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Shawn
As Kennedy was getting ready to watch the Blackhawks game. She was in the kitchen getting her pizza out of the door. Thanks to Pat's guilty foods in Pizza she has been craving it when they play. On the frigid was a calendar that had her favorite celebrities, friends and families birthdays. Today was the day she told her self that she won't forget. She didn't lie to Patrick for being sick. It's just today wasn't the best of days for her. On the couch thinking of that night.
October 22,2003
Kennedy was going to her only guy friend that she had. Other than Addison has her friend she always likes to come to Shawn's house. They would do is watch tv or her watching Shawn playing video games. This night was different. Close to being to 15 she can go to Shawn's house by herself without her parents. Shawn already turn 15 a month ago. She knock on the door and no one didn't answer. Kennedy open the door a little.
"Hello?" She called out but there was nothing but the sound of her heart beat. Slowly coming into their house and can hear some music playing in Shawn's room. Knocking on the door hoping it won't scare Shawn. Still no answer, She push the door and hitch her breath. Shawn was holding a gun in his mouth.
"Shawn what are you doing?! Please take the gun out of your mouth and place it on the floor." He didn't moved at all.
"Shawn don't do this. Have you though of the after math of this? How I am going to go through this without you. Your parents Shawn, so please listen to me. Don't do this to yourself." Tears were coming down both Shawn and Kennedy. A flash out of nowhere, art of blood on his white walls. Some of his blood covering his ACDC poster. Kennedy just stood there heart has no clue what do to next. All she did next was turn around and run home. She just took off but thinking of why would he take his life away.
A month a later they found out that Shawn had depression and he was gay. The only person knew that was Kennedy. He did leave a note for her but still this day she hasn't open it yet. It's in her room under her bed. In a box that can't be open unless you want to break the box. She threw the key in a river and never had a smile on her face. Till now. She always had a mask on her so no one would see how much pain that she was in. Even with Addison she didn't know about it till the next day when he took his life away. Addison tried to bring the old Kennedy back. However what she saw that night, it change her life complete.
10 years later watching a hockey game, cheering for the man that she loves. Hoping that Pat will get a goal tonight.
"Let's go Pat." She whisper under her breath. Looking at her phone her wall screen was Kennedy and Shawn. At the park before everything change for the both of them.
After the game, Kennedy and Pat were talking about the game.
"Kennedy?"
"Patrick?"
"You know that I care for you and I do want to hear everything about you. Amazing,good, shitty and why me, all about you. What I am trying to say I want to be there for you in the long run. Kennedy I want to be your boyfriend." Kennedy didn't know what to say. She want him to say those words since they met. Who and how did this happen?
"Kennedy are you still there? Did I lose you?"
"No I am just really happy, yes Patrick I would love for you to be my boyfriend. There's something that I want to tell you but not on the phone. Don't worry it's about me in the past. When do you come home?"
"Well we don't get back till Friday morning."
"I'll leave the front door open for you."
That Friday morning, Kennedy could feel the dip in her bed when Pat wrap his arm around her. She didn't say anything because all she can do now is sleep. A couple of hours later Patrick hears something going on in the kitchen. He looked at the time and it was noon. Patrick came into the kitchen and see Kennedy was cooking.
"Coffee ready?" She pointed at his mug with his number on the side.
"How's your mom?"
"She's good, she wants to met you soon." Kennedy was playing with the eggs on the skillet. Pat sat on top of the island and look at her calendar. Seeing all of the dates of their upcoming games. The next game is tomorrow and we play the Wild again.
"Who's Shawn?" Kennedy handed him a full plate eggs and bacon.
"That's why I want to talk to you about. I need to grab something." She came back with the box and it showed it's 10 years.
"What's this?"
"Pat, I never showed this to anyone even Addison."
"Does this have to do with Shawn?" She nodded and told Patrick everything about Shawn. Tears were forming in her eyes.
"I haven't open this or the letter in 10 years. That the fact it's been 10 years since this happen to me. I though I would never find the old Kennedy. When I met you my life is a little bit better than it was before. I haven't smile this for a long time." Patrick broke the lock and they look inside. Kennedy forgot about what she put in. There were a lot of photos and at the bottom of the box it there it was, the letter. Kennedy pick it up and it still stain with Shawn's blood on it. She handed it to Patrick.
"Please." Patrick open the letter nice and slowly.
"Do you want me to read it out?" Pat look up at Kennedy. She nodded her head.
Dear Kennedy,
I have been thinking of this a long time. Knowing what I just did while not just change my parents but the closest friend that I have ever have. You wouldn't change my mind about this. I don't feel safe at school anymore. Dad won't talk to me because he think that it's a phase that I am going to. But deep inside I know that I don't belong here anymore.
Kennedy you are a strong person for just being close to 15. You stood up to the boys on the first day of high school when they wanted to prank me about being gay. I know that this take some time for you to get the fact that I am not here anymore. That you need to find someone who really be there for you when you feel like shit. I'm going to miss those Friday nights on the roof drinking chocolate milk and cookies. Telling stories of what we will do when we are done with high school. My route went somewhere else than yours going to be. I was lost from the get go.
You will be a light to someone's heart someday. It could be someone here or somewhere else. Just wanted you to know that I didn't leave at all. I am still here, right behind you might yell at you for something stupid you did because I care for you. Please don't waste a day thinking of me everyday when you have to whole world at the palms of your hands.
Shawn.
When Patrick was done with the letter. He look up and Kennedy's eyes are red. Patrick drop the letter and hold her.
"Just let it go."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"If I do than I know that it's all real. Patrick I love you,"
"I love you to Kennedy."
October 22,2003
Kennedy was going to her only guy friend that she had. Other than Addison has her friend she always likes to come to Shawn's house. They would do is watch tv or her watching Shawn playing video games. This night was different. Close to being to 15 she can go to Shawn's house by herself without her parents. Shawn already turn 15 a month ago. She knock on the door and no one didn't answer. Kennedy open the door a little.
"Hello?" She called out but there was nothing but the sound of her heart beat. Slowly coming into their house and can hear some music playing in Shawn's room. Knocking on the door hoping it won't scare Shawn. Still no answer, She push the door and hitch her breath. Shawn was holding a gun in his mouth.
"Shawn what are you doing?! Please take the gun out of your mouth and place it on the floor." He didn't moved at all.
"Shawn don't do this. Have you though of the after math of this? How I am going to go through this without you. Your parents Shawn, so please listen to me. Don't do this to yourself." Tears were coming down both Shawn and Kennedy. A flash out of nowhere, art of blood on his white walls. Some of his blood covering his ACDC poster. Kennedy just stood there heart has no clue what do to next. All she did next was turn around and run home. She just took off but thinking of why would he take his life away.
A month a later they found out that Shawn had depression and he was gay. The only person knew that was Kennedy. He did leave a note for her but still this day she hasn't open it yet. It's in her room under her bed. In a box that can't be open unless you want to break the box. She threw the key in a river and never had a smile on her face. Till now. She always had a mask on her so no one would see how much pain that she was in. Even with Addison she didn't know about it till the next day when he took his life away. Addison tried to bring the old Kennedy back. However what she saw that night, it change her life complete.
10 years later watching a hockey game, cheering for the man that she loves. Hoping that Pat will get a goal tonight.
"Let's go Pat." She whisper under her breath. Looking at her phone her wall screen was Kennedy and Shawn. At the park before everything change for the both of them.
After the game, Kennedy and Pat were talking about the game.
"Kennedy?"
"Patrick?"
"You know that I care for you and I do want to hear everything about you. Amazing,good, shitty and why me, all about you. What I am trying to say I want to be there for you in the long run. Kennedy I want to be your boyfriend." Kennedy didn't know what to say. She want him to say those words since they met. Who and how did this happen?
"Kennedy are you still there? Did I lose you?"
"No I am just really happy, yes Patrick I would love for you to be my boyfriend. There's something that I want to tell you but not on the phone. Don't worry it's about me in the past. When do you come home?"
"Well we don't get back till Friday morning."
"I'll leave the front door open for you."
That Friday morning, Kennedy could feel the dip in her bed when Pat wrap his arm around her. She didn't say anything because all she can do now is sleep. A couple of hours later Patrick hears something going on in the kitchen. He looked at the time and it was noon. Patrick came into the kitchen and see Kennedy was cooking.
"Coffee ready?" She pointed at his mug with his number on the side.
"How's your mom?"
"She's good, she wants to met you soon." Kennedy was playing with the eggs on the skillet. Pat sat on top of the island and look at her calendar. Seeing all of the dates of their upcoming games. The next game is tomorrow and we play the Wild again.
"Who's Shawn?" Kennedy handed him a full plate eggs and bacon.
"That's why I want to talk to you about. I need to grab something." She came back with the box and it showed it's 10 years.
"What's this?"
"Pat, I never showed this to anyone even Addison."
"Does this have to do with Shawn?" She nodded and told Patrick everything about Shawn. Tears were forming in her eyes.
"I haven't open this or the letter in 10 years. That the fact it's been 10 years since this happen to me. I though I would never find the old Kennedy. When I met you my life is a little bit better than it was before. I haven't smile this for a long time." Patrick broke the lock and they look inside. Kennedy forgot about what she put in. There were a lot of photos and at the bottom of the box it there it was, the letter. Kennedy pick it up and it still stain with Shawn's blood on it. She handed it to Patrick.
"Please." Patrick open the letter nice and slowly.
"Do you want me to read it out?" Pat look up at Kennedy. She nodded her head.
Dear Kennedy,
I have been thinking of this a long time. Knowing what I just did while not just change my parents but the closest friend that I have ever have. You wouldn't change my mind about this. I don't feel safe at school anymore. Dad won't talk to me because he think that it's a phase that I am going to. But deep inside I know that I don't belong here anymore.
Kennedy you are a strong person for just being close to 15. You stood up to the boys on the first day of high school when they wanted to prank me about being gay. I know that this take some time for you to get the fact that I am not here anymore. That you need to find someone who really be there for you when you feel like shit. I'm going to miss those Friday nights on the roof drinking chocolate milk and cookies. Telling stories of what we will do when we are done with high school. My route went somewhere else than yours going to be. I was lost from the get go.
You will be a light to someone's heart someday. It could be someone here or somewhere else. Just wanted you to know that I didn't leave at all. I am still here, right behind you might yell at you for something stupid you did because I care for you. Please don't waste a day thinking of me everyday when you have to whole world at the palms of your hands.
Shawn.
When Patrick was done with the letter. He look up and Kennedy's eyes are red. Patrick drop the letter and hold her.
"Just let it go."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"If I do than I know that it's all real. Patrick I love you,"
"I love you to Kennedy."
This is definitely one of my favorite stories I've read, I think I would check back every couple days to see if there was a new chapter. You never disappointed! I can't wait for Kaner and Kennedy's story!!!!! In the mean time does anyone know any good Blackhawks/Stars fanfics I could read while waiting for the spinoff??
7/15/14