All of me

A few weeks had passed. Reilly and I had not seen or texted each another. Everyone from the team and my roommates went out a few nights after home games but I didn't join them. It was too hard. Katie kept me updated on the whole Jess situation because of what Adam told her.

"Apparently she follows him around like a lost puppy. He can't do anything without her knowing. Even when the guys go over Reilly's place for a guys night, she has to be present so they feel obligated to bring theirs wives/girlfriends. And no for your information they aren't sleeping together. She has taken his spare bedroom. He is so lost Emms, it's really sad. It's effecting the way he plays as well."

"I know...I've noticed" as I put my head down.

I'm glad they aren't sharing a room. I wasn't expecting them too but you never know. Many times I pick up my phone and try to text him, totally forgetting about what has happened. I always catch myself. He was the person who I wanted to tell about my day, or a stupid joke I just heard. It was so hard and hearing his name everywhere was not helping.

"What are you doing Saturday night? Want to grab a bite and watch a movie or something?" I ask Katie as I sit on the couch.

"Actually...Adam got me 2 tickets to the game that night. I'm sorry. I was going to ask if you wanted to go with me?" Her voice softening as she finished the question.

"Thanks but I think I'd be best if I didn't come. Try asking one of the other girls"

"Mel and Jenny are going home for the weekend. Besides, I want you to come. You can't stay in every weekend by yourself. You need to get out of this house!"

"I go out!" Failing miserably to convince her.

"Oh really? When was the last time you went out?" Putting her hands on her waist and head tilted to the side.

I couldn't remember.

"Ugh fine! But I'll pick where we get to eat!"

I was kind of nervous. Excited. Scared. Anxious. Butterflies started forming in my stomach. You'll be okay. You aren't even going to see him. It'll be just like watching him on TV. But just in person. Right.

"Deal! Yay!" She claps with excitement.

Saturday night came around, the Bruins were playing the Blackhawks. Talk about a rivalry. The Bruins still held a grudge for losing the Stanley Cup to them last year.

I put on my black leggings, a white long sleeve top, brown boots and a dark yellow scarf, trying to show my Bruins pride. I kept my hair wavy and just applied some liquid eye liner and mascara and a nude lipstick.

"Love the outfit!" As Katie walks into the bathroom as I finish applying my makeup.

"Thanks! You look amazing as always!"

Katie was wearing a black long sleeve shirt with the Bruins logo on the top right corner and white pants with her black boots. Her hair was curly instead of the her usual straight hair. We both put our pea coats on and headed towards the door.

We park at the parking lot across the Garden and that is when I started getting anxious. It had been a while since I'd been to the Garden. Adam had gotten us seats a few rows from the Bruins bench. This is good. That means that his back will be facing me the whole time.

The players went out for a little pregame skate before the National Anthem was sung. And that's when I saw him. He had his helmet off and was just taking laps around the ice, shooting once in a while. My heart was racing. Katie grabbed my hand.

"Are you okay?" I nod my head and exhale deeply.

First period ended. Neither of the teams had scored. It was getting physical, I loved it. The players started heading into the tunnel for intermission.

"Reilly! Reilly!" I heard someone scream. I look over to my right, a few rows from the glass...Jess.

She started waiving at him like a 5 year old waves as Santa Clause rides down the street on Christmas Eve. Once she got his attention, he just raises his hand and disappears.

Apparently she had made some friends because they were being so loud and laughing obnoxiously. We make eye contact. She stops what she's doing, gets up and trying to stretch as she rubs her belly, with a evil grin on her face.

"Wait, Is that her?!" Katie asks as she looks towards her direction.

"Yep"

"Is she fucking serious? If she wasn't pregnant I'd beat the living crap out of her" that made me laugh.

"She's not worth it. I'm going to go to the restroom. Want me to grab you anything on the way back?"

"No I'm good, thanks" who was still staring at Jess with a disgusted face.

The line for the bathroom was huge. By the time I got to my seat there was 2 minutes left of intermission.

The players had been out in the ice.

I noticed Reilly was sitting on the boards talking to the coach as I make my way down the stairs to my seat. He puts his head down and starts nodding and for a split second he lifts up his head and we make eye contact. He had to take a double take. My heart was beating out of my chest. I hadn't seen him in so long.

He froze, slightly opening his mouth wanting to say something but nothing came out. I gave him a slight smile.

Our eye contact broke as the whistle blew and the 2nd period started. He skated to the center of the ice for the faceoff.

"That line was so freaking long" as I finally managed to get to my seat.

"What did I just witness?"

"What do you mean?" Confused as to what she meant.

"I was just siting here minding my own business and all, like always and I look on the ice and see Reilly staring at something, memorized. I look around and there you are." She said smiling.

"Oh stop exaggerating. We just made eye contact for a few seconds. That's it."

"Don't lie to me. Did you see the way he was looking at you? Oh I’m sorry, you too busy looking at him the same way. I'm just saying" as she winks.

"Ugh who am I kidding." As I put my face in my hands.

"Obviously my feeling for him haven't changed but what do you expect me to do Katie? Pretend that everything's okay and nothing changed? Because it has...I hate this."

"I know, I know. But I'm positive the kid isn't his. I feel it in my gut. And I'm going to prove it...somehow" rubbing her hands together.

"Okay Sherlock Holmes, How are you going to manage to do that?" I said laughing.

"I'll figure out a way, trust me!" As she goes in deep thought. We both start laughing.

"I'm not going to let this girl ruin everything for you and Reilly. It's not going to happen."

"I love you, you know that?" As I put my arm around her and squeeze her.

"Of course I do! Feelings mutual girly!"

The game was still scoreless. The Bruins had so many opportunities but it wouldn't enter the net. Reilly was getting aggressive resulting in a penalty. He was pissed. Thankfully no goal resulted from the powerplay. The game went to overtime. No goals resulted into a shootout.

Back and forth, back and forth. Nothing. Reilly goes on the ice.

"Wait what?" Katie looks at me confused.

"I don't know" He was actually doing it.

"Go Reilly go!" Katie screamed. My heart was beating out of my chest.

Come on Reilly.

You could tell he was nervous.

He takes the puck from center ice and takes a shot. The horn goes off!

The whole Garden jumps on their feet. Reilly Smith with the game winner in OT!

BRUINS WIN.

He was excited for a slight second then went to his usual seriousness.

Of course. It made me chuckle a little. This kid.

The players started heading down the tunnel.

"Good job Rei! WOOO!" I hear Jess scream.

Her voice was so distinguishable from everyone else. It was so annoying that it stood out from everyone else's. Made me roll my eyes. He looks over and doesn't say anything. Just sat there, waiting to be interviewed.

"So Reilly, That was some shootout goal you just had. How does it feel?"

"It feels good, this was a win that we needed and I'm glad I could help. The rest of the guys did a great job along with Tuukka."

"This is your first shootout goal, that pretty exciting."

"It is, I always practice shootout goals and I'm glad I got a chance to do one today. Luckily it went in this time."

"I'm sure it wasn't just luck. Right guys?" as she asks the remaining people who haven’t left the Garden.

"Haha I would say a combination of the skill and luck. Definitely a good luck charm in the house tonight." He smiles and looks down.

"Agreed. Thanks Reilly. Congrats again."

"Thank you."

He jumps the bench and looks above at me and gives me a smirk before disappearing into the tunnel.

My heart stopped. Breathe.

"Oh my god" Katie whispers.

"Let's go. Please." I couldn't sit still. I get up.

"Adam just texted me and wanted to say hi. Do you mind if we wait for him for a few minutes? If not, that’s okay. I don't really mind."

"Sure, not long though, please?"

"Promise."

We head towards the locker room. It's packed which is good in a way. I didn't want to see Reilly. I couldn't. Not after that.

"Look who we have here."

I turn around, Jess and the rest of her so called friends were walking up to us.

"What are you doing here? To see Reilly? Clearly he's over you and whatever you two had."

"Then you have nothing to worry about." I snap back.

I turn away.

"How about you get out the fuck out of here?" Katie stood up.

"She's not even worth it" I pull her towards me.

"Aw how cute, you have your friends fighting your battles for you."

"At least she doesn't take advantage of her friends when they're blacked out. You call that love? Please" Katie said.

"Katie, please. Maybe if we ignore IT will go away" as I pull her away.

"Someone had to say it, Sorry. I know you are too nice to say anything but I'm not." I start laughing.

Jess froze, and mumbled something. Her friends try to comfort her as she started crying.

The players start coming out one by one. About time.

"Heyy babe!" McQuaid walks towards us and gives Katie a kiss.

"Quaider!" I call him as Adam gives me a hug.

"Hey stranger! I thought you forgot all about us". As he pulls out of the hug.

"How could I forget you guys?! Things have been a little crazy lately with school and all."

"I understand, I'm just messing with you." He knew what was going on. Everyone knew.

"Guess who?!" as someone comes behind me and covers my eyes.

"Hmm let me guess...Marchy?!"

"Aw man, how did you know!"

"Wild guess!" As he gives me a hug.

"Have you gotten taller?!" As I teased him.

"Why thank you for noticing!" We all started laughing.

"Great game today guys! It was amazing!" I congratulate them.

"Glad you could come! We miss your face" Marchy said.

"Missed you guys as well!" I really missed seeing them.

"Okay, but we really should get goin-" Katie said.

"There he is! Star of the game!" I hear people scream as the locker door opens.

My heart dropped. I didn't want to turn around.

"Hey guys" as he approaches us. Breathe. His eyes locked on mine as he stood across from me. I quickly look away.

"Great goal Reilly!" Katie says.

"Thanks Katie!" He quickly replied.

Everyone was talking to one another, this giant circle had formed. Dougie, Torey and a few others joined as well.

Reilly had left his spot. I didn't notice that he left since I was tying to avoid making eye contact with him.

Before I knew it I feel someone standing by my left side. Reilly. God I had missed him. His scent. His presence in general brought everything back. This was torture.

"Uh hey" he whispers.

"Hi, Congrats on the win."

"Thank you. How are you?"

"Good. You?"

"I've been better."

I nod my head. This small talk was a fail. This was getting awkward.

"Emma, want to head out?"

"Uh yeah." I turn to face him.

"Bye Reilly" I try to walk past him. He puts his hand out and gently grabs my waist and lowers his head towards my ear. I close my eyes and slowly exhale.

"Emma, I just want you to know nothing's changed, for me at least. What I've realized is how much I love you."

What? Did he jus-

He stops for a second. Then continues.

"Just thought you should know that. Whenever you're ready, I'll be here. No matter how long it takes."

He lets me go. I'm still hanging on to his sleeve. I pick my head up and started walking away. Trying my best to hold my tears.

Did he say he loved me? Why was he doing this. Right here. Right now.

"Reilly! There you are!" Jess walks over to him and gives him a hug.

I walk over to the guys and give them each a hug.

Marchy saw my face as I approached him. He could tell something was wrong.

"Emma, Don't worry. Everything will work out eventually, you’ll see.” Marchy whispers as he pulls me into a tight hug.

I nod.

“Thanks” as I try to force a smile.

I turn back and wave goodbye to them. I see Jess and Reilly. We made eye contact for a split second. A single tear escaped my eye and I turned around and grabbed Katie's arm as we left.

As I leave, I kept wondering if I would ever get the chance to say those words to him.

I love you too, Reilly.

Notes

Hey guys! Sorry finals week is approaching and I might not be updating this week :(
But how about them Bruins?! They are playing so well! Ah!
Thanks again for reading!
:)