Gamble with Desire
Practice & Pianos
I woke up in bed by myself, I sat up & looked around my room.
"Of course he left" I thought to myself.
"Good morning beautiful" Brayden came in buttoning up his shirt, he must of took a shower because his hair was wet. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, where you going?" I asked mostly trying to avoid his question, but I was curious where he was goin all dressed up this early in the morning.
"I have practice, I made you breakfast, its on the table"
I got out of bed & helped him with his tie. "You never were good at tying your ties" I laughed
"Thank goodness for you then" he kissed my forehead when I got done fixing it.
We walked out into my living room "I should be back in a couple of hours okay?" He said opening my front door.
"Okay, thanks for breakfast Bray"
"Oh & Jase, I'm sticking around. See you" he winked & shut the door. He knew me too well.
"See you" I mumbled even though he couldn't hear me.
I ate my breakfast & lounged around the house watching tv waiting for Brayden to get back.
I decided to play around on the piano I had in my living room, I haven't played in months. I just started playing one of my favorite pieces, I haven't played it since I was a little girl but my fingers still remembered every note.
"Wow, that's beautiful" Brayden's voice made me jump.
"I didn't even hear you come in, you scared me" I held my hand over my heart waiting for my heart rate to come back down to normal.
"Sorry didn't mean to" he kiss my forehead. "I never heard you play that piece before, what's it called?"
"La Campanella by Franz Liszt, its one of my favorites" I spotted Starbucks on my kitchen counter.
"I got you something don't worry" he laughed as he handed me a Strawberry & Creme frap.
"Thank you" I smiled taking a huge sip.
"We never got around to talking last night..." He sat on my couch & patted the spot next to him.
"Yeah I know.." I played with my straw, using it to mix my drink.
"I'm sorry about what I said, I didn't mean for it all to come out that way"
"it was all true anyway, I'm sorry about what I said about me & Claude you shouldn't have found out that way"
"Yeah that was pretty harsh.. Guess I deserved it though"
I sat there quietly, trying to keep my mouth shut. I didn't feel like starting another fight with him.
"What's wrong ?" He asked
"I just feel like your always in my business, you can't keep getting mad at me, its my job. I just want you to get over it & realize that its what I do for a living"
"I get mad because your so much better then that. Truthfully I just wish you'd stop all this & go back to school like you always said you wanted & let me support you for the time being."
"I'm not that girl anymore Brayden can't you get that threw your thick head, I've got a job that gets the bills paid, why should I go back to school just so I can go back to being broke"
"Because your a fucking mess! You can't even stand yourself anymore, don't even lie & say your fine because I know your not, I can see that your hurting Jase & all I want to do is help"
"You think just because we "played house" for a couple days that I'm just going to stop my whole career for you? God Bray get over it, or get out of my life, I'm not dealing with this anymore." He had me soo aggravated.
"You know what do what you want, I'm done. Keep your fucking so called career, see ya" he walked out slamming my door for the 2nd time this week.
"So much for sticking around, dick" I sighed, throwing my self on the couch.
"Of course he left" I thought to myself.
"Good morning beautiful" Brayden came in buttoning up his shirt, he must of took a shower because his hair was wet. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, where you going?" I asked mostly trying to avoid his question, but I was curious where he was goin all dressed up this early in the morning.
"I have practice, I made you breakfast, its on the table"
I got out of bed & helped him with his tie. "You never were good at tying your ties" I laughed
"Thank goodness for you then" he kissed my forehead when I got done fixing it.
We walked out into my living room "I should be back in a couple of hours okay?" He said opening my front door.
"Okay, thanks for breakfast Bray"
"Oh & Jase, I'm sticking around. See you" he winked & shut the door. He knew me too well.
"See you" I mumbled even though he couldn't hear me.
I ate my breakfast & lounged around the house watching tv waiting for Brayden to get back.
I decided to play around on the piano I had in my living room, I haven't played in months. I just started playing one of my favorite pieces, I haven't played it since I was a little girl but my fingers still remembered every note.
"Wow, that's beautiful" Brayden's voice made me jump.
"I didn't even hear you come in, you scared me" I held my hand over my heart waiting for my heart rate to come back down to normal.
"Sorry didn't mean to" he kiss my forehead. "I never heard you play that piece before, what's it called?"
"La Campanella by Franz Liszt, its one of my favorites" I spotted Starbucks on my kitchen counter.
"I got you something don't worry" he laughed as he handed me a Strawberry & Creme frap.
"Thank you" I smiled taking a huge sip.
"We never got around to talking last night..." He sat on my couch & patted the spot next to him.
"Yeah I know.." I played with my straw, using it to mix my drink.
"I'm sorry about what I said, I didn't mean for it all to come out that way"
"it was all true anyway, I'm sorry about what I said about me & Claude you shouldn't have found out that way"
"Yeah that was pretty harsh.. Guess I deserved it though"
I sat there quietly, trying to keep my mouth shut. I didn't feel like starting another fight with him.
"What's wrong ?" He asked
"I just feel like your always in my business, you can't keep getting mad at me, its my job. I just want you to get over it & realize that its what I do for a living"
"I get mad because your so much better then that. Truthfully I just wish you'd stop all this & go back to school like you always said you wanted & let me support you for the time being."
"I'm not that girl anymore Brayden can't you get that threw your thick head, I've got a job that gets the bills paid, why should I go back to school just so I can go back to being broke"
"Because your a fucking mess! You can't even stand yourself anymore, don't even lie & say your fine because I know your not, I can see that your hurting Jase & all I want to do is help"
"You think just because we "played house" for a couple days that I'm just going to stop my whole career for you? God Bray get over it, or get out of my life, I'm not dealing with this anymore." He had me soo aggravated.
"You know what do what you want, I'm done. Keep your fucking so called career, see ya" he walked out slamming my door for the 2nd time this week.
"So much for sticking around, dick" I sighed, throwing my self on the couch.
8/16/13