Fate Has A Way
Chapter 9
Was I angry? Yes......Was I disappointed? Yes....... Was I ready to break down and bawl my eyes out? Hell Yes..... Was I frustrated? Well that would be an understatement..... Did it feel like I had a hammer banging away in my head? Yup pretty much, and it was getting worse by the second........
Mrs. Jones ended up calling Zach and finding out yes indeed I was telling the truth about mine and Zach's relationship. That I was not some crazed Zach Parise fan girl, like she had hoped. I guess she was looking for some other reason to not let Avalon attend the school. And not getting the answer she wanted or expected, caused her frown to reappear on her face. I was starting to think that maybe she had a thing for Zach and was the crazed fan girl.
Even after all of the was cleared up and she even seemed to shoot confused glances at Avalon. Mrs. Jones still gave me trouble when she got off the phone with Zach. She went through all the schools rules and regulations like I was a child and couldn't read. She also went over the school uniforms policy. Than went over once again how the school would not tolerate my behavior and if it were to happen again, blah blah blah blah. At some point I had toned her out and only pretended to pay attention to what she was saying.
That was until we got to the paper work and she had said for Avalon to be fully enrolled that her father would have to sign the enrollment papers. Which had once again had me going into explationation that my fiancé wasn't in New Jersey yet. That he would be here in a few days and would be more than happy to sign the papers. What I didn't expect was Mrs. Jones knowledge that Ryan wasn't Avalon's real father. I felt slightly offended that she would act like his signature wasn't good enough as her real fathers. Which once again had me explaining things that I thought were none of Mrs. Jones business.
Which leads me to where I am right now. Sitting in my Tahoe, fighting off a migraine, wiping away the tears that are streaking down my face.
"Momma are you ok?" Avalon asked quietly, sitting in the back.
Oh my god Avalon in all this mess I had forgotten she was there. I felt bad she had to hear half of the things she had heard. At five Ava was smart enough to know that Ryan wasn't her real father, and we had told her as much when she was old enough to understand. She had never questioned it or questioned about her real father. She was content enough in her life with Ryan acting as the father figure in her life. But in ways I had always dreaded when she would ask me about her father, because I wasn't sure what I would tell her. I mean I knew I would tell her the truth, but would that be enough for her. But for her to find out that way and to hear everything that way, well it pretty much made me feel like shit.
"Yeah baby, momma's fine. Are you ok?" I asked, looking in the rear view mirror.
"Yeah. Mom why was that lady so mean to you?" she asked.
"I don't know baby," I sighed in response.
"Well I hate her," she stated.
"Avalon James, I do not want to hear that word come out of your mouth. We do not use that word, do you understand me?" I asked firmly.
She turned her head to look out the window.
"Avalon," I said firmly again, turning in my seat to look at her.
"Fine fine," she said dismissively, waving a hand in my direction, not looking at me.
"You've got a sassy little mouth young lady and I'm not sure where that sass is coming from. Look Ava I don't like the lady much either, baby. But we don't hate, we can dislike someone. But we don't hate," I stated seriously.
"I got my sassy mouth from Ryan," she answered cheekily, finally turning to look at me, with a smile.
"Well I guess I'm going to have to talk to Ryan about that aren't I," I replied.
"Ryan says he likes my sassy mouth," she answered.
"Yeah well I'm still going to have a talk that with him," I told her.
"He says you have a sassy mouth too, momma. And he really likes it when you use that sassy mouth when you......"
"Avalon James don't you dare finish that sentence," I said cutting her off, my eyes widening and I could feel my cheeks turning red.
'Yeah really need to talk to Ryan about that. Or I would really show him what a sassy mouth I had' I thought, shaking my head.
"Are you hungry baby?" I asked changing the subject.
"Yessssssss," she answered, dragging out the 's'.
"Ok well we'll go get something to eat and than we need to head to the grocery store. Because we have no food at home," I said, turning back to face the front and start my Tahoe.
Just than my cell phone rang from inside my purse. I hurriedly reached in my purse, hoping that it was finally getting intouch with me. Looking at the screen I found it was just a new text from Ally. I pushed the open button on the screen.
**NEW MESSAGE** From: Ally ** 11:30 am** When you get done at the school bring my god niece to me. I'll watch her if you need to get anything done. I need another girl around!!!!! XD
'God it was just like Ally to know when I needed to get stuff done' I thought laughing silently to myself. I felt a little bad about just dropping Ava off and letting Ally watch her. When she had her own toddler to chase after. But I also knew that Ava would start acting up in the store if she didn't get what she wanted.
"Ok change of plans Ava. How about going over to Aunt Ally's? Than momma is going to go to the store, alright?" I ask starting my Tahoe.
"Ok," she answered.
I hit reply on the text message and wrot an answer out on it, than hit send.
**NEW MEASAGE** To: Ally** 11:32 am** We're just leaving the school now. Be there in about fifteen!!!!
I put my Tahoe into drive and pulled off. Hearing Ava mutter in the back something about 'still not liking the mean lady' which I had to chuckle at. We pulled up to Ally and Travis's house exactly fifteen minutes later. I honked my horn to get her to come out and get Avalon. Maybe I was being slightly selfish but I still didn't want to talk to Ally. I still felt hurt that she hadn't told me Zach and Alisha were here. But I wasn't mean enough to keep Avalon away from her. Evidently she realized this as she came out a minute later and walked back to Ava's door and helped her out. Ally and Ava walked around to the drivers side window, which I rolled down.
"Be good girl for Aunt Ally and listen Avalon," I said, as Ally lifted her up and I kissed her cheek.
"Ok mommy," Ava answered, as she ran into Ally's house, after she was put back on her feet.
I found myself once again shaking my head at my daughters antics. Even though she didn't get to see her Aunt Ally a lot in the past five and a half years. You would never be able to tell. Ally stood there for a minute and put her hands on the windowsill.
"Well I'm going to head to the grocery store. We desperately need food in our house. She hasn't had lunch yet, so if you can give her something. I'll be back after I done with the store," I said.
"Ok and that's fine," Ally responded, " Take your time. You could even drop your grocerys at home and than come back for her. It doesn't make a difference to us."
"Ok thanks," I said, not knowing what else to say.
Ally stood there still biting on her lower lip, looking like she wanted to say something. I just wish she would spit it out already. And as if she could read my mind.
"Look Madd, it wasn't like I was keeping the fact Zach was here on purpose from you. I just know how much you dislike Alisha. I also know how hard it was for you to lose Zach to Alisha. I saw what you went through. I also saw the hurt in your eyes every time Travis and I or even someone else brang up Zach to you," I went to interrupt her on that point, but she stopped me. "Nope I'm not going to listen this time. You can deny it all you want Maddison. But you were hurt, because you still loved him and still do. And don't deny that either, because I can see it in your eyes right now."
She stopped and took a deep breath.
"So you can be mad or sad or hell even pissed all you want, nobody's stopping you. But the fact of the matter is Travis and I have been loyal friends to the both of you. And hell we've been stuck in the middle of it for the past six years. But you also need to realize we never said anything to Zach about where you were or who you were with. So think about that. Now go on and we'll see you when you get back," she finished with a smile, than turned her back on me and walked off before I got to respond.
'She's right though. I'm acting all mad because I thought she had kept something from me. But e fact of the matter was that yes her and Travis had been stuck in the middle. And that wasn't fair to either of them.' I thought driving off, and that's why she's my best friend because she's not afraid to put me in my place.
Mrs. Jones ended up calling Zach and finding out yes indeed I was telling the truth about mine and Zach's relationship. That I was not some crazed Zach Parise fan girl, like she had hoped. I guess she was looking for some other reason to not let Avalon attend the school. And not getting the answer she wanted or expected, caused her frown to reappear on her face. I was starting to think that maybe she had a thing for Zach and was the crazed fan girl.
Even after all of the was cleared up and she even seemed to shoot confused glances at Avalon. Mrs. Jones still gave me trouble when she got off the phone with Zach. She went through all the schools rules and regulations like I was a child and couldn't read. She also went over the school uniforms policy. Than went over once again how the school would not tolerate my behavior and if it were to happen again, blah blah blah blah. At some point I had toned her out and only pretended to pay attention to what she was saying.
That was until we got to the paper work and she had said for Avalon to be fully enrolled that her father would have to sign the enrollment papers. Which had once again had me going into explationation that my fiancé wasn't in New Jersey yet. That he would be here in a few days and would be more than happy to sign the papers. What I didn't expect was Mrs. Jones knowledge that Ryan wasn't Avalon's real father. I felt slightly offended that she would act like his signature wasn't good enough as her real fathers. Which once again had me explaining things that I thought were none of Mrs. Jones business.
Which leads me to where I am right now. Sitting in my Tahoe, fighting off a migraine, wiping away the tears that are streaking down my face.
"Momma are you ok?" Avalon asked quietly, sitting in the back.
Oh my god Avalon in all this mess I had forgotten she was there. I felt bad she had to hear half of the things she had heard. At five Ava was smart enough to know that Ryan wasn't her real father, and we had told her as much when she was old enough to understand. She had never questioned it or questioned about her real father. She was content enough in her life with Ryan acting as the father figure in her life. But in ways I had always dreaded when she would ask me about her father, because I wasn't sure what I would tell her. I mean I knew I would tell her the truth, but would that be enough for her. But for her to find out that way and to hear everything that way, well it pretty much made me feel like shit.
"Yeah baby, momma's fine. Are you ok?" I asked, looking in the rear view mirror.
"Yeah. Mom why was that lady so mean to you?" she asked.
"I don't know baby," I sighed in response.
"Well I hate her," she stated.
"Avalon James, I do not want to hear that word come out of your mouth. We do not use that word, do you understand me?" I asked firmly.
She turned her head to look out the window.
"Avalon," I said firmly again, turning in my seat to look at her.
"Fine fine," she said dismissively, waving a hand in my direction, not looking at me.
"You've got a sassy little mouth young lady and I'm not sure where that sass is coming from. Look Ava I don't like the lady much either, baby. But we don't hate, we can dislike someone. But we don't hate," I stated seriously.
"I got my sassy mouth from Ryan," she answered cheekily, finally turning to look at me, with a smile.
"Well I guess I'm going to have to talk to Ryan about that aren't I," I replied.
"Ryan says he likes my sassy mouth," she answered.
"Yeah well I'm still going to have a talk that with him," I told her.
"He says you have a sassy mouth too, momma. And he really likes it when you use that sassy mouth when you......"
"Avalon James don't you dare finish that sentence," I said cutting her off, my eyes widening and I could feel my cheeks turning red.
'Yeah really need to talk to Ryan about that. Or I would really show him what a sassy mouth I had' I thought, shaking my head.
"Are you hungry baby?" I asked changing the subject.
"Yessssssss," she answered, dragging out the 's'.
"Ok well we'll go get something to eat and than we need to head to the grocery store. Because we have no food at home," I said, turning back to face the front and start my Tahoe.
Just than my cell phone rang from inside my purse. I hurriedly reached in my purse, hoping that it was finally getting intouch with me. Looking at the screen I found it was just a new text from Ally. I pushed the open button on the screen.
**NEW MESSAGE** From: Ally ** 11:30 am** When you get done at the school bring my god niece to me. I'll watch her if you need to get anything done. I need another girl around!!!!! XD
'God it was just like Ally to know when I needed to get stuff done' I thought laughing silently to myself. I felt a little bad about just dropping Ava off and letting Ally watch her. When she had her own toddler to chase after. But I also knew that Ava would start acting up in the store if she didn't get what she wanted.
"Ok change of plans Ava. How about going over to Aunt Ally's? Than momma is going to go to the store, alright?" I ask starting my Tahoe.
"Ok," she answered.
I hit reply on the text message and wrot an answer out on it, than hit send.
**NEW MEASAGE** To: Ally** 11:32 am** We're just leaving the school now. Be there in about fifteen!!!!
I put my Tahoe into drive and pulled off. Hearing Ava mutter in the back something about 'still not liking the mean lady' which I had to chuckle at. We pulled up to Ally and Travis's house exactly fifteen minutes later. I honked my horn to get her to come out and get Avalon. Maybe I was being slightly selfish but I still didn't want to talk to Ally. I still felt hurt that she hadn't told me Zach and Alisha were here. But I wasn't mean enough to keep Avalon away from her. Evidently she realized this as she came out a minute later and walked back to Ava's door and helped her out. Ally and Ava walked around to the drivers side window, which I rolled down.
"Be good girl for Aunt Ally and listen Avalon," I said, as Ally lifted her up and I kissed her cheek.
"Ok mommy," Ava answered, as she ran into Ally's house, after she was put back on her feet.
I found myself once again shaking my head at my daughters antics. Even though she didn't get to see her Aunt Ally a lot in the past five and a half years. You would never be able to tell. Ally stood there for a minute and put her hands on the windowsill.
"Well I'm going to head to the grocery store. We desperately need food in our house. She hasn't had lunch yet, so if you can give her something. I'll be back after I done with the store," I said.
"Ok and that's fine," Ally responded, " Take your time. You could even drop your grocerys at home and than come back for her. It doesn't make a difference to us."
"Ok thanks," I said, not knowing what else to say.
Ally stood there still biting on her lower lip, looking like she wanted to say something. I just wish she would spit it out already. And as if she could read my mind.
"Look Madd, it wasn't like I was keeping the fact Zach was here on purpose from you. I just know how much you dislike Alisha. I also know how hard it was for you to lose Zach to Alisha. I saw what you went through. I also saw the hurt in your eyes every time Travis and I or even someone else brang up Zach to you," I went to interrupt her on that point, but she stopped me. "Nope I'm not going to listen this time. You can deny it all you want Maddison. But you were hurt, because you still loved him and still do. And don't deny that either, because I can see it in your eyes right now."
She stopped and took a deep breath.
"So you can be mad or sad or hell even pissed all you want, nobody's stopping you. But the fact of the matter is Travis and I have been loyal friends to the both of you. And hell we've been stuck in the middle of it for the past six years. But you also need to realize we never said anything to Zach about where you were or who you were with. So think about that. Now go on and we'll see you when you get back," she finished with a smile, than turned her back on me and walked off before I got to respond.
'She's right though. I'm acting all mad because I thought she had kept something from me. But e fact of the matter was that yes her and Travis had been stuck in the middle. And that wasn't fair to either of them.' I thought driving off, and that's why she's my best friend because she's not afraid to put me in my place.
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