February 14, 2014

“Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be the damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale”
~Today Was a Fairytale~
-Taylor Swift

Today is Valentine’s Day. A day where couples can be cute and extraordinary while singles can be sad and lonely. To me, I used to love the holiday when I dated Ryan. Then I hated it. I hated the feeling of no love and loneliness. But today, that all changes. I had a date. On Valentine’s Day! I would say that Patrick and I were doing pretty well. I even forgot about Ryan when I’m with him but it was all strange to me. He doesn’t date girls so I just hope he isn’t doing it to get into my pants. He had that reputation. Puck bunnies, late nights, the life that any 20-something year old guy wants.

Rachael, who didn’t have a date for Valentine’s Day, was helping me get ready for my date tonight. She was obsessing over what I would wear and how to do my hair. I felt guilty for having a date and leaving Rachael alone on the most romantic night of the year but Rachael reassured me that she was fine and I should enjoy my night and stop complaining about having a date.
“Rach, Patrick said to wear something warm and comfy tonight.” I reminded her, before she took out the fanciest or sluttiest dress I had.

“I know, I know. I wonder what he’s got in store for tonight. Romantic dinner? But why wouldn’t he ask you to wear something fancy then? This is definitely a mystery!”

At about six o’clock, there was a knock on the door and Rachael very excitedly went to open it. I heard voices before Rachael came back into my bedroom and finished up my make-up.

“Ok, boo, have fun for the both of us.” Rachael hugged me.

“Are you sure you’ll be ok for the night?” I asked again, for the hundredth time today.

“Don’t worry, Kendall. I have my rom-com movies and tissues and I’m going to be crashing here at your place tonight!” She said, with a smile on her face. “Now go have fun.”

“Ok, thanks for everything Rach! Love you! Bye!”

Patrick and I walked out of my house and we got in his car.

“Before I forget, you look beautiful tonight.” He complimented.

“Thanks but I’m only wearing something comfy, just like you wanted me too. You look good, as usual” I returned the gesture and got a good look at him.

He chuckled. “You look beautiful in anything. You just can’t resist me in my comfy clothes, huh?” He said, while smirking at me.

I laughed. “Whatever helps you sleep at night, Kaner. If you don’t mind telling me, where are we going?”

“It’s a surprise and surprises are not meant to be spoiled.” He said and I thought of the different possibilities of tonight.

We sat in a comfortable silence for the rest of the car ride, as the radio was playing in the background quietly. We drove to an area I didn’t recognize and it was really quiet. It had this feeling like it was farther from the city. Patrick opened up my door and I got out to see a small frozen pond with candles all around. Patrick was holding up two pairs of skates and motioning me to come over.

“I thought it would be nice to get away from the city, you know, without the noise, the people, and everything.” He said, as we were putting our skates on.

As we made our way onto the ice, I wobbled a bit, since it’s been a while since I skated and that’s when I got a good look around. It was really beautiful. There were at least a hundred candles around and each candle had a rose beside it. I could tell Patrick took an immense amount of effort preparing this.

He then took me by my hands and we skated around and it seemed like he had this all figured out. He even figured out how he was going to skate with me because it seemed like he knew exactly which way he wanted us to skate and where to skate to. There wasn’t much talking between us. Talking wasn’t necessary. We were talking with our eyes. I was lost in his blue eyes. There was a connection between us that I cannot describe and I bet people miles away could feel this connection that was so intense between us.

After what seemed like hours, he carried me off, setting me down on a small blanket on the ground where there was a bottle of champagne, glasses, and a basket which was probably filled with our dinner. As we enjoyed the champagne and each other’s company, I looked back at the pond. My suspicions were correct. Patrick did plan out how he wanted us to skate because right there on the ice, there was a message. I love you. Clear as crystal. I looked back at him to be staring at me.

“I’ve never said ‘I love you’ before to a girl and wasn’t sure how to say it to you because I really do love you.” He said, his eyes never leaving mine.

“Wow. I’m lost for words.” Did he just say he loved me? Patrick Kane just said he loved me.

“I-I love you too.” I blurted out without thinking.

He pulled me into him so that I was lying on his chest. It was a beautiful night for Valentine’s Day. We ended up eating our dinner in the car because we were both freezing but after we were done, we went back outside to skate a bit more.

A few hours later, we were laying in the snow, exhausted from skating for hours. Fatigue took over me and I fell asleep in Patrick’s arms. I really did love him.

~

I woke up in an unfamiliar place the next morning. I looked to my left to see Patrick and I were cuddling in the backseat of his car. The first thing I did was pull out my phone to see a few messages.

Rachael: hey so i guess it’s safe to say you’re not coming home tonight?

Seabs: have you seen kaner anywhere?

Tina: happy v-day!

I replied to everyone except Tina who probably sent that text to all her contacts. I barely even remember what she looked like. All I know is that she was my friend in high school.
Next to me, Patrick started to stir and I stepped out of the car, making sure not to wake him up. I texted Seabs, asking if we could meet up. He replied saying to meet me at his place at noon.
Patrick opened the car door, still groggy, and said, “Hey, what are you doing outside?”

“Just didn’t want to bother you while you were sleeping.”

“Come back.”

Reluctantly, I went back in, trying to get comfortable but it was extremely hard because we were in the backseat.

“Maybe we should head back. Rachael’s probably worried, you know?” I said, trying to persuade him to take me back so I could meet up with Seabs.

“Yeah, let’s go.” The car ride was quiet. It was as if nothing happened last night. There was no connection like last night. There was just something off.

By the time we got back to my place, I was half asleep and Patrick had to carry me in. I heard Rachael and Patrick talking but couldn’t really make out the words since they were in the living room and I was in my room. As soon as he was gone, I got up and in my car, making sure Patrick was already gone before I left.

I arrived at Brent’s place just in time and he let me in, happily.

“So what did you want to talk about?” He asked, as he brought me some water.

“He said he loved me.”

“He what?”

“He said he loved me.”

“Well this was unexpected. And did you say it back?”

“Yes but I don’t if I do or not.”

“You came to me for girl problems?”

“Brent! Not the time!”

“Right, sorry. So did you say it because he said it or because you actually do.”

“I have no idea.” I explained the whole night to him.

“Well sorry to break it to you but you love him.”

“But I can’t! He’s Patrick Kane!”

“I know how he can be sometimes. Yes, he hasn’t had the best record for relationships but I can tell you that he really loves you. Sure there are going to be ups and downs but that’s how a relationship works. It took me a few tries to get Dayna to go on a second date with me but if I gave up after the first try, I would not be the person I am today. Just give it a try. He may fuck up at some point but he loves you. He really does.” He said, sincerely.

“Thank you, Brent. You really are a great friend. I’ll take your sage advice, relationship expert.” I said, laughing.

“I am pretty good with relationships.” He said, agreeing with me.

“Well I better get going and sorry for wasting your time.” I left, thinking about everything he said. Give it a try. Give him a chance.

Give it a try. I love you. I’m in love with Patrick Kane.

Notes

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