Hatred Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

“So?” Sid said with a smile as we sat at lunch looking over the menu
“So” I repeated folding my hands in front of me looking at Sid
“What was that all about?” He smiled to me
“What? The kiss? I decided a long time ago not to deny myself the simple pleasures in life so I went for it Meghan made me realize a few things and…wait…did you not…is that not what?” I felt my face turn a shade of red and my heart beat quicken. Maybe Meghan was wrong maybe Sid really didn’t have feelings for me and was truly just being a sweet guy, if that was the case this lunch and work were about to get real awkward.
“No I loved it it’s everything I ever wanted it’s just that…” Sid trailed off and I felt my throat tighten “I am seeing someone else actually, it just happened and I wasn’t planning on it happening but I couldn’t wait for you forever…I’m really sorry Presley because I really do care about you” Sid smiled weakly
“Its fine you know I’m realizing now I’m not really hungry but I’ll see you at the rink Sid enjoy lunch” I said standing up and running out of the restaurant before anyone else could see the tears falling from my eyes. I jumped into my car and just let it all out and boy did it come. I was sobbing so loudly I didn’t hear the tap on my window until my car door opened and I looked over and saw Sid standing there awkwardly not sure what to do. All I wanted him to do was pull my tight against his muscled chest and tell me everything was going to me okay but he just stood there. For as long as I knew Sid he was always so sure of everything he did but now he seemed lost and unsure of how to proceed
“Presley, listen to me…” Sid started
“No Sid it’s fine I was dumb to think that this could ever happen but I hope it doesn’t affect our work relationship all I want for you is to be happy and if that’s with this girl then that’s what I want you to do but I would appreciate it very much if you would let me alone” I said trying to pull the door closed but Sid held onto it
“I’m not letting you go” He said
“Why do you care? You have your girlfriend why can’t you just leave me alone!” I almost shouted
“Because I want you and not her!” He said and I was taken back for a second but I couldn’t let him say it
“No you don’t, it’s only because I’m crying and you feel guilty but I don’t need your charity never have and never will” I said coldly more harsh then I had ever spoken to him before. With that Sid let go of the car door and I slammed it shut driving away. The only person I had in Pittsburgh was Meghan so I rushed home and found her in the living room watching television.
“Hey, so you guys have sex or…” she trailed off when she saw my red puffy eyes “Oh no…what happened?” She said running over to my engulfing me in a hug
“He has a girlfriend” was all I could say before the tears came flowing back down my face. Meghan didn’t say a word and just pulled me over to the couch holding me while I cried. After a few more minutes I felt like my eyes couldn’t make any more tears and all I wanted was to crawl into bed and not leave for days. I called work and took the rest of the week off saying I had the flu and was very contagious. Obviously that wasn’t true but I had to decide whether I even wanted to go back to work at all or just go home. That’s really all I wanted was to go home. I drifted off the sleep until I was awoken but muffled argument from the living room
“You fucker! You told me you were in love with her so I shove her toward you and this is what you do I always knew you were a spineless piece of shit” Meghan said and I could hear the rage in her voice
“Meg, please” Sid pleaded
“Don’t fucking Meg me! This is your fault that girl has been fucked over so many times and I told myself to not let me opinions of you on the ice cloud my judgement of you as a person so I pushed her toward you but you turned out to be exactly what I thought you were! This is unbelievable! You know she’s coming back home with me when I leave next week right? Congratulations Crosby you just pushed Presley away you won!” She said and I was scared she might hit him
“She’s going back to Philly? But what about the job?” He asked confused
“She told them she had family issues and she needed to go home and she didn’t know when she would be able to make it back so they put her on leave until she wanted to come back but she’s never coming back”
“Where is she?” He asked and I could hear him trying to walk toward my bedroom
“Leave it alone! She doesn’t want to see you! Just leave her alone!”
“NO!” Sid shouted shoving past Meghan and storming into my bedroom “You can’t leave! You just can’t!” Sid said falling to the ground at the side of my bed
“To late…it’s done I’m going back to Philly. It’s better this way I was never meant for Pittsburgh and this…us…was never meant to be” I said smiling softly at Sid as he pulled me into a hug
“If you need anything” He whispered in my ear and I saw a tear fall from his eye as he turned and walked out of my bedroom and out of my life forever.

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