The only thing providing me with solace was how I looked in my bikini. Trust me I'm not vain or conceited. I worked really hard on my body. 4 years ago I weighed 260 pounds so every time I saw myself in a two piece it felt amazing. I stood in front of the full length mirror in the Dupuis' bedroom and stared at myself. I wore a [url=http://www.victoriassecret.com/clearance/swim/adds-2-cups-push-up-halter-top-bombshell-swim-tops?ProductID=31535&CatalogueType=CLR]pink [/url] sequined swimsuit and personally thought I looked great in it. My hair was scrunched with some gel and I was ready to head out to see everyone.

"Well hello! You look amazing." Sid smiled and stood behind me. He wrapped his arms around me and nuzzled into my neck. I giggle as he lifted me up and playfully threw me on the bed. He hovered over me on his elbows and leaned his head down too kiss me softly. His lips enveloped mine as he suckled by bottom lip into his mouth. He kissed along my jaw line and left butterfly kisses on my collarbone making me moan softly.

"Sid." I said rubbing my hands across his bare chest. "We should probably head downstairs." I kissed him on the nose and he giggled. Sid had the cutest laugh.

"Ugh. I guess so" He frowned getting off me and helping me up from the bed.

~Downstairs

"Flower!' I screamed jumping into Marc-Andre's arms. He twirled me around a few times.

"Elle I thought you were never coming back!" Flower's smile was as big as ever when he saw me. His eyes lit up and I truly missed him around.

"Well, Sid and I got back together." I said, slipping down his body.

"Oh really. Did you tell him what he sai-"

"I did. We're even." I said accidentally. I tried my best to keep a straight face, but all Marc did was smile.

"It's good to see you. The guys all missed you, I hope you know that" I hugged Marc's midsection tightly.

I said hi to all the guys and they were all really excited to see me. When I walked up to Maxime Talbot he hugged me and kissed my forehead.

"How are you?" he asked seriously, holding my hands. His accent even thicker as he spoke quietly. His ice blue eyes locked onto mine, eating me up.

"I'm good," I gave him my go-to fake smile, but he didn't buy it. Although Max was playing for the rival Flyers, he was always part of the family.

"Arielle, I know you. Whats up?" He furrowed his eyebrows. I looked around nervously thinking that someone would be looking at us. I grabbed Max by his arm and pulled his tall, lanky body behind me. I found one of the kid's bedrooms and pulled him in.

"Max I think I'm fucking crazy." I said shutting the door behind me. " I missed Sid so I called him last week out of the blue. Then I drove all the way out to Cole Harbour to reconnect." I said all in one breath.

"From Pittsburgh?!"

I nodded.

"We made up and I forgave him for everything, but this morning..." I trailed off, suddenly finding it hard to breathe. Max instantly pulled me into a hug.

"Duper and I...had sex. He said he loves me and he always has."

"Okay....where were Sid and Carole-Lyne?"

"Downstairs," I whispered holding him tighter.

"Arielle...." He trailed off. I could hear the disappointment in his voice.

"Don't Max. I hate myself enough." I cried into his cutoff shirt. All of a sudden I heard the bedroom door open. I pushed Max away and tried to regain my composure.

"Is this the bathroom?" Tyler Kennedy asked drunkenly.

"Nope" I said calmly thinking about how we'd just dodged a bullet. He probably won't even remember the conversation tomorrow. I gathered my thoughts and we silently migrated to the huge backyard where Nealer started up the grill.

"Arielle!" I heard a voice call from behind me.

"Stephanie!" I ran up to Stephanie, TK's girlfriend, and we gave each other huge hugs.

"Oh My God I've missed you." her long blonde hair fell into cute beachy waves and she was wearing a cute Canada Day tank top and some denim cut off shorts.

"I've missed you too,"

"So how are you?" She asked leading me to the poolside chairs and sitting me down.

"Good. I called Sidney up a few days ago and drove out to see him"

"You drove all the way there from Pittsburgh?! You must love the guy. What is it like 15 hours?"

"More like 20. It's been hard without him. I still hear about him. The whole city still buzzes about him and it's just hard being there and not being with him, you know?"

"I get it girl, but I wish we still could have talked." She said sadly.

"I know. I don't know what happened to me. I think I just changed a lot."

Pascal's POV

"Tanger!" I yell from across the backyard.

"Oui? Comment va-tu?" he answered giving me a hug.
(Yeah, how are you)

"Ca vas bien. J'ai besoin de te parler." I said, walking him back into the now empty house.
(It's going. I need to talk to you)

"Qu'est-ce que c'est?" He asked me confused at my demeanor.
(What is it?)

"J'ai eu des relations sexuelles avec Arielle." I said, with my head down.
(I had sex with Arielle)

"Quoi?"
(What)

"J'ai eu des relat-" I began before he cut me off.
(I have a relat-)

"Non, non. J'ecoute tu." He flopped down at the bar like I had just hit him.
(No, no. I heard you)

"Que pensiez-vous?" he said staring at me with disbelief.
(What were you thinking?)

"Mais, j'adore elle Kris" I sighed staring out the back window.
(But, I love her Kris)

She was laughing on Sid's arm. He's my captain, friend, and teammate, but I love her. I can't exactly help that. I saw his hand slip down her waist and cup her ass over her cover up. It nearly made my blood boil. Why should he get to be with her all of a sudden when he's treated her like shit for so long?

"Non, tu ne pas. Quel est le problème avec vous? Vous avez une femme, une famille! Vous voulez ruiner que pour ELLE?" He says tring to control his anger.
(No, you don't. What's wrong with you? You have a wife, a family! You want to ruin that for HER?)

"Arrêter! Je ne vous aurais pas dit." I said getting frustrated.
(Stop. I shouldn't have said anything)

"How can you do this to Carole-Lyne? The kids. What do you plan on doing, leaving them." Kris said switching back to English.

"No. I don't know. She doesn't love me though. If she did...I don't know, Maybe."

"Are you on crack?! Why do you keep throwing around the L word? Since when have you LOVED her?"

"Since before she really started dating Sid. Carole-Lyne and I didn't have kids back then."

"Have you cheated on her before?" I shook my head.

"I don't love her though. I love Arielle." He let out a long sigh and ran his fingers through his hair.

"Well I don't know what to tell you. You know what I think you should do."

"No, Kris. I don't"

"Stop seeing her. I know that'll be hard when the season starts up again, but you have to. Tell Carole-Lyne. It's gonna be hard, but its not fair to her or the kids. And I don't know when it comes to Sid. I don't know what to tell you."

I couldn't do anything, but hang my head in shame.

"I'll let you think about that" Kris said walking away from me.

I leaned against the counter and took a deep breath. I instantly regretted having that conversation with Kris. I didn't ask him to keep quiet about the whole thing, but I knew he wouldn't blab about something this serious. I could hear everyone outside having fun in the nice weather and I was inside, miserable. The air in the kitchen was still vibrant from the cooking Carole-Lyne did earlier. My chest hurt. I felt terrible for the things I'd done to my captain, my wife, and the woman I love.

Arielle's POV
The sun was shining brightly and the air smelled like delicious meat and I looked over to a tan James Neal, still vehemently manning the grill.

It was hard to have fun with everybody when I felt so terrible. What had I done? Sid and I JUST got back together. I sat on a pool chair with my Kindle out reading headlines from the CBC website.

"Arielle what the hell are you doing?" A drunk Heather asked me. Her lime green swimsuit nearly blinded me. I looked up and everyone was dancing to the music blaring from the speakers. Some were in the pool relaxing and splashing each other.

"I'm not feeling too well." I said setting my kindle down. I sighed when I saw Sid laughing and joking with Fleury and Talbot.

"Stop being such a negative Nancy!" She said grabbing my arm and pulling me with her into the pool, but I tripped over the edge and nearly squashed Pascal.

"Sorry." I said awkwardly as he caught me.

"It's okay" he murmured before swimming away.