The Cabin by the Lake

I sat in my hotel room, not sure what to do. I was so mad I couldn’t function. Here I am, trying to help HIM, and he’s making comments towards me? How narcissistic of him. Is he enjoying the fact that it upset me that he got a girlfriend? I knew I shouldn’t have, but I did. I texted him. You are a jerk, you know that? I got upset because my friend told me he’d keep in contact and never did. It just surprised me. We got close this summer. And yeah, I had feelings. I trusted you almost instantly…but maybe I shouldn’t have. If this is a side of you that is going to hang around, then I don’t want part of it. Delivered. I sat on the bed, looking at my phone. Waiting for a response, but nothing came. A few minutes later there was a knock on my door. Maybe he wanted to apologize in person. I opened the door, confused for a second. “Ryan?” He smiled, “Can I come in?” I nodded and let him through the door way. “I brought you your food…I figured you’d be hungry. And your sunglasses, you left them on the booth.” He placed them on the desk in the room. “Ryan, I am so sorry about all that…” He shrugged, “it’s all okay. I was a little confused about all the Steph questions though.” I nodded, “Zac wanted to make sure him dating your ex didn’t compromise being on the team together.” He nodded, “I guess he didn’t believe me this morning.” I sat on my bed and he sat next to me, we were quiet for a few seconds. “Where you and him…together?” He asked the question in a low voice, and it honestly caught me off guard. “No, we weren’t. We were just friends.” He nodded, “Were?” I shrugged, “It’s complicated.” He put his arm around me, “If you need someone to talk to…I can be your friend.” I smiled, “I honestly don’t want to talk about it…I’m still trying to figure out why I did that little outburst...” He laughed and squeezed me. “I’ll let you get to your lunch.” He stood up, “I’ll see you tomorrow Emily.” I smiled and let him out. I opened the salad I got and just looked at it. I still wasn’t hungry.

Zac never responded, surprise. I laid awake almost the whole night trying to figure out what he might be thinking, or if I should just abandon ship when I have the chance…and then my thoughts went over to Ryan. He was sweet and thoughtful…but I don’t have the instant attraction with him…He is cute, and I do find him attractive…it’s just different with Zac. Janice came stumbling in, giggling. It was midnight, and then I heard a man’s voices. Chris’ voice. “Ems? You here?” I groaned, “Yup.” He giggled, “You mind if I have the room tonight?” I rolled my eyes and got out of bed. I grabbed my slippers, sweatshirt, and my laptop. “Be my guest.” I left the room, in my pajamas, not sure where to go. Maybe this would be a good time to talk to Zac? I walked to his room and knocked on the door. I waited a few minutes, he must have been sleeping. When I went to turn around, he opened the door; shirtless. “Oh…Emily…I thought you were room service.” I shook my head, “sorry to disappoint.” He gave a half smile, “What’s up?” I laughed to myself, “I got sexiled but Janice and Chris.” He nodded, “oh…I’d let you in but…” I looked over his shoulder and saw the girl from the picture; Stephanie. “Oh…sorry to interrupt! I’ll go.” I went to turn around, having no idea where to go again. “I’m sure Steph would be okay with you staying for a little…” I shook my head, “I’m thinking it’s gunna be an all-night thing with Janice, it’s no worries. I’ve got a few options. Have a great night.” I turned and started walking and I felt someone touch my arm. Zac stood there with puppy dog eyes, and still shirtless mind you. “I got your text. But Steph was here, I couldn’t respond…I was only trying to joke…I didn’t mean to upset you.” I nodded, “Yeah, it didn’t seem like a joke…sorry about that text…” I gave a smile and he leaned in for a hug. I think my ovaries exploded. I instantly needed him closer. I was transported to the cabin…our many moments of kisses and being so close…I missed it. He pulled away, “Goodnight Zac.” He nodded, “Night Emily.” He turned and went back to his room. I stood in the hall, not sure where to go. I heard Stephanie laugh between the walls. It hurt, honestly…why was it so hard to let him go? I could see if Ryan was up…I looked at the time on my phone, 12:15. He was probably asleep.

I sat in the hallway near my room, I wish I had brought headphones…I could hear Janice calling for the ‘sex god’, I’m assuming it’s Chris, but you never know. I tried to work on a report of how everything is going so far, but I couldn’t focus. With Janice’s sex noises, and Zac hugging me shirtless, my body only wanted one thing. My mind wondered to Ryan, and our night together. I wonder if it would be different if we weren’t drunk…the way he was able to just lift me up…how he pushed me against the door and kissed me…”Emily?” I heard a voice call after me down the hall. I looked over to see a shirtless Ryan. “Hey…” My body couldn’t take all this shirtless guy stuff. “What are you doing?” he laughed, “You don’t usually hang out in hotel hallways?” He laughed and walked towards me, and then he heard Janice’s prayer to the sex god. “Oh my god…who is she with?” I laughed, “You didn’t know? Chris is the sex god. Not that I would want to find that god…” He laughed and held out his hand to me. I took it and stood up. “Come to my room, you’re more than welcome to stay the night.” I smiled, “You sure?” He nodded, “I just went to the gym and I’m still pretty amped. I’ll be up for a while anyways.” I nodded, “Thanks Ryan.” He smiled at me, “What are friends for?”

I laid on the couch in Ryan’s room trying to work on my report to send to Jim. I heard Ryan open his bathroom door and walk into his room with just a towel on. Flash backs of being in his bed rushed through my mind and my body couldn’t take it anymore. Without really thinking, I took my computer off my lap and started to walk towards Ryan. He turned around, “Hey Emily, what’s up?” I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him softly. At first, he just kind of stood there. But then he wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me back. He slowly slid off my PJ shorts and underwear, and then his towel. He laid me on the bed and smiled at me, “What?” I asked with a laugh, “I hope you don’t do this with all your friends.” He laid on top of me and kissed my forehead, before I could try and think of a cleaver answer for him, but he entered and my body exploded from the pleasure. I held onto his back, and my nails dug in a little with each thrust. Man, I missed sex. It felt better than our previous night. I could actually feel every ridge on him. I could focus on each pleasure point as he entered. I could feel my toes start to curl, and my back start to arch. For a short second our eyes met, and everything seemed to slow down. But I quickly looked away as the pleasure was completely released from my body and I pulsed around him. He got up, put on his boxers and gave me my underwear. He then laid next to me as we both laid on our sides, facing each other. His arm draped itself over my side, and I scooted closer to him. He kissed my forehead.

I looked up in his eyes, and they looked like they were searching…I’m not sure what for, but I knew I was searching to. Searching for answers mostly…Why could I have sex with Ryan and not Zac that one time? Why did I just throw myself at Ryan? I sat up, being more confused by the second. “Are you okay?” He had worry in his voice, and I smiled at him. “Yeah, I’m good…just making my life more complicated.” He laughed and rubbed my back. He sat up and moved my hair out of my face, “What’s complicated about it?” He asked as he kissed my cheek. I smiled at him, “Everything.” I got up and put on my shorts and went back to the couch. I took my phone out and texted the girls, Slept with Ryan again… They didn’t respond, they are most likely asleep. Ryan came over to me and took my hands, “Hey, you know I’m not using you right?” The question caught me off guard, but I nodded and he continued, “I can just be your friend, I won’t pressure you into thinking I need more.” I nodded, “This is just…different for me…I’ve never done anything like this before…I’ve never been spontaneous…I’m not trying to use you either…” Or was I? Was he my escape from Zac land? Or was I actually being spontaneous? He smiled at me and kissed my hands, “Come to bed, we’ve got a long day.”

Notes

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