My Skies Are Turning Black

~S~
I offered to drop Harley off at home but she refused since Jonathan was at home already.
~H~
I slowly turned the key and pushed open the door trying to be as quiet as possible since it was 12am. Jonathan was sitting at the kitchen counter. He looked up from his book and I tried to quickly pass himby to get to the room. "Hey, Harley..." Fuck. I spun around to face him.
"...Yes?" I glared at him questioningly, hoping this death stare I was giving him would somehow make him realize his shit behaviour.
"Look i'm sorry for the way I acted tonight. Look i'm just trying to make it work okay?" He shuffled his feet nervously. I wanted to slap him across the face but for the sake of my situation right now I didn't.
"Okay I forgive you. It's fine." He opened his mouth to say more but I shut the room door before he could. I lay down on my bed and couldn't help it now. The fact that I loved Sidney. All this time I pushed these feelings for him aside because of the pregnancy and Toews but I couldn't hold myself back anymore. I was going to tell him tomorrow. So I messaged him.
Hey Sid, can we meet tomorrow at around 4-5? I wanna talk to you about something.
Yeah sure. I wanted to talk to you about something too, actually. How about the park across from the UC at 5pm? See you then.
I rolled over onto my pillow and fell asleep with a smile on my face.
~S~
I checked how I looked one last time in the mirror. I wasn't in the mood lately to attempt to look amazing but I hoped I looked decent. Everything was so hectic lately but once I got to see Harley I instantly felt better. So i fixed my hair a bit more and sprayed on some more cologne for her.
~H~
I checked my watch. It was 5:10 which meant Sidney would be here any minute now. I was getting more anxious by the minute but then I saw him walking over to me with his usual smile on his face. I got up and hugged him. "Sidney it's so good to see you."
"You too." He sat down beside me and we made small talk for a few minutes when he finally got to the reason why we were here. "So what did you want to tell me Harley?"
"Hm?" Shit. I couldn't do this. "Oh uh, you can go first!" I shouldn't have said that but it just spilled out of my mouth.
"Okay well...theres this girl. Evie. I've known her for a while and i'm really in love with her. But I don't know if I should tell her yet, and I wanted to ask you about it."
I felt my heart break. All this time I didn't realize that me and Sidney weren't together. We weren't a thing. We were just friends. So it was only fair that he found someone. I had no right to be mad about this. But...of course I could be heartbroken. Everything just wasn't fair.
"Harley?" I snapped out of my daze. And replied while choking back tears.
"Yeah.. Um Sidney I think you should tell her. Like right now. Before it is too late. Honestly any girl would love a guy like you so don't be afraid of telling her. Do it before its too late, okay?"
"Okay..you know what, I'm going to go right now.. Thank you Harley. Now what were you going to tell me?"
"Nothing, I actually just wanted to see you. You should go and tell Evie right now. Tell me how it goes okay!" He got up to leave.
"Okay I will." He hugged me tight. "Thanks Harley." And with that Sidney turned and left, and I let the tears I had been holding back flow
freely down my face. And once again, I was left standing heartbroken, all alone.

That night Jonathan decided we should go to dinner. To "bond". I called bullshit but agreed to go anyways. Maybe his idea would work? We got to the restaurant and I gave the waiter my order and Jonathan put down his phone to look at me.
"So when is the next doctors appointment?" He asked curiously while playing with his Rolex.
"Next Friday." He looked up at me for the first time tonight.
"Oh damn..."
"Yeah I knew it, you have a game that day. It's okay you can come next time." He nodded. We talked about baby names, genders, and some stuff we still needed to buy, when I began to think back to the time I told him I was pregnant.
I stared at my tear stained reflection in the mirror then back down at the test. Oh my god. I couldn't believe this was happening. I shouldn't have done it. We should have been more careful rather than just going straight into it. But I was stupid enough to be so overtaken by the thrill of losing my virginity to this hot young hockey player than to worry about getting pregnant. My mother knocked on the door of my room to tell me we were leaving for the Hawks game soon and I collapsed onto my bed and began crying again. All I had done was cry the whole day. I skipped university today too because the fear of what the test just proved would have eaten me up all day. I tried one last time to call him but of course, he didn't answer. Jonathan wouldn't even pick up his phone and my parents didn't know yet either. If they found out they would be very upset even if I was 19 already. I cried for the next ten minutes...until I darted up. Since we were going to the Hawks game...maybe I could find Toews and tell him in person? It was risky but...at this point, a risk I was willing to take. And I wasn't going to be afraid of him.
At the United Center my parents went off to find our seats and I told them I had to go to the washroom. I had a pass from last season that would let me backstage, but it was expired. If I managed to get past the security guard secretly then no one would question me backstage if I had it around my neck. Looking around for where to go, I saw a sign that read "PLAYERS AND STAFF ONLY". Score. That was my key to finding Jonathan. I pretending to be calling someone on my phone while I waited for the one security guard by that entrance to become distracted. A family of five walked up to him and began asking for directions to the merchandise. This was my chance. I half walked and half ran past the guard without anyone even noticing and headed backstage. There were so many places to go and such little time...how was I ever going to find Jonathan? Until I saw my ticket. Corey Crawford. Time to turn on my charm. I casually sauntered up to him and shook his hand. "Hey, Corey! Nice to see you again. Remember me?" He smiled, but it faded as he tried to remember me.
"Hi! Uh, i'm so sorry, who are you again?"
"It's okay! I'm Harley! Jonathan's friend from Winnipeg! You and I met at the Stanley Cup party back in 2013, don't you remember?"I was so nervous. I hoped I didn't mess it up.
"Hmm...I don't seem to remember you, but we probably met, I mean there were a lot of people there." I nodded slowly. He resumed putting on his gear and I looked around casually.
"So, Corey did you see Jonathan?"
"Hm? Oh um he was just here.. Why?"
"Oh nothing, it's just I wanted to surprise him before the game."
"Ah." He looked around, then called over Patrick Kane. "You seen Tazer?" Patrick nodded and announced Toews was in the hallway straight down. Corey looked at me to tell me there's your answer and I nodded.
"Oh and don't tell anyone. Y'know, I wanted it to be a secret okay!" He simply nodded and I was on my way. Walking down the hallway I could hear hear my heart beating in my chest, when it suddenly dropped. Jonathan Toews. Right there in front of me, leaning against the wall, fixing his skates. I turned around and began walking back the way I came. NO. No way in hell was I going to do this. But then I stopped. I had to though. There was no other choice! So I took a few deep breaths, and walked up in front of him. "Jonathan, we need to talk. It's me, Harley." He looked up slowly from his skates.
"Who are you?"
"Harley. Harley Kenway. We met three months ago and we hooked up...?" He seemed to realize who I was, and began tying his laces again.
"So?"
"Look, I...um...I'm..." Shit. I couldn't do it. I was terrified. He sighed.
"Look Harley, whoever you are, I don't have all day."
"Okay. I have to tell you that..." Here goes. "I'm pregnant. And...your the father." He almost choked on the gatorade he was sipping. He spun around to face me.
"Look, sweetheart. You shouldn't be messing around with the big fish, okay? I don't have time for your bullshit stories. I'm a professional athlete and don't have time to deal with this crap."What the fuck? How could he not believe me? I wanted to cry as he began to walk away from me.
"Look we had sex three months ago. You fucking came in me don't you remember that?" He spun around to face me.
"Hey! Keep your voice down, okay? I have a rep and I don't want anyone here to hear about your little drama. Yeah I do remember that night three months ago. But that doesn't necessarily mean-" i cut him off.
"Jonathan I was the one who said we should have been more careful but no you just fucking used me with no care about theconsequences. I know you're fine but what about me?"
"Look I don't know, okay? I don't have time. I have to go play a game and i'll talk to you about this later." He walked away.
"Don't just leave me here..." But my words were no use as no one would hear them now over the roar of the crowd as the game was beginning.
And I was left alone in that empty hallway to cry.

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