You've Set My Heart Ablaze
Chapter 12-
James' POV:
The next four months went by quickly…Allison and I had been staying over at each other’s houses, but we still hadn’t had sex…which was OK with me. I didn’t want to push her into it. We tried a few times, but she started crying, so we stopped. I loved her so I respected what she wanted.
It was almost the end of January, and the season had started, finally. We had an off day and I was taking Jen to a baby appointment. I pulled my cap down as we sat in the waiting room.
“James…” Jen started
“Yeah?” I asked looking over at her
“Thank-you…”
I smiled “No problem.”
“James?” she said again
“Yes?”
Jen looked down at her growing stomach, “Do you want a boy or girl?”
I smiled “I don’t know…I never really thought about it…”
“I want a boy…so he can play hockey…like his daddy.” she said
I looked at her “Girls play too…”
She looked at me and I could see tears forming in her eyes “James…I wish we were here under different circumstances…”
I looked down “I know…I’m sorry, Jenny…Things happen, but we have a child now…and you know that you will always be in my life for this reason.”
She nodded and grabbed my hand “I’m scared.”
“Me too.” I replied. Just then the doctor called us to come in. Jen was getting an ultrasound done and hopefully we were going to find out if our baby was a boy or a girl. I helped Jen onto the table and sat beside her.
“How are you doing, Jen?” Doctor Bentley asked
“I’m doing good.” she smiled
“Good good. So are you ready to figure out the sex of your baby?” he smiled
We both nodded. His nurse, Kristi put the jelly onto Jen’s stomach and then put the machine onto it and moved it around. Soon enough an image of a baby appeared on the screen and I smiled. “Wow…”
Jen looked at me and smiled “I know, right.”
“Your baby is looking great. Everything is developing as it should and ah there it is…congratulations you’re having a boy!”
Jen smiled at me, “A boy.”
I smiled back “Yeah.” I was so happy…I was going to be a father to a son. A son I could teach to play catch and hockey. A son that I could take camping and fishing…but most of all a son that I could love and care for.
Allison’s POV:
I threw my purse onto my bed. I just got off of work at the restaurant. I started the job a month or two ago and it was going good. James was gone with Jen for an appointment. I didn’t really like him spending so much time with her, but it was going to happen…
I stripped down and hopped into the shower. It wasn’t that I didn’t trust James…I just didn’t trust Jen. Some part of me felt like she was just trying to get him to come back to her, but the other part of me felt like she really just wanted his help with the baby.
I was about done in the shower when I heard someone come into the apartment. “Melanie?” I called
“No.” James replied
“Hi, sweetie. I’m in the shower.” I replied
James came in and sat down on the stool. “How was work?”
“It was OK. I got almost $80 in tips.”
“Nice!” he replied and I could almost hear the smile in his voice.
“So…how was the appointment?” I asked, just to be polite.
“Good…the baby is developing really well…and it’s a boy.” James said
I smiled a little “That’s good.”
“I’m so excited…it was way weird seeing him on the ultrasound, though…looked like a little alien.”
I laughed “Yeah?”
“Yeah. So…do you want to go out tonight? We have a game tomorrow against Toronto and then I’ll be gone to Canada for the next few days…well until next week.” he said
“Okay…sounds good. Just let me finish showering.”
“Alright.” he replied, leaving the bathroom.
I finished up my shower and changed into some clean clothes before heading to the living room where James was sitting, talking to Melanie. “Well congratulations…” Mel was saying smiling at James.
James smiled back and looked at me “Ready to go?” he asked
I nodded “Yep.”
“See you, Melanie.” James said before taking my hand and we headed out. We went to Primanti’s…our usual date spot. It was a place we both loved going to. We sat down and James looked at me “Is everything ok between us?” he asked
“What do you mean?” I asked picking a fry from my sandwich and eating it
“Are we OK? Since I told you about Jen…things have been weird…at least to me they feel like. You always seem so sad…I know this is hard for you, but it’s hard for me too.” James said
I snorted “Oh yeah? It’s hard for you?!”
James blinked at me “Huh…”
I shook my head “James I just feel like you’re spending far too much time with her and none with me. I barely ever get to see you and when I do…you only talk about Jen and the baby.”
James looked down “I…I’m sorry…”
“I mean I just don’t understand why you have to do everything with her. You said you were going to support her when the baby comes…not take care of her prior.” I snapped.
He looked at me hurt radiating on his face “She is carrying my child, Allison…I’m just trying to be the best dad I can be and yeah the baby isn’t here yet, but I want to go to the appointments. I want to make sure my son is OK. I want to do everything I can to make sure he is OK. I don’t get what your problem is…”
“My problem? My problem is that in the past few months you’ve spent more time with your ex-girlfriend than me. That’s what MY problem is.” with that, I walked away. I couldn’t handle it. Yes, I know I was being selfish and jealous, but it was the truth…
James’ POV:
I looked out the window of the jet and sighed. We were on our way to Toronto. I hadn’t spoken to Allison since yesterday night at Primanti’s…she was pretty mad at me. In my mind, she was being irrational, but if I was in her shoes, I’d feel the same way…I just wanted her to be happy…happy with herself and happy with me.
I couldn’t help being excited about my son and it was hard for me too. It was fucking hard and scary…I mean in a little less than 6 months, I was going to be a father! Sure, I didn’t have to take Jen to her appointments or talk about the baby when I was with Allison, but I want Allison to be a part of my son’s life.
The plane landed in Toronto and we got to the hotel. I plopped onto my bed and told Geno, my roommate for the season, that I wasn’t going to dinner with the guys. I had business to take care of. I had to call Allison and apologize. I dialed her number and waited patiently until she answered.
“I’m sorry…” we both started
I smiled “I’m sorry, Allison.”
“Me too, James…I was being immature. I know you just want to be the best dad to your baby and I know that when he comes, you will be the best…and I’m just sorry.”
“It’s OK, I understand. Listen, I’ll try to spend less time with Jen and more time with you.” I replied
“Okay.” she said, “Did you have a good flight?”
“Yeah…it’s cold here.” I laughed
“I bet…but I got to go, I’m meeting Sarah and Mel for dinner.” Allison replied
“Okay, have a good day, baby. See you when I get home.”
“See you…” she replied before we hung up.
The next four months went by quickly…Allison and I had been staying over at each other’s houses, but we still hadn’t had sex…which was OK with me. I didn’t want to push her into it. We tried a few times, but she started crying, so we stopped. I loved her so I respected what she wanted.
It was almost the end of January, and the season had started, finally. We had an off day and I was taking Jen to a baby appointment. I pulled my cap down as we sat in the waiting room.
“James…” Jen started
“Yeah?” I asked looking over at her
“Thank-you…”
I smiled “No problem.”
“James?” she said again
“Yes?”
Jen looked down at her growing stomach, “Do you want a boy or girl?”
I smiled “I don’t know…I never really thought about it…”
“I want a boy…so he can play hockey…like his daddy.” she said
I looked at her “Girls play too…”
She looked at me and I could see tears forming in her eyes “James…I wish we were here under different circumstances…”
I looked down “I know…I’m sorry, Jenny…Things happen, but we have a child now…and you know that you will always be in my life for this reason.”
She nodded and grabbed my hand “I’m scared.”
“Me too.” I replied. Just then the doctor called us to come in. Jen was getting an ultrasound done and hopefully we were going to find out if our baby was a boy or a girl. I helped Jen onto the table and sat beside her.
“How are you doing, Jen?” Doctor Bentley asked
“I’m doing good.” she smiled
“Good good. So are you ready to figure out the sex of your baby?” he smiled
We both nodded. His nurse, Kristi put the jelly onto Jen’s stomach and then put the machine onto it and moved it around. Soon enough an image of a baby appeared on the screen and I smiled. “Wow…”
Jen looked at me and smiled “I know, right.”
“Your baby is looking great. Everything is developing as it should and ah there it is…congratulations you’re having a boy!”
Jen smiled at me, “A boy.”
I smiled back “Yeah.” I was so happy…I was going to be a father to a son. A son I could teach to play catch and hockey. A son that I could take camping and fishing…but most of all a son that I could love and care for.
Allison’s POV:
I threw my purse onto my bed. I just got off of work at the restaurant. I started the job a month or two ago and it was going good. James was gone with Jen for an appointment. I didn’t really like him spending so much time with her, but it was going to happen…
I stripped down and hopped into the shower. It wasn’t that I didn’t trust James…I just didn’t trust Jen. Some part of me felt like she was just trying to get him to come back to her, but the other part of me felt like she really just wanted his help with the baby.
I was about done in the shower when I heard someone come into the apartment. “Melanie?” I called
“No.” James replied
“Hi, sweetie. I’m in the shower.” I replied
James came in and sat down on the stool. “How was work?”
“It was OK. I got almost $80 in tips.”
“Nice!” he replied and I could almost hear the smile in his voice.
“So…how was the appointment?” I asked, just to be polite.
“Good…the baby is developing really well…and it’s a boy.” James said
I smiled a little “That’s good.”
“I’m so excited…it was way weird seeing him on the ultrasound, though…looked like a little alien.”
I laughed “Yeah?”
“Yeah. So…do you want to go out tonight? We have a game tomorrow against Toronto and then I’ll be gone to Canada for the next few days…well until next week.” he said
“Okay…sounds good. Just let me finish showering.”
“Alright.” he replied, leaving the bathroom.
I finished up my shower and changed into some clean clothes before heading to the living room where James was sitting, talking to Melanie. “Well congratulations…” Mel was saying smiling at James.
James smiled back and looked at me “Ready to go?” he asked
I nodded “Yep.”
“See you, Melanie.” James said before taking my hand and we headed out. We went to Primanti’s…our usual date spot. It was a place we both loved going to. We sat down and James looked at me “Is everything ok between us?” he asked
“What do you mean?” I asked picking a fry from my sandwich and eating it
“Are we OK? Since I told you about Jen…things have been weird…at least to me they feel like. You always seem so sad…I know this is hard for you, but it’s hard for me too.” James said
I snorted “Oh yeah? It’s hard for you?!”
James blinked at me “Huh…”
I shook my head “James I just feel like you’re spending far too much time with her and none with me. I barely ever get to see you and when I do…you only talk about Jen and the baby.”
James looked down “I…I’m sorry…”
“I mean I just don’t understand why you have to do everything with her. You said you were going to support her when the baby comes…not take care of her prior.” I snapped.
He looked at me hurt radiating on his face “She is carrying my child, Allison…I’m just trying to be the best dad I can be and yeah the baby isn’t here yet, but I want to go to the appointments. I want to make sure my son is OK. I want to do everything I can to make sure he is OK. I don’t get what your problem is…”
“My problem? My problem is that in the past few months you’ve spent more time with your ex-girlfriend than me. That’s what MY problem is.” with that, I walked away. I couldn’t handle it. Yes, I know I was being selfish and jealous, but it was the truth…
James’ POV:
I looked out the window of the jet and sighed. We were on our way to Toronto. I hadn’t spoken to Allison since yesterday night at Primanti’s…she was pretty mad at me. In my mind, she was being irrational, but if I was in her shoes, I’d feel the same way…I just wanted her to be happy…happy with herself and happy with me.
I couldn’t help being excited about my son and it was hard for me too. It was fucking hard and scary…I mean in a little less than 6 months, I was going to be a father! Sure, I didn’t have to take Jen to her appointments or talk about the baby when I was with Allison, but I want Allison to be a part of my son’s life.
The plane landed in Toronto and we got to the hotel. I plopped onto my bed and told Geno, my roommate for the season, that I wasn’t going to dinner with the guys. I had business to take care of. I had to call Allison and apologize. I dialed her number and waited patiently until she answered.
“I’m sorry…” we both started
I smiled “I’m sorry, Allison.”
“Me too, James…I was being immature. I know you just want to be the best dad to your baby and I know that when he comes, you will be the best…and I’m just sorry.”
“It’s OK, I understand. Listen, I’ll try to spend less time with Jen and more time with you.” I replied
“Okay.” she said, “Did you have a good flight?”
“Yeah…it’s cold here.” I laughed
“I bet…but I got to go, I’m meeting Sarah and Mel for dinner.” Allison replied
“Okay, have a good day, baby. See you when I get home.”
“See you…” she replied before we hung up.
6/3/13