Still There For Me

Sidney finally has a day off with absolutely no working out or practicing, and he’s spending the day with the kids while I do my shoot for the NHL’s documentary on Sidney and his hockey career. I’m never nervous for these things, however I am more nervous to leave the kids with Sidney. Especially because Ty is teething and he’s a little monster.

“Okay baby, I am off, I will see you later,” I waved, grabbing my keys. The kids paid no attention since they were so fascinated with actually seeing their daddy for once.

“Don’t share too much about me,” he winked.

“Oh I will.”

“About what?”

“Your big butt,” I winked, pinching his butt for fun.

“They already know about that,” he smirked back, grabbing mine.

“What about those big lips?”

“They already know about that too.”

“Well, I’ll think of something,” I laughed. “Be good with the kids.”

“Okay I will. And I’m gonna have one of the Lemieux’s babysit tonight so we can go on a date night with some of the other teammates and their women.”

“Sounds perfect. Is what I have on good or should I come home and change?”

“Yeah that’s perfect. You look hot. And I’m glad they will know you’re mine.”

“Don’t get too jealous,” I winked, kissing him and opening the front door.

“I won’t. I’ll show you off. Good luck!”

I waved and got in my car. When I got to the location where I will be filming there was a lot of press coming around trying to talk to me. It was not fun to deal with but at the same time it’s been worst. I just smiled, and walked into the building. I got mic’d up and checked my phone before the camera started rolling. I got a text from Sid saying “Good luck buttercup” with a picture of my dogs laying in Ty’s crib. I just rolled my eyes and chuckled. Idiot.

“Okay Ashley, we’re just going to ask you some simple questions and you say whatever you feel is necessary. What was it like watching him as a kid?”

“Sidney and I grew up being family friends and very close. My family would go watch him early Sunday morning on many occasions, and we’d go to his games on weekends, and whenever we could. He’s always been dedicated to the game and working on improving his skill level. He wasn’t one to give up and that came through at such a young age. He was always quiet and never really spoke about the game until he got in the car or got home, but would joke about it in the warmer area in the arena. Professionalism is also something he also had and he learned that from his father.”

“Speaking of his father, how much of an impact did he have on Sidney?”

“He definitely had a huge one but his dad isn’t that crazy hockey dad like everyone thinks. His dad was serious about the sport in the sense that if Sidney wanted to make it big with his career, he needed to take it seriously and learn how to be professional. Troy is a huge jokester but when it came to Sidney playing hockey, he too took it seriously. He never demanded his son go to practice, Sidney wanted to go, he didn’t need to be told twice. Troy was just the one to say ‘if you wanna do it, let’s achieve it together’. He’s his biggest supporter and just wants what’s best for his son.”

“At what stage did it hit you that he was going somewhere one day?”

“Probably when the news crew came and did a story on him when he was 12. We thought it was the coolest thing and we were so excited for him. Then as teams came to scout him, and he eventually left it really hit me. You could imagine what I was thinking in the other big achievements in hockey.”

“What was your reaction to the NHL draft?”

“That was huge! I was never more proud of him in my life. We had a ton of us at home watching it on TV and we were screaming, and cheering and some were crying. Then when he came home and started packing it hit me that he was leaving for the NHL. On moving day for him I remember saying goodbye to him on my driveway and just crying after he left. I never let him see me cry about it, but the second that car was far enough I let it all out.”

“Describe to me how you made your friendship work while he was gone?”

“We always stayed in touch and made sure to contact each other almost daily. I would come down to visit Pittsburgh and see a couple games but that was probably once or twice a year. Of course then there was summer but he was training for most of it. The man always trains and it’s frustrating at times but he does what he needs to do.”

“How is he as a father?”

“He’s incredible as a father. He still messes up and gets frustrated but that’s all in the learning. He teaches our kids new things everyday and has so much patience for them. He gets excited when they do something new, and is just as encouraging as his dad was with him. It warms my heart to see him act the way he does with our kids. And you can tell he’s going to get better as they get older. It’s such an honour to raise my family with such an amazing man. He’s perfect.”

“Is he a romantic?”

“Very much so. He loves to spoil the ones he loves even if they don’t want to be. He’s a generous man and thankful for what he has in his life. He realizes everything is a blessing. We took forever to get to where we are now and I’m the only person who gets to see a special side of him. Friends or significant others, I see the true Sidney. He’s still the goofy, dorky kid I grew up with. I’m so excited to share so much more with him. I know we aren’t married yet but it feels like we are and I wouldn’t change our relationship and friendship for the world.”

“Do you ever have doubts about him being a hockey player and living up to the stereotype?”

“Not at all. Sidney is not a typical hockey player. He doesn’t like to party that often, he doesn’t like attention, and he is a loyal man. When he’s with you, he is with you. He isn’t high maintenance and doesn’t like that lifestyle. He knows so many guys who does and will be friends with them but he doesn’t let that influence his life. I know that when he’s with someone he is with them for good and see’s no need to be with someone else. He’s a true gentleman.”

The interview went on and on, and I shared a couple of funny stories and I was done for the afternoon. I drove home and saw the kids eating dinner with the Lemieux girls. I tried not to be seen by them so they continue to eat. Sidney told the girls we were leaving and we were gone to dinner. After dinner however, it was to the club.

A couple of us women were having fun and dancing together with our men until fans started showing up and wanting pictures and to mingle. We just stayed back and let them talk. I went off to get a drink, I was having a blast and it was so much fun. I never get to drink anymore so when I do I make it worth it. But not to get drunk. I was already feeling tipsy. But not tipsy enough.

When I came back from getting a drink I saw Sidney with some girl. Probably a puck slut I thought. I stared from a distance, not wanting to get involved or show that it bothered me. When I looked over she had her arms wrapped around his neck and was kissing him!
My heart sunk. My hands went numb and me knees grew week. It felt like I was going to fall on the floor and die right there. How could he? After all I said about him today, and this is what happens. I couldn’t help but feel like shit and a complete idiot. This must be what happens when I’m not around. Fucking idiot.

After a little bit of staring and trying not to kill someone I saw Sidney make eye contact with me. He saw that I was upset. He instantly ran away from the girl. I caught a glimpse or her too. It was Alexia. Stupid bitch. That just made everything worst.

“Ashley, it’s not what it looks like!” he begged on the street.

“Yeah fucking right Sidney,” I said, tears forming in my eyes. I’m not going to cry about this in public. When I get home that’ll be a different story.

“Listen to me,” he said, trying to grab my arm.

“Don’t touch me. I’m going home, we can talk then.”

“I can drive you-”

“I need some space first,” I said walking away, the cold winter air in my face.

**At Home**
As the girls walked out Sidney walked in. I cannot be more furious and hurt. He is not this guy. I know he’s not. I handled the situation the best I could but now I don’t know if I can. He was upset, I could see it but he is nowhere near as upset as me.

“Ashley listen!”

“Don’t give me that shit Sidney. I knew it was too good to be true. I knew you were a stereotypical hockey player. How dare you do that to me Sid? Especially infront of me! What is wrong with you!?”

“Ashley it wasn’t me!”

“And with Alexia, how dare you!? Is that how you want your family to be!? Broken because of a homewrecking whore?”

“She kissed me!”

“And you kissed her back you dumbass! I can’t believe you!” I cried, running up to my bedroom. I started getting undressed and letting out all my emotions.

“You really think I’d do that to you?”

“Not before but now I’d say yes! I saw what happened, I’m not an idiot! You lied to me about so much and I fell for it all. Were you off cheating on me while you were ‘working out’ and ‘training’.”

“Absolutely not. You know I take it seriously, just like I said, I’m into you and only you. I would never cheat on you or break your heart. Do you think I like seeing you like this?”

“I know you don’t but that looks sketchy. Like I’m heart broken right now.”

“I know you are, but please know I didn’t do it. She came onto me and just did it. I wouldn't do that to you.”

“Is there anything you wanna confess?”

He let out a sigh. “When you were gone Alexia gave me a massage and tried to come onto me. I broke our promise, but it was then when I realized she only wanted me again. I don’t like her. And the other times she’s come over is because of the team hiring her. That’s why, not because I chose her. I know you’d hate me if I did that to you and I was afraid to tell you sooner. So there you go. I’m sorry.”

“As mad as I am, I’m not because I realize that it’s okay and normal in your career for that to happen. But I’m so pissed off Sidney. I spent all day praising you and being honest about how I feel about you and this is how my day ends. With betrayal. I don’t want to talk to you right now.”

“Can we please talk about it soon?”

“Maybe. But I have to know, do you even want to get married to me still?”

“That’s a really dumb fucking question.”

“And you’re a really dumb fucking person. I was being serious with that question and you’re treating this as a joke. I don’t find it funny.”

“I find it funny how you think I’m in the wrong here. It wasn’t my fault.”

“I’m hurt Sidney! Realize that! I’m angry and I feel like I’m in pieces.”

“How do you think I fucking feel?”

"I really don’t know right now. You’re not staying focused on the conversation.”

“I’m rattled just as much Ashley. You need to be sensitive of me too. I feel like I fucked up our whole relationship because some whore kissed me.” I just stood there and listened to him speak. “And if you even have to question how I feel or if I still want this then you’re an idiot. I’m trying to fight for you and tell you what’s going on and you’re not giving me the chance. If you’re not willing to listen or be rational than I don’t want to get married.”

“You can sleep in another room tonight. We need to talk about this later.”

“Have a good fucking night,” he said closing the door behind him, leaving me to cry.

What the heck just happened?

Notes

Outfit of the chapter: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=129566432
So sorry for the late update again! I suck, I know. Hope you're enjoying the story. I know, things got real this chapter. What do you think? Please let me know. Thank you for reading and for the feedback!