Come Closer

“Meghan Fuller.” I looked at James as we followed the nurse into one of the exam room. “The doctor will be with you shortly.” The nurse left and closed the door behind her. I sat on the exam table and James sat on the chair beside me.

“Scared?” James asked me when the nurse left the room.

“A little bit. More nervous though.” I said.

There were a series of needles on one of the tables.

“These look horrifying.” James said picking one of them up.

“James put the needle down.”

The doctor opened the door and walked in.

“Hi Meghan.” The doctor said shaking my hand.

“You must be James.” The doctor shook his as well.

“I’m Dr. Anderson, how are you guys.” He asked.

“Good.” James and I said both in unison.

“So I have received a referral from your doctor to have an appointment about IVF treatment, as I recall you have low ovarian reserve.” He said looking at his computer. “Ms. Fuller you are a perfect candidate for IVF, are you looking to start right away or just get some info and think about it?”

“Um…I think we are wanting to get the ball rolling soon, we don’t want to wait too long. James said.

“If I don’t do it right away what are the chances of me getting pregnant like 3 years from now.” I asked.

“Well, the older you get the harder it will be, you will be how old in 3 years?”

“We will both be 29.”

“I usually say that people between the age of 18-25 have a better chance of someone getting pregnant in their 30’s.” he said looking at me, he could see the look of fear in my face. “I’ll let you and James talk it over for a few minutes and I’ll be back.” He got up and left leaving only James and I in the room.

“What do you want to do babe.” He asked me standing up and taking my hands in his. “Want to do this now?”

“James what do you think?” I asked him.

“I want to start this now, I don’t want to risk anything.” He said. “You have a better chance of getting pregnant now then in 3 years, he even said you are a good candidate…I’m ready when you are.” Just as I was about to give my answer Dr. Anderson walked back into the room.

“Well, come to a decision?”

“Let’s do it…let’s start now.” I said with a smile on my face, I could also see one on James’.

“Good to hear guys, you two ready to have a baby?” the doctor asked.

James grabbed my hand and smiled at me.

“You bet we are.” I said.
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James and I had been at the clinic for 2 hours before we got home doing blood work and other kinds of necessary steps to be taken. I was also given my first shot of hormones.

We got home and I took out all of the needles and the hormones that I will need to inject once a day.

“You’re going to do this right.” I held up one of the needles and one of the glass tubes that are filled with these hormones.

“Of course” he came over the kitchen and grabbed me from behind. “What are you going to do when I’m gone?”

“I’ll get Giselle to do it, I’m too scared.” I turned around and sat on the counter so we were at eye-level. “You do know that since my hormones are going to be all fucked up I’m going to be cranky for a while or I might cry over everything.”

“I just hope you’re bitchy when I’m not here. ”He said. “Giselle can deal with you.”

“Speaking of Giselle, has Brandon said anything about her around the rink?” I asked James.

“Well he has been sulking around being all depressed.” He said. “I haven’t talked to him about it though, he doesn’t talk to anyone really, just keeps to himself.”

“What has Giselle said about him?”

“She is obviously upset, she told me yesterday that she doesn’t know if she can trust him, and she may call off the engagement.” I said. “I just told her to think hard about what she is going to do. I mean sure, I’d be pretty pissed off to if I was in her situation, I told her anyone can have a slip.”

“At least she isn’t blaming you anymore.”

“I told her to call me when she is finished talking to Brandon today, she was supposed to go over there after practice and its 3 now so hopefully everything went well.”

“I’m just glad it’s not us.” He said kissing me and hugging me.

Just as we were sharing a nice intimate moment with each other my phone rang. James went over and got it, looked at the caller ID and looked up at me.

“What?” I said to him.

“It’s your mom.” James said walking toward me and handing the phone to me.

I took a deep breath and answered it.

“Hello.” I said very mono-tone.

“Hey…how are you?”

“I’m fine, you?” I said sounding pissed off.

“Meghan I just wanted to say I’m sorry about what happened when you were here.”

“Yeah, you should be. It really hurt my feelings.” I saw James take the cap off one of the needles and was looking at it. I just shook my head.

“I know and after talking to your father I realized that I was out of line and saying that to you was very rude and un called for.” She said sounding like she was crying over the phone. “I miss my daughter and want to be a part of this wedding, and that means going down south for the wedding.”

Mom and I talked for a good hour, I told her about the doctor appointment and how we started IVF treatment. She couldn’t be happier for me.

“How did that go?” James paused the video game he was playing and turned around and looked at me.

“She said she was sorry for her shitty behaviour, and that she will come to the wedding.”

“Did you tell her about the treatment?” he asked.

“I did and she said that she couldn’t be happier for us, she wants grandbabies.”

James and I started getting hot and heavy on the couch, just in the midst of taking our clothes off I remembered what the doctor said.

James…”

“What’s wrong?” he asked me.

“We can’t have sex.” I said.

“Why not?” he looked really concerned.

“We can’t, the doctor said that we can’t before the egg extraction.”

“Doctor’s orders.” He smiled and kissed me one more time.

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