Hatred Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

“Sid! What the fuck?” I said pushing back from him
“Presley…please I missed you so much! Didn’t you miss us? This?” He asked pointing between the two of us.
“It’s be 4 months Sidney…4 months not a phone call, not a text, not an email, not a tweet, not fucking anything now you just want me to throw myself into your arms and pretend like it never happened!?” I spat at his anger seething through my words
“I know I should have called believe me I wanted to I just…”
“You were just what Sidney? Balls deep in some puck bunny? Little to busy to call eh there Sid?” I said emotionless. In that moment I never wanted to hit Sid more in my life but I never wanted to just jump on him more either.
“No I would never!” He said in his defense
“Look me in the eye and tell me you didn’t hook up with anyone” I said as Sid and I made eye contact and he quickly looked at the floor “Exactly, the golden boy just has a hot nut and I’m not going to be the one to cool it down” I said turning to walk out of the dressing room
“Presley please I’m sorry” Sid almost begged “Fine, if you don’t want this and you want that kid fine all I want is for you to be happy that’s all and if that’s not with me then fine it’ll hurt like hell but I’ll let you go”
“You don’t get it! I want you, I was happy with you!” I said turning back to him tears in my eyes
“Then why leave now? Come back to Pittsburgh with me and be with me”
“Sid I can’t that ship sailed a long time ago, I’m sorry” I said giving him a kiss on the cheek and walking out of the dressing room.
“Presley!” I heard Ross call after me and followed me down the hallway “What’s wrong? What happened?” He said catching up to me and taking my arm to stop me
“Ross I’m sorry you’re such an amazing guy but I can’t so this right now I’m so sorry” I said pulling away from him and walking out of the Wells Fargo Center.
When I got home that night finally all I wanted was my bed and to be left alone. Meghan called to ask how my date went and I didn’t answer so I knew that would peak her suspicions. I laid in bed watching Greys Anatomy on Netflix when my phone buzzed from the night stand
“So did you take Ross home on the first date?”
“No I didn’t it just wasn’t a good night, I’ll call you tomorrow” I responded to her hoping that would keep her at bay for the evening. After a little while I fell asleep but was awoken but a knocking on my front door. I looked at the clock realizing it was 1:30am and I groaned getting out of bed assuming it was Meghan. I walked over and opened the front door fully expecting Meghan but instead I found Sid with his hood up and his hands in his pockets
“Sidney? What are you doing?” I asked confused “Are you okay?”
“No.” Was all he said pushing into the house removing his hood and I could see his eyes were just as red and puffy as mine were and I realized he had been crying “Presley, can you please just listen to me?” Sid asked and I shook my head in agreement “Presley I don’t know why I didn’t call you and I’m sorry that I didn’t I tried to fix the part of me that broke when you left with girls and alcohol but nothing helped me and I know I fucked up but I just wish you can see how much I truly care about you and need you in my life, I’m not used to me needing a girl more then she needs me…you’re beautiful, and funny, and independent, and everything I want in a girl you’re are absolute perfection and I don’t know how you do it” Sid smiled and I felt my throat tightening and a tear forming in my eye.
“Sid…I…” I was speechless I had never seen this side of Sidney but I did truly miss him “Sid I want you and actually I really do need you I just do a good job of pretending I don’t but I really do these last few months without you have been horrible I missed your huge ass and your huge lips and your dumb jokes that never fail to make me laugh and I missed the way your arms felt around me holding me against your chest while we slept I missed it all” I cried to him and he pulled me into his chest wrapping his strong arms around me protectively and once again I felt safe.
“Then come back with me” Sid said “I have the next 2 weeks without hockey come with me!”
“Why do you have 2 weeks off?” I asked confused
“Little accident with my ankle it’ll be fine alright Doc?” He asked with that amazing smile that I loved to see
“Well it looks like you need a doctor to nurse you back to health” I joked leaning up and giving him a kiss which he responded to kissing me back.
“So is that a yes?” He asked hopeful
“That’s a yes” I smiled “But does this mean it’s us now? You and me?”
“You and me kid” He smiled giving me another sweet kiss.

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