The Gentle Giant

"Claude, stop. Seriously, I can't do this. I don't want to." I said to him and half-convincing myself. My knees were almost shaking I was so worked up. Jeez, for being young he could push all the right buttons. He must have been taking lessons from Carter.

I almost ran into the house and into the room I was sleeping in with Caelan. I knew Claude wouldn't follow me in. I laid on the floor and wrapped myself in a blanket. I was shivering despite the warm temperature. All that kept running through my head was fuck, I need to talk to Andrej. I was such an asshole. I knew I shouldn't have drank after last night.

I finally fell asleep after two hours of tears and beating myself up inside. I heard Caelan moving around and got up, making my way into the kitchen. "Wow you look bad, how much did you drink?" Raina asked, handing me a cup of coffee.

"Way too muchh. Where is Danny and Claude?" Raina sat down next to me.

"No clue, Claude woke him up early asking him to go fishing so they could talk. Her answer surprised me so much I sloshed hot coffee over my hand. "Damn it, I have no luck." I half-hollered, annoyed at myself. She just looked at me confused. After a minute or two, she put two and two together, "Aww Danielle, please don't tell me you hooked up with him."

I just sighed. "We made out for awhile in the back of a cab. God, what is wrong with me. Shit, and I really don't think telling Danny is the brightest idea the kid has ever had."

Raina looked at me seriously. "Trust me, you have to make sure this ends today. Learn from our experiences. And as much as you don't want to, you need to tell Andrej. It isn't fair for him to be on the other side of the world and not know what is going on."

I threw my head in my hands. "God I really screwed it up, with his teammate no less. My brother might kill me."

Claude and Danny returned about an hour later. I heard the car and ran and hid. Claude grabbed his stuff and left, leaving Danny sitting in the living room. It was a good fifteen minutes before I could even face him. I knew by the look on his face he was more than pissed. Raina had already taken the kids out. "Sit, Danielle. Don't even think about running. I'm quicker."

I burst into tears. "Danny I am so sorry, too much alcohol and I know it isn't an excuse. I'm such an asshole."

He held me as I cried. "Danielle, it should have never happened, but it did. He deserves the truth and deserves for you to make a decision. You have been together six months now. Either it is working or it isn't. It could have been anyone last night. The night before it could have been Mike or Max." he said shaking his head.

"I know Daniel. I don't know what to do. I do love him. I guess it scares me. I know we can make things better though. I don't think he will forgive me."

Danny gave me a hug. "Trust me sis, people have forgiveness in them. Just don't give up on what you want. It worked for me. I thought Raina would hate me forever." It hurt to sit there and know I eventually had to face him. He was so polite, easygoing and he never did anything wrong to anyone. I was the fuck-up party girl who couldn't control myself. Danny was right, it could have been anyone last night. I enjoyed the attention. What a slut I was.

I got up and made up my mind. I was leaving, on the first flight. I would tell him as soon as I could and see where it went from there. I didn't think anything I said would make a difference, but I was willing to try. Hell, I was willing to get down on my knees if I had to and beg for forgiveness, It was time to grow up and start acting like an adult. I was single-handily ruining my life and needed to get back on track.

Notes

So, thoughts on Andrej's reaction?