The Diary of an Unintentional Puck Slut

July 17, 2014

Dear Diary,

Last week Brandon talked to Eric Staal about visiting sometime to see his daughter and I called him a few days ago to finalize those plans. However, Eric’s wife answered the phone, so I accidently invited her too. I panicked, I didn’t know what to do. She said she wanted to see me and the twins, and I couldn’t say no.

“I know you’re probably really tired and don’t want any extra company, so we won’t stay too long, only a weekend. How about this weekend?”

“Yeah, that would be great,” I tried to stay calm, but I was mentally freaking out.

After I had gotten off the phone with her, Brandon came back from putting Teddy to sleep.

“Did you talk to Eric?” he asked sitting down next to me.

I shook my head. “No, his wife answered the phone and I didn’t know what to do, so now she and, um, their two boys are coming here this weekend as well.”

I thought Brandon would be mad, but he just laughed. “Wow, this is going to be exciting.”

“No, this is terrible. What if she sees Ellie and realizes she looks like Eric?”

“Ellie doesn’t look like Eric; she’s less than a month old, she looks like a baby.”

“Yeah, but she’s the mother of his children, what if she just like, knows when she sees Ellie that she’s a Staal baby,” I was trying so hard to make my point, but he just laughed again.

“No, Ellie’s a Sutter baby, no matter what.”

I giggled. “Sutter baby. I can’t believe I forgot about that.”

“I love the fact that we all had mustaches in that video because they filmed it during movember.” (mustache November, or something).

“Yeah, and Geno wouldn’t do it. ‘Malkin in a Winter Wonderland’ was so perfect, but he wouldn’t say it,” I smiled as I remembered how hard Caeleigh had tried to convince him to. “And Sid’s was so stupid, I don’t even remember what it was, but we both thought it was lame.”

That was the first time I had mentioned Sid in a while and Brandon looked a little surprised.

Before he could say anything about it, I changed the subject back to the upcoming Staal family visit.

“I don’t even know what we’re supposed to do with them for a whole weekend,” I complained.

“Don’t worry about it, my mom loves entertaining guests, we’ll tell her to take care of it,” he smiled, and I moved closer to lean on him.

We sat there for a few minutes before we were interrupted by the sound of a crying Eloise.

After feeding her I stared at her for a long time, trying to find any trace of Eric in her features.

So far she looks like any other baby her age, but I’m still worried.

Yes, she has blonde hair, but so do I, so that’s explainable.

But still, I’m worried that when Eric’s wife sees her she’ll know; as if mother’s somehow develop supernatural powers that could allow her to detect biological similarities between her children and other babies.

Okay, that’s crazy, right? I’m just being stupid.

Ugh, they’ll be here tomorrow evening; I’m not ready for this.

I need more sleep.

Sincerely,

Emme

P.S.: Or what if she sees Eric’s reaction to Ellie? Maybe I can think of some reason to get him alone with her.

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July 22, 2014

Dear Diary,

The Staal’s left yesterday morning, but I am still recovering. Their two boys have so much energy.

As soon as they arrived, Mrs. Staal wanted to see the babies.

“They’re sleeping,” I said, trying to postpone it a little longer.

“I just want to see them, I’ll be quiet,” she pushed passed me and tried to find the nursery.

I followed her, realizing she would not give up.

“You look really great by the way, for just giving birth to twins a few weeks ago,” she said as I led her up the stairs. I carefully opened the door to the nursery and we walked over to their cribs, which are next to each other.

“Awww they are so cute,” she whispered. She watched them for a few minutes before I was able to drag her out of the room.

We left soon after to get dinner with Brandon’s parents, which went very well.

The next day, Saturday, we were supposed to go out on the lake, but it was raining. So I volunteered to go to the mall with Brandon’s mom, Chloe, and Mrs. Staal. This gave Eric a chance to be alone with his daughter without his wife watching him.

And according to Brandon, it was worth it. He spent as much time with Eloise as possible while Brandon kept Eric’s sons entertained (which was apparently a very tiring task).

I did not enjoy shopping very much, mostly because I was still losing weight and hated trying on clothes. However, knowing that it meant Eric could spend a few hours with his baby girl made the whole thing worthwhile.

The weather was much nicer on Sunday so we spent the day on the lake. It was really fun, except I got a sunburn. After dinner that evening Mrs. Staal asked to see the twins again, because they were awake and she wanted to hold them.

I couldn’t find any reason for her not to see them again, so I brought her up to the nursery.

“They’ve been fed recently, so they might fall asleep,” I said as she picked up Teddy.

She held him for a minute, then put him back and picked up Ellie.

She didn’t say anything at first, she just held her and looked at her.

“I always wanted to have a girl,” she remarked absently, as if I wasn’t even there.

“You’re young, you could still have a baby,” I suggested, but she shook her head.

“No, Eric had a vasectomy,” she replied, still looking at Ellie.

(What?!!?)

“He did?” I was trying to think of some way to ask when he’d had it without seeming creepy. “How did that go?”

“Over the Olympic break he had some time off so he did it then, so he wouldn’t have to take time off if it took long to recover,” she still had not looked up from Ellie.

“And it’s worked?”

“Yeah, as far as I know,” she started to rock Ellie as she fell asleep.

“You can get it reversed, right? Like, if you changed your mind?” I asked, and this time she looked up at me.

“Why are you so curious about vasectomies? Are you going to make Brandon get one?” she asked with a smile, and then went back to looking at Ellie.

“No, I was just wondering, though if Brandon wanted to get one he could, it’s up to him,” I realized I was starting to ramble, so I stopped.

“You think you guys will have any more kids?”

“I don’t know, I haven’t really thought about it,” I stammered and she laughed.

“It’s fine, you don’t have to worry about it for a while. Besides, you guys aren’t even married yet,” she started to put Ellie back in her crib.

Yet. That word really stood out to me. My mom had of course brought up the fact that I was having a child out of wedlock, but other than that I hadn’t thought of it much. Brandon and I had only been dating a few months, we were nowhere near ready to get married.

After they left the next day, I was sitting with Brandon in the nursery, him with Ellie and me with Teddy.

“It’s so quiet now; their two boys have so much energy,” I commented.

“I know, and someday these two will be like that,” he said smiling at Ellie as she fell asleep in his arms.

“Eric’s wife really liked Ellie and said she wished they could have a daughter; I wish there was some way we could, I don’t know, share her with them, like, raise Ellie together or something. I just feel bad that we get to have the daughter both of them want.”

“Yeah, but that would be really hard on her, but I get what you’re saying,” he said, gently brushing Ellie’s cheek. “And how would we even tell his wife, without her being mad about Eric cheating on her?”

“Oh, yeah I hadn’t thought of that,” I laughed, and thought for a minute about what she had told me earlier, and whether or not I should tell Brandon. “She said Eric had a vasectomy.”

Brandon shot me a surprised look and I could tell he was thinking the same thing I had thought earlier.

“He had it done in February, but that’s before he could have known I was pregnant, I didn’t even know until March,” I explained, “I was thinking he might have had it done because he found out he’d knocked me up. Or after sleeping with me in October, because it obviously wasn’t before.”

“I’m still surprised that he slept with you; that was a tough night for me,” he laughed in a tired, reminiscent kind of way.

I laughed as I remembered what Jeff Skinner told me about what he and Brandon did that night, “Yeah, I heard you were freaking out in a grocery store.”

“I wasn’t freaking out. Did Skinner tell you that?

“I’m sorry, is that how you normally get your grocery shopping done?” I teased him, and he smiled.

“Okay, I was a little upset, and might have been overreacting, but given the circumstances I think I did pretty well.”

“You’re right, you could have gotten drunk and taken a shot gun to Eric’s head, or mine, or both.”

I was laughing, but he just stared at me, “I would not have done that, and also, don’t talk about that kind of thing in front of our children.”

“Okay, first of all, they have no idea what we’re saying, they’re asleep, and we’re whispering. Secondly, I said you could have murdered us, if you were less mentally stable or something.”

We were both smiling at how dumb the situation was and got up to put the twins to bed before we woke them up by laughing.

-

That word, ‘yet,’ keeps lingering in my head. Why did she have to say that? Maybe we weren’t going to get married at all, who knows where we’ll be in a decade or so.

I hope we’re together, but I don’t want to push him into something he wouldn’t be happy in. I really don’t want him to think he has to stay with me just because we have a child together.

I’m so happy Eric got to see Ellie. Brandon said he stayed with her all day on Saturday. I wish I had a picture of them together, that would have been so cute.

Why didn’t Eric tell me he had gotten a vasectomy? I feel like he would have told me that when I lived with him in March/April, especially during that week we spent together when his wife was away.

I guess it’s really none of my business, I’m just curious.

Sincerely,

Emme

Notes

The 'Sutter baby' reference is from here: http://penguins.nhl.com/v2/ext/html/holiday2013.html
It is very funny, I recommend watching it.

(if that link doesn't work let me know)

I had to wait for the Ducks game to end to post this because it was very exciting.
Brandon's shootout goal was fabulous!