Captain Clutch

Christmas is in a week and I was putting up the last few decorations in Sidney's house while he was stretched out on the couch watching me, while sports centre played in the background. Things were going really well between Sidney and I. We spend a lot of time together. Either at his house or mine. I sleep over most nights of the week and go to every game, including the away games. I love being with him. He really is so sweet to me and he always treats me like I deserve to be treated. My brother is happy that I am in such a good relationship with someone who really cares about me. There are things I still haven't told him, but I'm just waiting for the right timing.
"It's beginning to look a lot like Christ-mas, everywhere you go." I sang as I came down the stairs twisting a garland around the banister as I went. I looked over at Sidney and he was watching me. I bushed.
"Keep singing, you have a beautiful voice." Sidney said sitting up. I got to the bottom of the stairs and stopped.
"No I don't." I said covering my face. Sidney got up and walked over to where I was standing. He moved my hands from my face and kissed my lips. I kissed him back putting my arms around his neck.
"Yes, a beautiful voice and the most beautiful face." He said moving my hair from my face to behind my ear. I smiled.
"Thank you." I said.
"I'm really excited to spend Christmas with you this year." Sidney said sliding his hands down my waist and resting them on my butt. I smiled.
"I wouldn't want to spend it with anyone else." I said.
"My parents want to come up for Christmas." Sidney said.
"What?" I said looking up at Sidney shocked.
"Is that okay?" He asked biting his lip a little.
"Of course." I said getting excited. I really wanted to meet Sidney's parents, but I was nervous. I didn't want them to dislike me. I had a horrible past and I didn't want them to think I was a bad person or that I would ever bring their son down. I loved him more than anything.
"Do you want to invite your parents as well?" He asked. I froze. I forgot I hadn't told him about my parents. How could I be so stupid. He was going to freak out. I guess he noticed something was wrong because he took a step back and grabbed my hand. Then he pulled me to the couch and we sat down next to each other.
"Sidney." I started. I felt a tear fall down my cheek.
"Kayla, baby whats wrong?" He said taking both my hands in his.
"Sidney, my parents aren't alive anymore." I choked out.
"Kayla, I'm so sorry." He said pulling me onto his lap.
"It's okay Sidney." I tried to smile, but I just ended up crying more.
"Kayla, if you don't want to talk about it." He said.
"I know, but I just want to tell you, I mean, I've wanted to tell you for awhile. I just didn't know how." I said tears still falling.
"I'm sorry I brought it up." He said stroking my hair.
"It isn't your fault. If you knew then we wouldn't have this problem." I cried.
"Baby." He said not really knowing what else to say. I took a deep breath.
"I really want to meet your parents." I said wiping the tears from my eyes and putting my head on his shoulder.
"They really want to meet you." He said rubbing up and down my arm. This made me smile.
"Good." I said. "Can I tell you?"
"Of course, anything you want." He said.
"I would rather just tell you now, since I'm already upset." I said.
"If you wish." He said.
"I was nine." I said. "They were coming home from a party and I guess my dad had been drinking. They got into an accident and never made it home. My older brothers had to take care of me. A year later I met Brandon."
"Oh." He said getting a bit defensive at Brandon's name.
"Just listen." I said running my hand through his hair.
"Okay." Sidney said sighing.
"His father started supporting me even thou my brothers had full custody of me. He saw Brandon and I were close and he really loved me. Eddie still loves me. He thinks of me as a daughter." I said. "Maxime is more of a father to me than an older brother, but I grew up with Eddie as my father figure. I haven't really had a mother figure in my life. I guess that's why I've been such a screw up my entire life."
"Don't say that." Sidney said. "You aren't a screw up."
"Sidney there is something else I need to tell you." I said. I guess now is as good a time as any.
"Yeah." He said raising his eyebrow.
"A couple years ago I got pregnant." I said looking past him. I really didn't want to look at him.
"Oh." He said. I moved off his lap and onto the couch next to him. A few seconds later he got up and starting pacing back and forth.
"I lost the baby." I said looking down.
"Oh." He said stopping and looking at me. He noticed I was crying and he came over and sat next to me again.
"Baby I'm so sorry." He said holding me. "What happened with the baby?"
"I miscarried." I said tears still falling. "I was doing a lot of drugs and I didn't know I was pregnant. When I found out I stopped right away, but I didn't get help from the doctors right away. My body went into shock and I had a seizure causing me to lose the baby."
"Wow. I'm so sorry Kayla. That must have been so hard for you." He said kissing the top of my head.
"It was." I said. I took a deep breath.
"When was that?" He asked.
"When I was sixteen." I said.
"Wow." He said sadly.
"I turned back to drugs really fast." I said.
"Now I understand why you are so serious about protection." Sidney said.
"Yeah. I don't think I'm ready to have a child yet. I guess I'm scared." I said.
"That's understandable." He said pulling me into him. I felt so close to Sidney, not just physically, but emotionally as well. He was so understanding lately and I really am so lucky to have him. I've never been happier in my life. I love Sidney and he loves me back. Its such an amazing feeling.

Notes

Everything about Kayla's past is now out there! Drug addict, miscarriage, horrible first boyfriend and dead parents. Pretty horrible past!!!