My Skies Are Turning Black

I woke up with severe pain in my abdomen. I checked the time and it was 2am. Shit there was no way I was going to get back to sleep. I decided to try and get up but lay back down again when the pain became even more severe than before. It got so bad that I couldn't help but cry. I had to get Jonathan. I managed to get myself up out of bed and opened the door. Jonathan was half awake sitting on the coach and he got up to come over to me as soon as he saw me in pain. "Harley? What's wrong you okay?" I shook my head.

"No Jonathan I don't know what's happening. The pain is so bad I can't move oh my god." I couldn't prevent it. I fell to the floor and grabbed my stomach. Jonathan leaned down and put his arm around me.

"Hey, it's okay you'll be fine. We're gonna go to the hospital okay? Hang in there. I'll be back." He left to go and get the keys and the pain got even worse. At this point I couldn't even breathe.

"Jonathan please! Do something!" I cried out. He rushed back over to me.

"Hey it's okay, Harley. Can you walk?" I shook my head. I could barely stand. "Okay, i'm gonna carry you." He lifted me up and reassured me as we took the elevator down. Thank God it was 2am and no one was around. On our way to the hospital in his car, worry with a mix of fear set in.

"Jonathan...will the baby be okay?" Tears streamed down my face.

"Harley, of course. Nothing will happen to our baby, okay? I promise." Our baby. He said it for the first time ever. Those two words gave me some sort of reassurance and I laid back against the seat. He took my hand and I nodded. The ten minutes it took to get to the hospital were the most agonizing of my life. (It took 10 because Jonathan went at the speed of 80 in a 60 zone, but it was serious) Well, besides from when I was in a plane crash. We got to the emergency and the nurse asked us to sit and wait 20 minutes. But when she took a second look at my hysterical state, and my crying she realized the pain I was in and ran to call a doctor. "Harley? Hey hang in there okay? You will be fine." Jonathan took my hand and I squeezed it tightly.

"It hurts so bad I can't even breathe Jonathan what if something happens!" Great, things could not get worse. I began having a panic attack on top of the pain shooting through my stomach, because I was worried sick about my baby and the people staring at me in shock. The doctor rushed in to the mostly empty waiting room except for a few bored looking patients with a wheelchair and a second nurse. They helped me up from the chair. "Wait stop please!" I cried out. The doctor stopped helping me up and looked at me like I was crazy. "I'm..i'm gonna throw up I can't get up please just stop!" I threw a fit at the two nurses and doctor that were trying to help me. Jonathan looked at me as if I was crazy.

"Harley, you have to get up c'mon. They are trying to help and your condition is worsening with every second. Come on. It's okay if you throw up they've got you covered." He slowly got me up and into the wheelchair, and I proceeded to throw up continuously for the next 3 minutes. I felt so weak, and the pain wasn't any less. I don't know why I felt like lashing out at everyone around me who were only trying to help. After I was sure I was done vomiting, the doctor and nurses took me into the examination room.

I fell asleep after my pain was relieved and woke up five hours later, at 7am. Jonathan was sleeping in the chair by my bedside, and the doctor from this morning walked into the room with a broad smile. Jonathan awoke and looked disoriented."Hi, Harley. And to start, yes your baby is absolutely fine. No need to worry about that. Now, I was looking at your file, and your medical records are completely fine, but, you are having these problems because of the plane crash you were in and the trauma you suffered. I see the doctor at the hospital you were treated at made a note of that in your file. What happened to you, was that you had a placental abruption. Now in the plane crash, you had some abdominal trauma, correct?" I nodded.

"Yeah...when I was trapped, I was stomach down..."

"Hmm. Yes. So due to that, the odds of you having a placental abruption became higher. Now what happened is the placenta separated from the uterine wall, which is a highly dangerous complication, but your case was mild so there is nothing to worry about anymore. Okay?" I nodded slowly. "Great. You can go home by this afternoon." He left the room after checking a few things.

"Harley, you feeling better?" Jonathan asked, sitting up.

"A lot. Thank you...for everything you did, helping me."
"No problem. I had to after all. It's my child too." Glad to see we were getting along.

~S~
I woke up and faintly remembered last night. And in a couple of minutes it all came back to me perfectly. I looked over to Evie sleeping on the other side of my bed. We went on a date last night, got a little wasted...okay a lot wasted, then we ended up back at my place and we ending up having sex. We had a fucking threesome with her best friend. A pretty great night. I rolled over to check my phone and saw 10 missed calls from Harley. Shit. Was she okay? I jolted up from bed and went out to the balcony to call her. She answered after three rings. "Hey, Sid." She sounded tired.

"Hey Harley. I'm so sorry I couldn't take your call. What's up? Is everything okay?"
"Sidney...I had some problems last night, with the baby, but i'm fine now. I honestly felt like I was going to die from the pain."

"Harley, i'm coming to see you, okay? I'm so sorry I couldn't talk to you when you called." I jotted down the hospital name and left Evie a note telling her she could stay if she wanted until I got back, or leave. I got to Harley's room and she smiled the instant she saw me. We talked for what ended up being a few hours and before we knew it, it was 4pm and Harley was dismissed. "So where's Jonathan?"

"He had to go. Coach called him for something and he had to go but said he'd be back. Ugh captain stuff."

"Whatever. Forget him. I'll take you home." She smiled.

"Thank you Sidney. As usual you are amazing."

~H~
Sidney had to leave too once he dropped me home as it ended up being a team meeting and I reassured him I would be fine at home for a few hours. I turned the key in the lock and pushed open the door. "SURPRISE BITCH!" I was taken a back for a second, but a smirk appeared on my face as I realized who it was. My besties. My gonna take over the world bitches. Dakota, Izzy, Mackenzie, and Annalise.

"Guys! What is this! I exclaimed as I went over to hug them.

"Well, we heard about how you were in the hospital and stuff, so Jonathan said that since we were all back in Chicago, we should surprise you! To make you feel better." Annalise exclaimed. So Jonathan finally did something...sweet.

"So the gang was back in Chi city but no one told me huh!"

"Sorry babe it HAD to be a surprise for you!" Dakota exclaimed as she hugged me tight. We all settled down in the living room and Mackenzie made tea for everyone.

"Soo... YOU GOT PREGNANT THAT NIGHT?!" Izzy exclaimed.

"Yeah, such a bitch. You left your own party for him, and fucked him. Way to care for us." Mackenzie chimed in.

"Say...tell us." Annalise spoke quietly. I took a sip of my tea.

"Tell you...what?" Mackenzie rolled her eyes.

"About that night loser. Where all this began. You went totally MIA after you found out you were pregnant, and then the plane crash stuff. So we never got to know all the deets." I sighed.
"Okay, bitches."

"Wait." Jonathan stopped and looked at me.

"Yes?"

"Um I hate to stop us in the middle of sex but we're not using protection and I don't think that's a good idea." He rolled his eyes.

"Yeah...I don't have protection right now." Fuck. I sat up.

"But i'm not on birth control or anything...I mean i'm still a virgin and I wasn't planning on having sex or anything lately..." At this point I was feeling unsure of going on.

"Look nothing will happen okay it's fine."

"Do you have unprotected sex with all the girls?"

"No, I use protection but I really don't have anything right now. Do you wanna do this or not?" He leaned over my shoulder and gently caressed my skin. I mulled the thought over. Yeah there was a big risk... But I wanted it so badly...Jonathan Toews was so hot I couldn't help it. I knew I should stop, but I couldn't bring myself to.

"Okay I wanna do this." He smirked and pushed me back down onto the couch. I felt the guilt as he began fucking me again but I couldn't help it. I wanted this and nothing was gonna stop me now. Jonathan pulled out of me and I sat up on the couch.
"Fuck. That was really good."

"Agreed." Jonathan got up to go get water and handed me a glass. We talked about hockey and random stuff and ended up having sex for a second time. Which I would end up greatly regretting because I ended up screaming at him to come in me...both fucking times, to which he hesitated at first but it ended up happening in the heat of the moment.There goes my plan to avoid risky sex.

"Don't you wanna, go take a shower or something?" He raised an eyebrow.

"Well yeah of course. I mean, if your going to then I guess i'll just join you."

"Great." I took a shower with Jonathan which resulted in a, literally, wet make out session and I proceeded to put my clothes back on after we got out.

"Well I gotta go, my flight is tomorrow morning and I still gotta pack." Would he drop me...or would I have to take a stupid cab back..."

"Oh i'll drop you, it's cool." Score.
I looked around at the faces of all my friends. They all had the same, jaw dropped expression.
"You bitch, you fucked Jonathan friggin Toews like 2 times that night and never told us until now!" Dakota hit me with a pillow.
"SORRY for having, y'know, a life and things to do!" I exclaimed.
"So...the real questions now. Are you going to...keep it or...you know, adoption...?" Mackenzie asked questioningly. I had never though about it until now.
"I don't know...if Jonathan is willing to raise it with me, properly, then yeah, but from the looks of it I don't think so. I might give it up for adoption if it comes to it." Mackenzie nodded.
"No worries Harley. You do what you feel will be best for you and your child. AND don't let anyone influence your decisions."
We began talking about other things but the burning thought still remained; did I really want to keep this child...or give it up?

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