My girl

Kylies pov:
Aubrey is doing great, she is just starting to walk and can say dada but not mama yet. I am just about 3 months pregnant and Jon and I have out first ultrasound today after his practice. I feel alot sicker with my 2nd then with Aubrey. Jon and I have been doing alright, but fighting alot. He has not been the same ever since the incident.

It is 8:30am, and Jon has practice at 10, so I decided to let him sleep in while I shower, make some breakfast, and wake Aubrey up and get her ready to go. Since Jon is always on the road, I am always alone with Aubrey, and it can be very hard at times, and I don't know what I am going to do when I have another child. Jon and I decided that we want to find out the gender, just like we did with Aubrey. Jon and I both want a boy, but if it is a girl we will both be happy.

I get up and check my phone for any messages and voice mails, but i have none, so I get up and grab my outfit for the day which is dark blue skinny jeans, a white long sleeve shirt, a brown scarf, and brown knee high boots. I go downstairs to that bathroom so i don't wake anyone up. After I finish showering, I go upstairs and start to grab the food for breakfast. I start to make some pancakes when Aubrey starts to cry. "Just great" I mumble to myself before quickly jogging to her room so she doesn't wake Jon up.

When I change Aubrey and get her changed into a black long sleeved shirt with a cheetah skirt and black boots, I feel the baby kick for the first time. I quickly set Aubrey down in her crib as she starts to scream again, and run to Jon and I's room and scream "Jon, Jon wake up". He quickly sits up and leaps out of bed and says "what's wrong babe, is the baby ok"? I reply "yes, it just kicked for the first time, here feel" as i take his hand and set it where the baby is kicking. I see a smile light up on his face and he leans in and kisses me. "Omg that is so cool" he says laughing. All of a sudden I hear Aubrey stop screaming so Jon and I tip-toe to her room to see her sound asleep again in her crib. "Well that's a first" I said laughing causing Jon go laugh to.

"That is not fair if she gets to go back to bed and we don't" Jon whispers in my ear. I turn around and smack him playfully and walk back to the kitchen when Jon sneaks up behind me and starts tickling me. "Jon stop!" "I don't think so Kylie" he says picking me up and making his way into our bedroom. "not this time Kyls" he says while lightly tossing me onto the bed. He starts tickling me again and I try not to laugh so i don't wake up Aubrey. "Seriously Jon stop it". He laughs and continues tickling me until I feel a sharp pain in my stomach. "Jon oww the baby" I say while holding onto my stomach. "I, I didn't mean to im sorry he says while sitting down and his hand on top of mine. "It's fine just no more" I say while getting up to go finish breakfast while realizing the time. "Jon your gonna be late for practice" I scream while going to get Aubrey and placing her in her car seat causing her to wake up. Jon runs out of the bedroom repeating "dammit, dammit, dammit". He make his way into the kitchen to grab his keys and bumps into Aubreys car seat in my arm causing me to stumble backwards. "Kylie i'm o sorry, I'll call coach and tell him that ur really sick so ill be a few minutes late" he says while helping me up. "No Jon go" I say while taking my screaming daughter out of her carseat. "Kylie, do you have to fight me on everything" he says getting angrier. "Jesus Jon will you just go already". I say while going to the kitchen and getting Aubreys bottle while I hear the front door slam.

I don't know how much longer I can stand being with Jon, because he is never home, and when he is we don't even get along that great. I grew up with a Dad and it was hard since he was always away with work and I couln't handle it, and i will not let my kids grow up the same way. I still have my house that i lived in before i moved in with Jon but i am renting it to Michaela. I am starting to think that i should move back to the house and just go slow with Jon and I's relationship. Yes, i know we have a child together and the 2nd on our way, but i will not let my kids grow up without a father.

Notes

Sorry i havent written in a while, things have just gotten crazy at my house and my laptop broke. I will be sure to wright more though