Come Closer

“James you can’t tell anyone about Giselle” I told James as he was getting my needle ready. “And I also don’t understand why she can get pregnant by accident and I’m doing this.” I said pointing down at my stomach as James put the needle in. “Fuck that hurts.”

“I won’t say anything so don’t worry about it, did she tell you if she is going to tell Brandon right away?”

“She told me she was going to do it tomorrow; you know be all romantic and shit.” I said putting my shirt down.

“Are you jealous babe?” he asked me putting everything in the garbage that we specifically use for the needles.

“I’m not jealous…ok maybe a little. If this doesn’t work then I’m going to be the woman without kids because my ovaries are not my friends and like to make my life miserable.” James started laughing.

“What is so funny James?”

“Nothing, you’re just so cute when you’re hormonal and mad about everything.”

“My eyeliner pencil broke yesterday and I cried about it for like 10 minutes, asking god why he did this to me.” I said going over to the couch.

“It’s our first Christmas here in Pittsburgh, pumped?” James asked me as he threw me a bottle of water from the fridge.

“Of course.” I moved over and kissed him as he sat down. “But seriously James, what happens if this doesn’t work? Almost 10 thousand dollars down the drain.”

“Then we will try something else, everything will be fine.”

James and I headed up to bed after laying on the couch for a while, I was half asleep when I turned all the lights off downstairs.

“JAMES!” I yelled at him from the master bathroom where I was getting changed.

“What Meghan?” He was in that bathroom a second later.

“Look at this.” I pointed down at my stomach and saw small bruises where the needles were.

“Do they hurt?” he asked running his hand down one of them.

“Not really, but do you know what my body is going to look like after were done. I have 11 more to go.” And I started to cry.

“Here come the water works, don’t worry about it babe they will go away when this is finished.” He pulled me in for a hug and carried me to bed and laid me down gently and came in beside me and I feel asleep in his arms.
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Even though I’m 26 I still can’t sleep past 8 on Christmas day. I looked over and James was still sound asleep beside me.

I got up and went down stairs and made us some waffles for breakfast, it was 9:30 and James was still not up. So me being the crazy lady I am went upstairs and jumped on him.

“JAMES, ITS CHRISTMAS!” I said waking him up.

“How old are you Meghan? Like 12?” He pulled me down and kissed me.

“I made us waffles downstairs.” I got up and went back down the stairs to get everything ready.

“Looks good babe.” He came up behind me and kissed my cheek.

I turned around and gave him a plate with two waffles, fruit and whipped cream. We sat at the kitchen table we talked about how far we have come since we were 18. These few months have gone by so fast, first we re-kindled our love for each other, got engaged, and starting fertility treatments to have a baby.

Just as I was cleaning up the kitchen James went upstairs and came back down holding a gift bag and quickly putting it under the tree that I bought and decorated.

“Meghan, come sit with me please.” He looked over and smiled at me.

I closed the dishwasher door and turned it on then went to sit with James in the living area.

He handed me the bag and I opened it and saw 3 Michael Kors boxes and quickly closed the bag and looked at him.

“Is this what I think it is?” I asked him smiling.

“Open it and find out.” He smiled right back.

I opened the bag and took out the 3 boxes and opened them.

There were 3 Michael Kors bracelets, gold, rose gold and silver.

“James, how did you know I was looking at these?”

“You left your computer on a while ago and saw them and thought perfect Christmas gift.”

“I love them James, I love ya!” I went over and kissed him.

“Ok, so…” I said sitting back on the couch. “I had a last minute gift idea that isn’t done yet but I did get you something nice.”

I got up and handed him the shirt that I got and of course he loved it and we had a nice little make out session but that ended shortly.
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The rest of Christmas Day consisted of talking to family and friends by phone or facetime and cheesy Christmas shows.

“Meghan, where is my turkey?” James asked me as I walked into the kitchen.

“You want a turkey?” I said. “I thought that wasn’t in your diet.”

“It’s Christmas…I can splurge.”

“Well I didn’t make you a turkey, you’re getting chicken instead.”

Just as I was putting the chicken breasts in the over the doorbell rang.

“Meg can you get that please.” James yelled at me from the upstairs bedroom.

I opened the door and there was Khloe holding a suit case in her hands.

“AHHH!!” Khloe and I both screamed at the same time. “Omg, what are you doing here?”

I told Khloe to come in and she put it by the door. James came down the stairs.

“Did you do this?” I asked him pointing to Khloe.

“I’m going to be gone for the first few days after Christmas and someone has to stab you.”
He said coming up behind me and hugging Khloe.

“The team sucks and I left.” She said giving me a big hug.

“You quit?!”

“Yeah, I wasn’t happy anymore so I said fuck you all and left.” She said.

“Good for you!”

I made all three of Christmas dinner and we talked and laughed about high school.

“Remember when I spied on you and James on your first official date?” Khloe said finishing her glass of wine.

“We saw your car in the parking lot and you wore all black, we put the pieces together.”

James said. “Those were the good days that’s for sure.”

“So, Khloe…I got something fun to tell you.” I said picking up the dishes and taking them to the kitchen.

“Spill.”

“James and I went over the Giselle and Brandon’s last night for dinner and she told me that she was pregnant.”

“Wait WHAT?” she asked looking stunned. “Does Brandon know?”

“She told me that she was going to tell him today and I haven’t heard from her.”

“Well that’s a nice surprise for them.”

“Yeah, I’m happy for her.”

“Are you?” she asked all serious.

“Yeah, she gets pregnant on accident and I have to get stabbed in the ovaries every day, I’m just a little jealous but I’m not going to tell her that.” I said. “Let’s just hope that I have the same success story.”
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“So how do I do this?” James was showing Khloe how to give me my shot.

“Put the needle on this vial and stick it in.”

James showed her all the steps and where the needle goes in. I still jump when it goes in and I don’t think that I will get used to the pain.

“Simple as that.” James did the same thing, threw everything in the garbage and kissed my stomach.

“If you think that I am going to kiss your stomach then you are going to be sadly mistaken.” She said laughing.

“Don’t worry I didn’t expect you to.”

We all stayed up talking till around midnight, James needed to go to practice in the morning and leave for a 3 day road trip so Khloe took her stuff up to one of the spare bedrooms and went to bed.

“I still can’t believe Khloe is here.” I said getting into bed.

“I knew bringing her here would make you happy when I’m gone.”

“Have I told you lately that I love you?” I asked him moving closer to him in bed.

“You told me today actually.” He said his face almost touching mine. “And I love you more than anything.” He kissed me. “Never forget that.”

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