Long Way Home

Holly POV

I woke up and the room was spinning. It took all my effort to make it from the bed to the toilet before my stomach emptied itself. I hadn’t drank that much last night and was wondering why I was feeling so sick. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror, I was a mess. My make-up was smudged all over my face and I had huge bags under my eyes. Sara was still fast asleep when I reached across her to grab my phone off the table. Jamie’s read receipts were on so I could see that he read my text but I didn’t have an answer or missed call from him. I knew he would be mad and it just made me feel worse than I already did.
I’m sorry about last night – Your Holly
I sent a quick text and headed over to the kitchen. I went inside the fridge and grabbed the orange juice, I poured myself a glass hoping the freshness would make me feel better but as soon as soon as I took a couple sips I puked into the sink.
“You okay?” Sara said groggily from behind me a couple seconds later.
“Yeah I guess I drank too much last night,” I said rinsing my mouth.
“Hols you had like 2 drinks, maybe it’s something you ate?” She said while starting her coffee machine.
“We ate the same thing,” I said while slowly sipping a glass of water.
“I don’t know maybe a bug,” She said with a shrug.
“Maybe” I nodded in agreement “What are you plans for today?”
“I was going to go by the studio and see how things were going.” She smiled.
“About that Sa did you ever go see another doctor for a second opinion? Maybe you wont be able to dance like you used to but maybe you’ll be able to dance enough to teach?” I said grabbing a piece of bread.
“I didn’t back then but I’m thinking it may be a good idea” She answered.
We sat in a comfortable silence as we both scrolled through our social media.
“Did you see this?” Sara said holding her screen up to me. There was a picture of us walking downtown with the caption underneath “MRS. BENN LEAVES STARS’ CAPTAIN” in big bold letters.
“It’s not the first time something like this happens,” I say scrolling through the article quickly. It’s the same as always, full of rumors all stemming from one picture of me being back home. I was surprised people in Montreal even cared.
“You okay?” she asked.
“I’m fine don’t worry about it” I said with a smile. I took a bite of my toast but as soon as it hit my stomach I was running to the bathroom.
“Maybe I should stay home with you today?” Sara said from the hallway outside the bathroom.
“No no, you go I’ll be fine” I said once I steadied myself. What was wrong with me?
Sara left about half an hour later after a lot of convincing from me. I hung around the apartment and as the day went by I started to feel better. Jamie still hadn’t sent any messages and you were starting to get worried.
Is Jamie okay? – Holly
He’s upset, had a rough practice. He’s still on the ice but I’m sure he’ll text when he gets off – Tyler
Thanks Ty – Holly
You’re welcome –Tyler
I threw my phone on the bed as I paced back and forth in the apartment. I didn’t feel like myself, I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I love Sara but I feel like ever since she came back into my life my world was falling apart. Jamie and I were fighting which was new and I felt different, I felt like I wasn’t myself anymore. I walked into the bathroom to get ready, to get out of the apartment when I spotted the box of tampons in the basket in the bathroom. What day was it? I said looking for my phone and checking the date, I was late. I was really really late. I was out of the apartment and running to the closest drug store I could find. I paced up and down the aisles until I found the pregnancy tests. I grabbed five and paid for them, quickly heading back to the apartment. My heart dropped, the last time I had to go through this I had Jamie by my side and I wasn’t scared. Just looking at the boxes now made my heart drop. I grabbed my phone and dialed Jamie’s number quickly, I knew he probably wouldn’t answer because he was probably still on the ice or in the shower.
“You’ve reached Jamie, leave a message and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can” his voicemail rang.
“Jamie is Holly,” I said trying to hold back the cracking in my voice “call me back please” I added before closing the phone. I grabbed the boxes, reading the instructions on each and setting them up. I had to know, I had to know now.

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