Now I've got you in my space,
I won't let go of you,
You got me shackled in my embrace,
I'm latching on to you

*JVR'sPOV*

I was left standing alone in the kitchen the only sound that of my ragged breathing.

I contemplated running after April but thought better of if.

With heavy feet I trudged to the couch and plopped down with a deep sigh.

"What the hell is going on?" I thought as I threw my head back in frustration.

Was I reading the signs all wrong? Did she really want to be with me?

If she didn't want to be with you she definetly wouldn't have kissed you

Just as I was about to get up and go wallow in my room, I heard the front door open and close with a click as Joffrey let himself in.


"Hey man." He greeted sitting down beside me.

"Hi." I said flatly

"What's wrong?" He frowned.

"Nothing." I mumbled hoping he would drop the subject but knowing Joff, of course he didn't.

"You're not a very good liar you know." He said nudging my arm. "Talk to me."

"It's really nothing." I insisted "Nothing you could help me with anyway."

"What is it?" He urged.

"It's April."

"April? What happened, is she ok?"

"She's fine, nothing happened to her something happened between us."

"Something like..." He trailed off

"I kissed her."

"And?"

"And nothing." I snapped "She ran off."

"You ok?"

"Not really." I replied "Wait why don't you seem suprised by this?"

"By what?"

"By the fact that I kissed April."

"You guys aren't exactly subtle." He shrugged

"Do you think the rest of the guys know how I feel?"

"Nobody's said anything but it's pretty obvious man." Joffrey explained "I mean we all see the way you two look at each other."

"Phil's more worried than anything though."

"Phil?" I asked "Why is he worried?"

"April is Tyler's little sister and she's kinda like a little sister to Phil. I guess he just doesn't-"

"Want to see her get hurt." I finished for him as he nodded.

"Yeah."

"I'd never do anything to hurt her."

"I know that." He replied "And I think April knows that too."

"Then why'd she run off?" I asked scrubbing my hands over my face.

"Did you tell her how you feel?"

"Didn't kissing her imply how I feel?"

"No." Was his response "You gotta talk to her man. Kissing her isn't going to tell her how you feel or what you're thinking."

"Look no ones going to make you do anything." He said when I didn't respond. "Just tell her before it's too late."

And with that he dissapeared from my side and just as he was making his way out the door he turned around.

"She's not going to wait for you forever man." He said before closing the door behind him.

***

*April's POV*

I had only but lifted my arm to knock on the door when it swung open and James stopped dead in his tracks when he saw me.

It was silent for several seconds as we stared at each other. I looked into James' eyes and I saw fear, confusion and hurt and it made my heart ache to know that I was the cause of it.

James was an amazing person who deserved everything good in the world and he sure as hell didn't deserve the way I was treating him.

But amongst the more painful things I also saw hope in his eyes, hope and love and a warmth that I just wanted to capture and keep because through out everything that had happened he was always there for me and made me feel at home.

Before either of us had a chance to speak I took a leap of faith and leaned in closing the space between us.

I hesitated when he didn't respond but it immediatly faded when his arms snaked around my waist as he deepened the kiss.

Several moments of bliss passed by as I tried to memorize the feel of his soft lips against mine and the way his hair felt against my fingers.

Then suddenly I was pulling away and we were both brought back to reality.

"I'm sorry." I whispered when we detached from one another.

"For what?"

"For putting you through all this." I confessed. "For making you think that I was ready, that I was...over what happened with Logan."

"Are you over it?"

"I don't think I ever will be." I shook my head. "It's always going to be somewhere in the back of my mind."

"But." I continued gently taking his hands in mine and interlocking our fingers. "I'm ready to move on, I'm ready to be with you."

"I thought you said..." James trailed off a look of confusion masking his features.

"I know." I sighed. "I know what I said and I'm starting to think I didn't mean it."

"I want this, I want you and I know that won't happen if I keep pushing you away. I've been so obsorbed in trying to protect myself that I hadn't noticed I was hurting you."

"Hey it's okay." He said softly placing a hand on my cheek sending shivers down my spine.

"I'm sorry it took me so long to realize." I whispered as he pulled my body close to his holding me against his chest.

"I've got you now." He mumbled against my hair. "That's all that matters."

I looked up at him and returned the lopsided grin he gave me.

"Yeah." I whispered as he brought his lips to mine in a kiss that was fierce and passionate yet endearing and patient.

"I love you." James announced when he pulled away.

I didn't say anything just kissed him until I was out of breath and all I could think about was the way his arms lifted me up effortlessly and pulled me impossibly closer.

I was completely surrounded by James and in that moment with his lips on mine and his arms wrapped around me he was all I needed.

Notes

Wow where have I been huh? Extremely sorry for this very very late update it's long overdue and I apologize again but hope you enjoy!!

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