brandon even if it was our last 'hurrah'. We promised we'd keep in touch, but I just felt like shit. when James and I were together I tried to push it to the back of my mind. I don't think he noticed. Over the past couple days you could say we were joined at the hip. We went to the movies, had dinner, had a few of the boys over and our blowup following the trip to the grocery store ended with some amazing makeup sex. But it was time for them to go on a 5 day road trip and I wasn't very excited about that. They'd play Florida, Tampa Bay, and The Devils. I wasn't too worried that they'd lose, but it was always hard when he was away.
I had been texting my best friend Anita about the situation. We're so close we may as well be sisters. She just told me to tell James the truth and not worry. I said it would be much harder than that, but she reassured me that everything would be okay.
I was sitting on the couch googling some info on vacations in Hawaii when James snuck up on me. He was not very stealthy and I heard him "tip-toeing" in my direction. I jumped up and screamed before he got to me, making him jump back and scream.
"I heard you coming, mammoth" I said hugging him. He was in his suit...my second favorite. It was midnight blue and he wore it with the striped grey tie I bought him.
"Whatever. Ugh. I have to leave now" he said wrapping his arms around me. I looked up and kissed him softly.
"I love you." I whispered against his neck.
"I love you too." He said with his lips pressed against the side of my head. I looked down to the bag beside him and took a deep breath. Now was the time.
"Before you go I have to tell you something." I said sitting on the back of the couch facing him.
"Hmm?" He asked picking up his bag and throwing it over his shoulder.
"I had sex with Brandon." I said staring at my trembling hands.
"Okay....when?"
"When I was in Montreal last week."
For a moment he was silent.
"How could you- I can't believe you-"
"Before you get mad technically I cheated on him with you-"
"Don't give me that shit Reese. Just don't."
"Look, I know what I did was wrong. I'm sorry, but it's not like your innocent either" I blurted out, opening a giant can of worms. I instantly regretted it. He had no clue I knew.
"What are you talking about?" He asked angrily dropping his bags. I knew this time would come, I just wished it was much much later.
"I know you cheated on me. You can't exactly be mad at me for-"
"What makes you think that?" He asked. Then I just lost it. He really wanted to pretend he didn't do it.
"I SAW YOU FUCKING HER! In our bed! Last march!" I screamed.
"You have no clue what you're talking about" he scoffed.
"Yeah? Is that why I found out who she was and just asked her about it? Is that why she told me it was going on for months? I thought I could just get over it, but I couldn't. That's why I just made up a stupid lie about us "getting too serious" so I could end it."
"You lied to me?"
"You cheated on me, you piece of shit!"
"I don't have time for this"
"Yeah, you never had time for anything. Except Sarah the fucking bartender."
"Don't start with me"
"Yeah? At least I'm a fucking honest person that owns up to something right after it happens. You were fucking her for 3 months and never said a God damned word about it. And you still tried to play it off today. So you don't start with me."
Without another word, James picked up his bags and left. I got all my shit out of his house and slammed the door on my way out. I loaded my car and headed home.
The walk down the hill sucked. I fucking hated this, I didn't hate her. I knew she was right. I just didn't know when she found out about us. I can't belive that bitch didn't just keep her mouth shut. I was just so mad I wanted to scream. I walked into the arena and shoved past Geno.
"What wrong?" he asked.
"Fucking Reese!"
"What happen?" he looked genuinely concerned.
"I cheated on her and she found out"
"Why you mad? not her?"
"I don't fucking know. I'm just mad at myself I guess"
"Cause you cheat?"
"Yeah."
"Well don't cheat. No problems"
"Fuck off, Geno." I said walking towards the locker room. I knew he was trying to help, but I was absolutely not in the mood.
11/25/13