No Sense of Direction

Chapter Sixty

“NO! Sidney wait!”

“What the hell, Kat?! I thought you didn’t like him anymore!” Sidney yelled as he left my house and headed towards his car.

“I don’t! I want to be-“

“Don’t even finish that sentence! You wouldn’t have kissed him back if you wanted to be with me!” Sidney yelled and then got into the driver’s side, speeding me off and leaving me alone in my driveway.

Milan had finally let me out of the elevator and I basically ran away from him, not believing in what I had just did. Tyler and Brad had to hold Milan back as I ran passed Marc and made my way to my truck, wanting nothing more than to just go home.

Marc must have called Sidney, because less than an hour later, he was at my house asking if I was all right. I told him about Milan kissing me again, and I told him how I was stupid and kissed him back. I wanted to be honest with him, I didn’t expect him to freak out and basically break up with me.

‘…It’s my own fault…’ I thought as I bent over and wrapped my arms around my stomach.

I heard my name and looked onto the porch to see Dana standing there looking at me worried. I stood up and ran over towards my truck and drove off, needing to be alone, figuring that no one would bother me if I went to visit my parents, something I haven’t done in a long time.

I told them what I did, how I felt so horrible and stupid for doing it, “I like both of them. I know I can’t have both, but I don’t know what to do. Both of them have something in them that I like. I mean, I’m happy in Pittsburgh, and I thought I wouldn’t miss Boston, but I do, I miss it very much,” I cried as I leaned against my mom’s tombstone, “I don’t know what to do, mom, dad, I need a sign.”

I must have been there for a long time, because it got dark pretty. I heard someone walking towards me and saying how the cemetery was closing. I apologized and then headed back to my truck and made my way home.

-Sidney-

“Can you please talk to me?” Kat asked as I sat on her table and glared at the ground, the only reason for me being here was because she needed to look over my jaw after my last surgery.

“Nothing to talk about,” I muttered and she sighed, “Am I good?”

“Sidney-“

“No Katrina-“ I snapped and then saw her wince, “We’ll talk when you get your head in order and you decide who you want to be with,” I said and then hopped off of the table and stormed out of the office, seeing some of my teammates looking at me and then moving out of my way when I charged passed them.

I sighed as I made it to my Rover and then got in and leaned my forehead against the steering wheel. There was a knock on my window and I looked over to see that it was Mario’s assistant, Amanda. I gave her a weak smile and then rolled my window down.

“How are you Sidney?” she asked and I nodded my head, “How’s your jaw?”

“Getting there,” I said not really wanting to talk to her.

“Oh well, that’s good,” she said and then looked down, fiddling with something.

“Can I help you with something?” I asked because I just wanted to go home.

“Well, yes, Mario wanted me to give these to you, papers about your surgery,” she said as she handed them to me, “Do you have a minute to talk about them?”

“Not really right now, can we do it later?”

“Sure, do you want me to come over or-“

“Sure,” I said and then looked at her head to see it perk up and she had a smirk on her face, “Come by around six thirty.”

“All right,” she said and I turned the car on, “See you then.”

“Yup, bye,” I said and then pulled out of my parking spot and headed home, wanting some peace and quiet.

-Katrina-

“I don’t know what I’m going to do,” I said to Tyler as I brushed Blaze down, “I really screwed up.”

“Yeah, ya kind of did,” Tyler laughed nervously and scratched the back of his head, “But he shouldn’t have been here.”

“Why was he here?”

“I don’t know,” Tyler said and then sighed, picking up a brush and walking over towards Care-Bear who was next to be brushed, “Am I doing this right?” he laughed and I looked over towards him.

“Yeah,” I smiled sadly, “You don’t have to-“

“It’s fine,” he said and I nodded my head, “So what did Crosby say to you?”

“That I needed to choose.”

“So then choose,” Tyler said and I patted Blaze’s neck, “Who are you going to choose?”

“I don’t know, I thought it would have been Sidney-“

“Don’t tell me you’re actually thinking about going back with Lucic,” I heard and looked to see Dana moving over towards the barrel that Tyler was just sitting on.

“I- I don’t know, I just need some kind of sign,” I muttered and then heard the stable doors open.

“You got to be kidding me,” Dana said and I walked in front of Blaze and ducked under his head to see Milan standing there, “What are you doing here?”

“Kat, can we talk?”

“No, the last time you tried to talk to me-“

“It won’t be like that-“

“Looch, come on man, why haven’t you gone home yet, don’t you have a game tonight? Coach is gunna kill you,” Tyler said as he moved behind me.

“Shut up, Segs,” he said and then walked over towards me, “I just want to talk.”

“Here’s your chance,” Dana whispered as she then took Tyler’s arm and walked into the office.

She closed the door, but I knew that there were leaning against it, wanting to know what was being said. I sighed and then pet Blaze’s face, not wanting to look at Milan, “So talk.”

“Why can’t you see that I’m in love with you? I wouldn’t be going this hard if it were anyone else,” he said and I bit my tongue, “Kat, I want to be with you! Brittany meant nothing-“

“Wait- Brittany? Please don’t say my old roommate, Brittany,” I said and Milan sighed and ran a finger through his hair. I laughed and shook my head, “Oh my god, you’ve got to be joking! Were you that desperate?!”

“It wasn’t like I planned-“

“She’s a whore! And her boyfriend, or ex- I don’t know- They wanted a threesome, do you remember that?!”

“I wasn’t in it for a relationship,” he muttered and then walked closer to me.

“That’s what people said our relationship was Milan, they said it was just for the sex,” I said and Milan sighed and shook his head.

“I wanted to marry you- I still do! I want to be with you Katrina!” he said as he stepped forward and I pushed my back against the stall.

“Stay there,” I said as I held out my hand, “You’ve done enough.”

“Kat-“

“Milan please, I’ll always care about you-“

“Then come with me!” he said and then pushed me against the stall when I had taken a step forward.

“Milan!” I said and pushed him back.

He stepped back and bumped Blaze’s shoulder. Blaze freaked because he only liked to be touched by certain people and then whipped his head around and bit Milan’s arm and then turned his body to try and kick him, but Milan moved.

“He bit me!” Milan said and then held his hand over his arm, “Kat-“

“Hold on,” I said and then ran towards the office to get the first aid.

“He all right?” Dana asked but I ignored her and walked into the bathroom and grabbed placed my hands on the kit.

I froze, a massive flashback hit me and I remembered my dad telling me when I was around fourteen or fifteen that if anything ever happened to him, he would ask God for his spirit to be brought back down and be placed into Blaze so that he could continue to look after my brothers and I.

‘…Blaze doesn’t like most people…’ I thought and then looked in the mirror, ‘…He likes Sidney!...’ I gasped and then covered my mouth and leaned against the wall, ‘…Dad!...’

“Oh my god!” I said and then heard Dana walk in.

“Are you all right?” she asked.

“I need to see Sid!” I said and then ran out of the office and passed Milan.

“Kat!”

“Go back to Boston, Milan!” I yelled as I ran to my truck and hopped in, speeding out of the driveway and heading towards Sidney’s house.