Its Going Down On Your Birthday

I really didn't want to wake up the next morning because it was such a struggle. It was to early for my liking and I feel like I have been hit by a truck. A semi to be exact. I take a look over at my bedside table to see my phone wondering if I have any missed calls or text messages.

This could possibly determine my future with someone who I truly thought I could spend the rest of my life with. I know that sounds crazy but once you have that feeling you never want that to go away. I yawn and stretch out my arms and pull the covers off of my body. I look down to see that I only have underwear on and I look over to see Sid stepping out of the bathroom in his boxers.

"Good Morning!" He says.

"Good Morning to you too!!" As I yawn and look at him up and down. "How did you sleep?"

"Pretty good actually. How about you??"

"Alright I guess." While he is staring at me and I suddenly realize that I have no shirt on and I quickly grab the sheets of the duvet and cover myself which made Sidney chuckle.

"Sorry about that." I say looking at my feet. "Don't be."

While he goes back into the bathroom I look over toward the closet to see what shirt I can put on. I spot Sid's shirt laying across the chair and then James' shirt that puck slut threw at me last night on the floor. I don't want to wear that shirt until its washed and covered in my scent again. So, I get up and slip on Sidney's shirt and lay down until he is done.

I finally grab my phone ready for the unexpected. I got a text from Rebecca telling me that the boys will be here around one. I text her back saying thank you and as I put my phone down I hear Sid come out of the bathroom.

"Stealing shirts eh?" He asks with a raised eyebrow.

"Yep." Trying to look at him with a straight face but then smiling. "Lets get some food!! I'm starving." I quickly get up, grab my phone and shuffle to the door and when I am about to open it I suddenly start to feel dizzy and slip but then I feel Sidney wrap his arms around my waist. "Thanks." He just smiles and opens the door so we can go downstairs.


"Hey!! You're alive!!!" I hear Maddie say eating her breakfast while watching her early morning reality television.

"I can say the same the same thing to you missy."

"Yeah whatever." So, how did you sleep?" She asks while taking a sip of her orange juice.

"Alright. How about you?"

"Good. I had a very interesting dream about a hockey player. We all exchange looks with each other and I walk over to the table to sit next to her so Sid can't here us. "If its who I think it was about you better talk to him. He might be the one to give you butterflies, double dates, your prince charming." She blushes and grabs her phone to start texting Paul.

"I'm so happy that I finally got his number last night." I smile. "Good for you sweetie." As I look over to Sidney I see him putting cream cheese on a toasted bagel and getting a bottle of water out of the fridge.

"I figured that you would want to have this." Setting the plate in front of me. "I did. Thank you."

Every time that I would either pick up or drop off James at the rink I would always have a bagel.

"There's a bottle of aspirin on the counter for you too. I got it out of my bag."

Sid has been so good to me in the past twenty four hours and I cant help but smile and I know that I am going to have to owe him big time.

As we are all eating and chatting I hear Nixon whining to get out of his kennel. "Hey Nix!! Good Morning!!! Do you wanna go outside? I let him out and he jumps with excitement so, I walk to the back door slide it open to let Nixon run around and play for a little bit. I take a seat on one of the patio chairs enjoying my coffee in my custom penguins mug that James got me for Christmas. I hear my phone go off which means I have a text message.

Paul - Hey. We should be by your place around twelve. Is that okay??
Me - Yeah that's fine. :) How is he??

I really want to know how James is doing. I thought I would have heard from him by now.

Paul - Hes miserable. I have never seen him this bad or this hung over considering hes still asleep.
Me - Lovely. Well let me know when you guys are on your way and thank you so much for looking after him.
Paul - I will and no problem.

I read the last message and put my phone down. I run my hands through my hair trying to compose myself so I take a deep breath and gather my phone and coffee.

"Nixon!! C'mon bud!!!" He comes up the stairs and runs into the house with me following close behind. Once I am inside I put food and water out for Nixon then I sit on the couch with Sidney and I see Maddie walk in the living room fully dressed with her phone and purse in hand.

"Just wanted to tell you I'm leaving. I have to get some shopping done for tonight and clean my room." I get up and walk Maddie to the door so we can say our goodbyes.

"Thank you so much for inviting me out last night." She says while smiling and I do the same.

"Oh no problem. Thank you for coming with me I don't know if I could've handled last night by myself."

"You're welcome sweetie. That's what best friends are for and uhh let me know if everything is okay or not okay."

"I will." We exchange hugs and kisses and she opens the door. "Bye Sid!!" "See ya Maddie It was good to see you again." "You too!!"

"Ill talk to you later girl." I say as I shut the door and lock it. I turn around to go back to the living room to sit down and I can feel Sid staring at me.

"Hey." I say.

"Hey. . . .are you ok?"

"Yeah. Why wouldn't I be?" I ask.

"You just look like you have something on your mind." I sigh and turn off the tv then get up from the couch and go to the kitchen with Sidney following me. I take the last sip of my coffee and put my mug in the sink. After a few moments of silence I finally speak.

"So, do you have any plans today?"

"No, not any set other than my workout later why?"

"Just wondering. Well I am going to take these pills and go back to bed." I start walking toward the stairs.

"Do you want some company?" "Uhh. . . .sure." I put the pills in my mouth drink some water and make my way back upstairs with Sidney and Nixon following me.

As soon as I get to my room I head straight for the bathroom and I look a hot mess but, I cant lie I feel and look cute in Sid's shirt so I fix my hair a bit and take a selfie. I get back out to the room and lay down to see Sid petting Nixon and I am a bit surprised because he is a bit shy with people he doesn't see often.

"Getting acquainted?" I ask with a closed smile. "Yeah, he's such a good dog."

"Yeah. I'm a little surprised that he remembers you." "Yeah me too."

Sid joins me on the bed while Nixon lays down on the floor. We are silent for a little while before he spoke up.

"Okay. What's wrong?" "Nothing." Sidney just stares at me already knowing that I am going to let him know what is bothering me.

"I got a text." I say sighing.

"From who?"

"It was from Paul just saying that they will be here around noon." I say looking down at my phone on my lap so, I decide to put my phone on the charger. "That cant be why you're upset."

"No, it was the next one. He said that James is miserable and he hasn't seen him feel this bad or hung over since he was still asleep. He usually gets up and gets cleaned up and goes back to bed. Maybe I should call him?" I say biting my lip and holding back tears.

"I don't know. That's something you may want to think about." "Yeah." I say in a hushed tone.

"I hate to say it but, I feel upset that he is feeling that way."

"You shouldn't feel that way. He should be the one calling you to make things right."

"I guess you're right."

Now Sid is looking at me and I know he wants to tell me something and he sighs. "There's something we need to talk about."

As soon as he says that I feel a huge knot in my stomach because anything could come out of that boy's mouth.

"What is it??" I ask.

"Last night made me realize that you and James shouldn't be together if hes gonna keep hurting you like this. Its not healthy for your relationship."

"Its just a another bump in the road Sidney I think we'll be fine." I say.

"Just another bump?!?!" I can feel the tension in his voice.

"Every time you call me when you two fight you are in tears wanting to end it. He better get his act together or you have to break up with him and be single."

Man I hate it when he is right.

"I know that's the smart way to go about this." I start. "Then again at the same time I want to hear what he has to say and I just love him so much and being single scares the hell out of me."

"Maybe that's exactly what you need. Play the field." He says.

"There's no one else out there that I want to be with."

"Do you ever think about what would have happened between us if Nealer wasn't traded here?"

Hearing Sid say that shocks me a bit because I never thought that he would ask me something like that and because of the fact that we have been best friends for a long time and I had absolutely no idea that he had these feelings for me. Don't get me wrong I love Sidney but, I am in love with James.

"Not really. I didn't know you had these type of feelings for me. Why did you wait do long to say something?"

"I never knew what to say to you and even if I did I wouldn't know how."

"Wow!! I didn't know you cared about me that much." I say looking down at my lap, but I can see Sidney blush out of the corner of my eye and he leans in to kiss my cheek and I smile. Then he leans in further and kisses my lips.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

"You weren't opposed to this last night." I give him with a questioning look. "What are you talking about?"

"Do you remember anything that happened last night? He asks.

"The last thing I remember I was getting into it with that puck slut when we were leaving Diesel."

"Alright well that could be a good thing or a bad thing depending on how you look at the situation."

I can feel another knot form in my stomach and I am feeling very nervous right about now and I don't like it at all.

"Well we got back to your house and then you snuck off into the kitchen to have one more shot."

"I'm guessing that wasn't a good idea?" "No, it wasn't." Oh god.

"You wanted me to come upstairs and you were talking about James and how you made all these plans for him and wanting to cancel them and everything. Then we got in bed together."

I can feel my heart in my throat.

"We got cozy then clothes came off and well..." He trailed off. I am trying my hardest to keep it together and not have another breakdown. I don't want to cry in front of Sidney again.

"You know what....I am going to get a shower and dressed. Got a lot to do today."

"Oh okay. I will talk to you later." He says.

"Okay. Sounds good."

He grabs his phone and his bag off of the floor and he is out the door. I am so glad that I kept it together in front of him because as soon as the door was shut I flop back on my pillows and just let the tears fall. I can't believe this. I never thought that this would happen but it did. Me and Sidney have been best friends for a long time and this is the last thing I wanted to happen between us and I just hope and pray if and when I have that dreaded conversation with James later it will go well but I already know this is going to get worse before it can get better.

I hear Nixon's white, black and gold striped collar and I see those blue grey eyes of his and he is just wanting to get on the bed. James doesn't like him on it all the time but I let him up more than he does. So, I pat the bed and he jumps up, cuddles me close and licks my face as I cry myself back to sleep.

Notes

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